Fate

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URGH!!
my ribsa are in freaking pain. I cried on the floor for about 15-20 minutes,  took a hot shower and even drank 3 pain pills - yet still in pain.

This is my own fault. I should've just took the self-defense classes my mom wanted me took when I was younger, or atleast already have complained to the dormitory offices about heated roommate. Then again, if I do that , they'll tell me about the fees I need to pay.

I sigh and instantly regret it as pain spreads across my chest. The Grindr notification goes off on my phone. Should I answer? I mean, I need the money right now. Last nights session didn't give much so I might as well take this one. I begrudgingly push myself up and open up the app.

Its a new account that messaged me. This is a good break for me, some needy horny asshole needs a outlet. It's almost like a Evil Starved Animalistic-like growl sounds right before it goes for the kill, I'll be about to charge em extra and if they say no I'll blackmail to out them. Don't worry I won't actually do it but yeah. Right now the ends justify the means.

I'm about to open up the message when from the top of my screen i se my mom message me.

         'I'm about to call you in 1 minute and.            47 seconds'

OH! MY! GOSH! Why the hell now? Of all times why now? Like really? Without thinking of tmy ribs I throw myself back onto my bed and flinch hard from the pain of impact, I hate these hardened beds.

What does my Mom even want to know now? What dis she hear?  OH NO, what is the University called her about the outstanding fees. Then again I leavt out all the information about her blank when applying. Yet the faculty dean did recognize me because I, "look alot like the King's Elite Guard". My ring tone brings me out of my thoughts  and as sure as hell it's my mother calling me.

I can't make her wait long since she probably had to struggle to get free time just to call me. "Hi Ma" I say after raising the phone to my ear.

"Oh you actually picked up this time. How are you fox?" URGH! That stupid freaking nickname that my mom sayd my dad apparently gave me. Who ever the hell he is.

"Yeeaahh, sorry Ma. It's been hectic at Uni recently. We're shorta starting the series now, but I'm still coping don't worry. My pills are still packed and room clean to top it off I've picked up some weight too" Even though the lie comes off my tongue like water through algae, I can't help but notice all the contradictions to the things I've just said. My empty medication bottle in the trash, my tiny section of the rooms a mess and my body - she would be so disappointed I'd she saw me now. I can't even come clean now either, I've already lied to her for a year and a half.

" oooohh, that's so great. After we cgasrd down a young magic bearer yesterday. I couldn't help but think if you , that poor kid did nothing wrong. All he did was born and even that wasn't his decision, and worst of all into a hatred filled world who doesn't like his kind" she says sadly, but all I can think if now in the fact that they caught a magic bearer. And why'd it make her think if me?

"And how exactly does that make you think of me?" You ask in a bored tone. I regret it the moment I hear myself, I didn't mean for it to sound like it, I just couldn't stop myself from expressing my large lack of interest.

" I don't know. I just saw a young khoi boy and " she sighs " and I miss you I guess" she takes a deep breatha and I don't say anything cause I know she'll be continuing. "You know Kai, it's been about a year and a half and I still haven't seen you since you went to the university at the start if LAAAAST year. Isn't it about time that I come to visit you?"

I knew this was bound to come up. Its not like i don't want her here and want to see her. It's kust that, I won't be able to handle her reaction once she see's my bruised body and crop living conditions. It'll hurt her so much and I can't stand to hurt her like that again. Plus she'd send me back to the 'mal huis' again thinking that I relapsed, weeeeeelllllllll......