What We've Missed Without You

chapter 4

*sorry for mistakes*

~ "kurutta sairensu ni hisonda kuro no kureidoru kashin ni yurete

"moshi, owari ga aru nara, hoshii" muku na hitomi ni kotaeru imi wa naku..." ~

Yuuta, Reika, Kei, Minato, Chiaki, Asahi, Hanami, Airi, and Hayato...They were absolutely in love with this song (and all of its minor changes to suit their tastes) while the rest of the children only liked it to a certain degree, not hesitating to ask for a different song in Yui's little 'song book'. Yui had a theory of some sort about why this happens...It wasn't a theory she was fond of, however. The reason why those nine love that sad song so much...

Was because their fathers loved that song.

Just thinking of them brought back bad memories...And yet here Yui was, still not letting go of this one stupid song she always sang for those vampire brothers. Maybe the reason why she was so attached to it as well was because of the good memories it brought her...Before that night. Yui's hand went up to Reika's head and she started petting her curled raven-colored hair while she sang to the eleven-year-old, her velvet-pink eyes opening slightly as she started to dwell in the past.

Flashback:
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"Did you call for me, Reiji-san?" Yui stepped into Reiji's study, quietly shutting the door behind her so she wouldn't create a lot of noise. The raven-haired vampire had his back facing her while he was confined to his desk, his always perfect posture started to fade away , and he was clad in a white dress shirt and black trousers to go along with his shoes, his single white glove no where in sight. The vampire turned his head so that only his profile was exposed to her, his sharp wine-colored gaze slicing through her petite figure. Reiji sighed and took off his glasses, "I did, I need your assistance with something. Surely you can handle something as simple as this."

Yui ignored the typical rude comment and made her way over to the older man, standing away from him at a comfortable distance as she folded her hands in front of her, awaiting to her what the second eldest wanted from her. Reiji turned his chair towards her and uncrossed his long legs, his wine-colored eyes giving off a rather blank stare.

"You're standing too far, come closer."

Yui gulped, mentally preparing herself to be bitten. Normally, Reiji wouldn't hesitate to demand her to submit to him and drink her practically dry, but in this manor Yui learned to mentally prepare and assume everything. Hesitantly, the young blonde walked closer towards Reiji so she was only about less than a foot away from him, that's when she felt him grab her wrist forcefully and pull her towards him, so that she would end up landing in his lap. Yui's cheeks bloomed scarlet as she was positioned so her knees were pressed against the available space of the chair, straddling Reiji's lap, her hands gripping the top of the chair, and her head just halfway higher than the vampire's. Reiji's wine-colored eyes stared deeply into her velvet-pink ones, making shivers run down Yui's spin as she suddenly stuttered out:

"R-Reiji-san?!"

"Stay there." He sternly demanded, Yui followed his orders in fear of making him angry (like the last few times...). Suddenly the teen felt his head fall onto her shoulder, she looked down at the top of his silky black hair in surprise as she felt his steady breath coating over her clothed shoulder. He then made the most bizarre request:

"That song...The one you sung for kanato. Sing it to me."

"E-Eh?"

"I need to refresh myself, it's something even as simple as you can do." The red on Yui's cheeks darken a bit more: How did he hear that song? Yui mentally shook her head and cleared her voice before the words slipped out of her lips like warm honey.

"kurutta sairensu ni hisonda kuro no kureidoru kashin ni yurete..."

Time seemed to stand still for the two while Yui continued softly singing the song, seconds passed before she gained the courage to allow one of her hands to wander towards Reiji's head. She began to stroke his hair softly and tenderly as she continued singing, a smile formed on her pale pink lips as she closed her velvet-pink eyes. She had to admit, as weird as this was for her, Yui preferred this Reiji a lot more than the one who constant criticized her every step she made and wouldn't hesitate to bring a riding crop against her skin if he found something worth punishable towards her, despite how small and insignificant it seemed. By the time the song was over, Reiji's hands were placed around Yui's waist, his garnet eyes were closed, and he said nothing. This was usually the time he would coldly order Yui to stop touching him or possibly push her off (this was a fifty-fifty chance, though), however he said nothing while his breath was steady and more relax. The smile on Yui's lips didn't disappear as she open her eyes; she was happy to be of use in this household, but now it was time for her to retreat to her room and hope that none of the triplets suddenly barge in and make a meal out of her for the next two hours. As the pale blonde went to move away, one of Reiji's hands quickly grabbed her wrist, shocking the teenager and freezing her in place on top of his lap.

"Don't...Stay there."

"A-Alright..."

Yui went back to her original position, and gently pushed Reiji's head to her shoulder while stroking his hair(just to say if he would say anything). The raven haired male said nothing for various of passing moments, making the pale blonde grow uncomfortable in her current position, her knees and thighs starting to burn a bit. After what seemed like a century, Yui heard something that made her eyes widen, even though it was the smallest mutter under Reiji's breath:

"...I love you..."

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Flashback ends:

Yui pulled herself out of her thoughts and slowly pulled herself away from Reika once she was finished with the song. She smiled at her eleven-year-old daughter and smiled.

"Now, I better hurry up and drink this tea before it gets cold. We don't want that, do we?" Reika nodded in response and sat correctly on the sofa. The mother and daughter managed to move past this moment and talked about various of things, even though Yui allowed the younger girl to talk since she never really did anything herself because of how weak she tend to get after periods of time. However, the poisonous thought was still lingering in Yui's mind...Then it suddenly turned her thoughts to the party...

She shouldn't go...

But Karlheinz would surely do something if she didn't...He knew where she and her children live now.

She'll only cower in fear just stepping in that house.

Maybe she can talk to Karlheinz about leaving her alone afterwards...

Stepping even within five kilometers within that area was suicide...

But her children should meet their fathers...

They shouldn't know about how they were brought up.

It's better than letting them find out later in life...

You escaped, don't step back into their lives now...

You need to face your fears...

Yui didn't know what to do anymore...

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