What We've Missed Without You

chapter 22

*sorry for mistakes*

Yui gazed into the mirror of Shiori's vanity, her heartbeat slowly picking up as an empty feeling started to consume her chest. The dress was a powder pink evening gown, the skirt caved in and fanned out in a mermaid style, the top was cut into a sweetheart style and had a small cut in the back, it separated itself from the skirt with the matching lace and had an asymmetric peplum that gave the illusion that Yui had full curves instead of her thin stature. A thin translucent veil with small white stones sewn in created long sleeves and filled in the cuts from the sweetheart top to make it a full-covering dress while it twinkled slightly in the lighting. A thin silver necklace with six diamonds wrapped around her neck loosely, pearl earrings fastened into her ears, and powder pink kitten heels adorn her feet. Yui hasn't been in this much luxurious clothes in a while, it felt strange and suffocating. This was a bad idea, but Yui needed to do this for her children...Otherwise she'll never see Momoi and Airi again, knowing how Karlheinz played his games. This was necessary, even if it did break her heart to step inside a place filled with so many bad memories.

Taking a deep breath to calm her crippling anxiety, Yui pulled her gaze away from the mirror. She couldn't look at herself like this; her dull skin, dark circles, and old scars were too much to bear in such a beautiful outfit. Before, Yui never really thought much about her appearance, but now she felt so ugly  in the mirror. She couldn't look at herself if she wasn't wearing modest clothing, her skin crawled just seeing her exposed skin. Yui closed her eyes, trying to calm herself down only to be pulled into a memory by force:

Yui fell to the ground, her dress ripped into shreds as tears spilled from her eyes.

"N-No, please don't!-"

"Shut up, you're annoying."

He crawled on top of the squirming human, easily pinning her down as she pathetically tried to fight him. His single hand easily pinning down her hands as his other started to roam around her exposed body. Rough touches threatened to bruise her delicate skin as she screamed out.  "P-Please stop! I-I don't want this!"

"You act like I care, just shut up and let me enjoy this."

His touch hurt so much, and yet her body acted against her. She couldn't forget the feeling of his fingers violating her most private of places, eventually something large replacing it and making her bleed. Tears streamed down her face as she screamed for him to stop, her voice eventually giving up on her pleads as it burned. His fangs punctured her skin with easy, greedily sucking up her blood as he ripped apart her flower. He made gross comments about her body, about how it was moving perfectly with his abusive movements. She should be used to this, this is another part of abuse...But it hurt so much.

It hurt.

It hurt.

It hurt.

Father thou in heaven, please forgive her. She couldn't save herself, she would be going to hell.

Yui clutched her chest as she struggled to breath, tears threatened to leave her eyes. Her skin was a fire once more, feeling the horrible fang marks, bruises, and hands on her body. She hated the fact she couldn't do anything that night, the only thing she could do was let them all violate her. She couldn't bare with the fact that she was pregnant with a child from them back them, she cursed at herself the fact that she couldn't bring herself to hold Yuuta. He's an innocent child, he was born in an unfortunate situation...They all were. Vampires sperm and eggs worked differently than human, they could harbor inside someone for months or even years at a time in because their DNA evolved to preserve their race. Imagine the look on Yui's face when she found out about that, almost bringing herself to the peak of insanity and almost offing herself. The pale blonde let out a struggled breath as she wiped her eyes, a hand absentmindedly touching a now faded scar across the back of her arm. But she had to look on the bright side, it brought her beautiful wonderful children. She just wanted to be a loving mother and made sure they all grew up with well-deserved love, was that too much to ask for?