Kurt Was My Lover

Chapter 8

I woke up next to Axl wishing it was Kurt. I got in the shower and did my regular routine except this time, I cried in the shower quietly. While crying I was interrupted.

"Hey baby I'm gonna need you to hurry the f*ck up because I have an interview to get too." he said and I laughed at that.

"Okay I'll be right out" I say trying my best not to sniffle.

Once I get out I see my outfits picked out for me already.

"Thats your outfit if you don't like it choose something else we got go soon."

"Okay" I reply back as he walks in the bathroom brushing his hair and tying his bandana on and then putting hid hat on backwards.

I put on the black V-Neck tank that showed a bit of cleavage and was cropped and there red plaid pleated miniskirt and some black platformed heels. I actually like it. I then parted my hair in the middle and put black eyeliner on and red lip stick that matched the skirt and added blush. I actually really liked this outfit. He was already dressed and wore red leather skinny jeans with a white shirt and some white nike sneakers.

"Ready" He asked.

"Yes." I said while grabbing my brick phone.

Our driver drove us there and I saw Kurt and the whole band sitting there. Thank god, Courtney wasn't there. I saw Kurt and he smiled at me and I gave him an emotionless face. It was then Axl who was being interviewed with his band. I was sitting behind the camera while they were asking him questions and spaced out while staring at Kurt. I didn't even notice I was staring at Kurt, I just was. I then started to return back from space.

"So what do you do or say when you want it but she doesn't?" the Interviewer man asked.

"I just tell her, If I can't have you right now I'll wait dear." he says super cocky. I have no idea what he's talking about. He curls his finger indicating to come over there. I walk from behind the camera to in front and Axl pulled me roughly onto his lap almost making me roll my ankle because my heels are really high. He then licks my neck. Gross. I pretend like nothing's happened. I can see Kurt who was sitting from behind the camera and just stared at Axl with this mean look. I felt like an object.

"Can you hand me a water bottle?" Slash asked me.

"Sure" I said and got up and gave him one. While standing to get up Axl lifts my skirt up and shows my butt. I opened my eyes wide open and quickly pushed it back down.

"Stop" I said to him madly while smacking his hand away. He started laughing and the rest of Guns N Roses did too.

"Baby I'm just playing" Axl said to me and he laughed with the rest of his band and then rubs his hands on my hips. I push his hands off me and walk away while swaying my hips outside, but as I was walking away he slapped my butt. I was pretty mad so I ran outside. I heard again him laugh with his friends. Once I got outside I smoked some weed that I rolled up.

"Why do you let him treat you like that?" Kurt asked. I open my eyes after I blew the smoke out of my mouth.

"Why do you care?" I said coldly to him while inhaling.

"Can I have one?" Kurt asked. I hand him one and light it for him.

"Thanks" he said.

"Follow me" Kurt says and puts his hand out. I roll my eyes and grab his hand. We then walked in this forest thing were no one was except for us.

"I miss you" Kurt said.

"Sure ya do?" I say sarcastically and smile and roll my eyes. I then threw the pot down and stepped on it, as Kurt did the same.

"I left you because I thought I would drag you down. You and I are or were messed up and you know it, I just thought it would have been best if I let you be alone instead of with someone depressed and stuff."

"I don't care. I loved you and I will always love you. I didn't care if we were both messed up. I wanted to wait it out, be poetic to each other and just loose our minds together." I said while almost crying.

"Do you still love me?" Kurt asked and started crying. I love when he gets sensitive.

"Of course baby. You just found someone knew" I said. I then wiped his tears and looked at his face. It was all scratched up and I knew what that meant.

"Are you addicted to the needle?" I asked him standing back a bit to look at him. He immediately started crying. I then saw him start pinching himself while he was crying to feel a different pain. I grab his arms and hug him tightly. I missed his sweet gentle touch. Kurt looked into my blue eyes with his now red, blue eyes. Kurt than kisses me and I kiss back. I missed this so much was all I was thinking.

"I love you" Kurt said.

"I think you should be telling Courtney that not me."

"No. I love you"

"We can't be together even if we wanted too." I said.

"I hate seeing you with Axl though."

"Well Axl at least loves me" I yelled at him.

"So you think Axl loves you? That's really pathetic."

"Really you want to start calling me pathetic?"

"I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that." Kurt said.

"It's fine" I mumble while crossing my arms across my chest.

"Courtney really loves you Kurt and I can tell you love her. But you need to make up your mind. Me or Courtney because your not having both."

I quickly run back inside to the building where the interview was being held. I say Nirvana's interview and the whole time Kurt was staring me down.

"I really want that chocolate chip cookie" Kurt said super cutely. He's so adorable. I then grab two cookies and give them to him and he kisses my cheek as I walk back off. Axl then gets mad.

"What the hell was that man?" Axl says to Kurt while getting up and walking to Kurt. Shoot.

"Axl it was nothing." I say while pulling his arm back. He pushes my arm away and starts to push Kurt.

"Can you just stop the camera for a second?" I say.

"We can't this is live." the interviewer says. I smack my face. I then focus back in the fight to hear Kurt cursing at Axl and Axl cursing back.

"You two stop" I yell at them while starting to panic because Axl starts pushing Kurt into the wall. I then get in the middle of them.

"You two outside now" I whisper to both of them while grabbing there shirts and dragging them outside.

"That was live Axl. Live." I said to him.

"It's not the first time Axl's acted like this."

"Yea and it's not the first time your high off of Heroin" Axl says meanly. Kurt just laughed.

"You think that's gonna hurt me. I've been threw way worse."

"Okay that's good. Really nice seeing you Kurt" I say and grab Axl's hand and walk to the car or driver was in.

"Oh hey Amanda, Axl is the kinda guy that would beat us up or bully us in high school." Kurt said to me with a disgusted look on his face and walked back inside the building as Axl and I got in the car. I tried to ignore what Kurt said but it was really hard.

"Don't let that get in your head. Your groovy baby" Axl says. I smile and Axl wraps his arm around me as I lean in still thinking about what said.