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15. 𝕐𝕖𝕤,𝕊𝕚𝕣.

Song: Free fall by Tems "toxic,who would've thought what's comin'was a plot twist"

Myra🥶

It's been a month since I've seen that monster or even heard from his mum. I don't know why, everyday I always feel guilty of not helping that poor woman.
She just wanted a grandchild.
But I can't just risk my life like that, if I really want to help her that will be a very risky decision, I'll have to make about myself and my future.
I'll have to marry my enemy, it will be a very very disasterous relationship cuz we both don't even like each other talk more of love.....that's so funny....

I mean I hate him so much

I hate the fact that I'm scared of him

I hate the fact that I am weak when I'm with him when he's so close to me

I hate the fact that I cant do anything I just becomes scared.

The last encounter I had  with his mom in the restaurant was so sad,I can see the pain in her eyes all she wanted was a grandchild.

I wish I can help her,I really want to but I can't, my mom is against it,
my best friends are against it, everyone is against it.

I can't just leave my happiness just to help somebody.
For the past 1 month I've been living with this guilt, like she should have gone to any other person to ask for help but she came to me,

why did she choose me?...
I wish...

I really want to talk to her again I want to apologize that I let her down the other day, I cannot help her.

I want to tell her that I am so sorry I want to see her again.

I'm glad I am not looking for work up and down again I've finally gotten a work in a marketing company, the company is really really big and famous  here in Italy and in some business country all thanks to Vincenzo,he helped me get the job.
I'm a P.A to the Boss in the company.
I actually studied business and marketing back in school.
Thank goodness, I've finally gotten my dream job not some waiter anymore.
And I get pay my bills.

While Elena got a job at a good bar as an assistant manager, I'm so happy for her. I heard her boss does not stay here in Italy. So she's the acting manager.

I took my phone contemplating whether to call her.

should I call her?

what will I tell her?

oh my god...

should I f****** call her?...

just make up your mind already

Yes I'll call her.

I'm going through my phone app, I dial her number and it rang several times thinking she's not going to pick, the last ringing she picked and f*** I was so scared just hearing her voice like I left her the other day not even day last month, shit, that also rude of me I know

maybe

"Hello hello"
I said with a low voice and she responded back

"how are you doing dear?
it's been long "

"oh yes I'm sorry I lost my contacts so I couldn't call you"

"it's fine hope you're okay"

"yes I am"

"Umm I would love to speak to you about about what you asked of me last month"

"oh oh dear do not worry about it, I was kind of selfish the other time. it's nothing, I don't want to be-"