Diary Of Awkward Black Trans Guy

Confession 11

I am still having paranoia and delusional thinking. I miss my therapy appointment; I was gonna tell her my fears. Now I gotta raw dog this strange situation inside my brain. Taking breathing exercises and telling myself they aren't real and going to pop out of head has being helpful. I finally blocked Addie's og fan/stalker on their twitter. I now know his first name. He hasn't been weird on the public server but he trying to let his dedicate fans to understand his hidden horrible parasocial relationship. Pretty much letting them side with him, like this is a pro musician server. They literally kiss his feet and buy their album no matter the money. Idk why i blocked him, maybe it is my mum said that i am too mixed up/gossipy. I think seeing his age and being a cancer survivor sober me. He is 23 and the way he talks about his age on twitter, i thought he was 26-31. He is also a military rat like a particular person that was once in addie's life who was not too nice. I was so deep into the obbession and emotional life. Thank god for the AI therapy chat dupe. I do a little check but let's home it is less.

I failed that homework. I didn't sent it on time. So sad. My mum is getting into the Christmas spirits and it's lessening my mental health issues. I feel lighter despite everything. Other news, a crazy driver could have hit me if i wasn't stubborn, afraid and in shocked. The stop light turn white. Acid reflux is burning while I'm writing. Food acidity comes up. Things are ging well. I gotta sleep bye.