THE DESTINY GAME (Intersex)

Chapter 5

Tiffany Suzanne Holland

Stargram Comments:

PewPewMaster: Omg the dress, stunning.

Hoosier-daddy: Saan nyo po nabili yung dress? And Hm?

Casanova: Hm?

Username_copied: saan nyo nabili miss? Drop location po.

I squinted, scrolling through the comments on my latest post. Seriously? They’re asking me how much the dress is? Do I look like an online seller? Or Did I hashtag #ForSale anywhere?

I let out a loud sigh before I got up. My Stargram post had racked up over 300 likes last night. Not bad. Most people were complimenting the red dress I wore yesterday. While others were asking where I bought it. Gusto ko silang replyan isat-isa but I couldn't remember the exact address of the boutique, and I couldn't recall the name either but it sounded like French.

I stood up and placed my phone down to get ready for work. Si Ate Aira kanina pa pumasok sa work. Maaga kasi ang shift nya kompara sa time ng pasok ko sa trabaho.

Inaantok parin ako kasi late na ako nakatulog. I wasn’t used to having someone in the bed with me, and it was cramped. I knew Ate Aira felt the same way because I felt her tossing and turning. Around 3:00 AM, I felt her get up.

I went to the bathroom to take a shower. The shower stall was really small too. There wasn’t a shower head or heater either. Sa bahay kasi nila Mama at Papa may heater kaya pag-umaga warm water ang pinapaligo namin. Nasanay ang katawan ko sa ganon kaya kagabi nang mag-shower ako, grabe talaga ang tili ko dahil ang lamig ng tubig.

Binilisan ko ang pagshower. Napatili ulit ako dahil sa lamig at halos mapatalon pa ako. That’s my trick to deal with the cold. Shit! Shit! I hate this. Ang lamig! Woooh!

I quickly washed my hair and body. Then I rinsed and splashed water on my face. Gosh! First time ko maligo ng ganito kabilis. Samantala sa bahay ng parents namin ang tagal kong nagbabad sa banyo. Ilan beses nagsasabon at nag iiscrub ng katawan. Dito parang hindi man lang na natanggal ang mga libag ko. Nagtataka tuloy ako kung paano ni Ate Aira natagalan ang ganitong pamumuhay, samantalang mas maarte pa nga sya saakin. Ang dami kong reklamo, dapat nga masanay na rin ako sa ganitong set-up.

Pagkatapos ko maligo at mag toothbrush. Binalot ko ang katawan ko ng towel saka nagtungo sa luggage ko para kuhain ang uniform ko. Gusot ang uniform ko, pero hinayaan ko nalang. Wala na rin akong time kasi mas malayo na ang location ko ngayon. Kaya dapat maaga palang magready na ako.

Hindi ko na rin nagawang idryer ang hair ko kaya tinali ko nalang sya nang basa pa ito. This is so hard. I can’t imagine doing this every day. If I had gotten accepted at The Berg Entertainment, then maybe Ate Aira and I could have moved to a better place. But… it didn’t happen. The Berg Entertainment didn’t accept me.