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04. 𝔹𝕚𝕣𝕥𝕙 𝔽𝕦𝕔𝕜𝕖𝕕 𝕦𝕡 𝕕𝕒𝕪

Song; XXXtentacion-everybody dies in their nightmare "Tired of feeling like I'm trapped in my own damn mind...."

Myra🦋

Walking alone in the dark streets, I'm not going home, cause I don't want to see anyone or talk to them.
I'm confused and I don't like it, I'm always organized and I made my own decisions without regretting it.
What is wrong with me.
I made my way to my heroine's house,my mum, the strongest woman, she saved me,I love her so much. Mrs. Eyana Suhail,a widow in a her forties. She has no child, she lives alone,I once asked her of her family and she told me that they were all killed during the war breakout in turkey. She was the only one who survived,but she still try to keep a smiling face and she's still surviving. I love her, she's strong, she's a brave woman, she took care of me. She got that sweet motherly smile that calms me down, that makes me believe that she's my mom.She's a beautiful Turkish Muslim woman, the head scarf she usually ties around her around her head makes her look so beautiful,her thick full lashes and her long thick black hair, she's got a brown siren eyes.

I knock on the door of her house, once. Twice. And the third time the door opened and I see her with a big smile and I just crashed myself on her, hugging her tightly and she hugged me back.
I kept on tightening my hands on her as tears came running down my cheeks.

"Noúr dear,"
She called out softly.

Yeah,noòr, she gave me the Muslim name. She said it meant light.

"Come in"
She said, and I walked so weakly and I sat down on couch, and she left for kitchen, while I quickly wipe off my tears.
She came back handing me my favorite ginger and clone tea, she made it so super tasty and lovely. I took it from her and took a sip. Sip. And soon down it all up and I kept the cup on the table.

"Why were crying dear?"
She asked

"I...I wasn't crying"
I said and I can see how she smiled.

"My child is not a liar, so don't start."
She said, wiping the remaining of my tears away.
"What happened, dear?"

"It's... it's just..I..I..I don't even know what to say i-"
She cuts me off

"Calm down"
She said and I took a deep breath.

"I'm I a fucked up bitch?"
I asked, remembering what Elena called me.

"No, you're not."
She answered

I told her everything that happened, about the stupid Man and Sophie.
"But it's all this my fault?
Tell me màma"
I asked and she hold my both hands in hers.

"Look, you did nothing wrong by defending yourself, okay!
Remember, everything that happens helps you grow."
She said and I nodded.

"You're not the crying and weak type, you're strong. Sophie is just a teenager and she's innocent and naive.
You have to help her, dear."
She said

"Yes, I wouldn't want anyone go through what I went through,."
I said with a very stern voice.

"That's my girl.
Are you still upset with what Elena said?"
She asked.

"No, she's always like that. She say things she doesn't mean when she's upset."
I explain and she chuckled and I smiled.

"I have to go"
I said, getting up.

"Wait"
She said, and she left for her room.

"Take this."
She said and she gave me a beautiful blue ancient ring.
And she put it in my pinky finger.
And it fits perfectly.