Mannat

36 | Bucket list

S H I Z A

I waved my hand at my parents and sister who were in tears.

I never imagined my day to turn out like this. I was here to attend Asad's wedding but instead here I am sitting in his car as his bride.

The events which happened today literally clogged my mind.
After I had gained my consciousness at hospital, I felt something was wrong with Zayaan. He wasn't like before. I felt like I was meeting entirely different person.

I could feel Qulsum was hiding something from me cause she never properly looked into my eyes after the kidnapping thing happened.

And how dumb was I to let their closeness slide. Of course Qulsum wouldn't allow Zayaan to get close to her if it wasn't for their relationship as husband and wife.

My heart bleed at the thought of losing Zayaan. Past few months my life was like fairytale, everyday a new surprise waited for me, Zayaan - he made me feel elated. Every moment spent with him was still fresh in my mind.

An unimaginable agony sweeped my senses as my mind registered that now Zayaan wasn't mine anymore and I wasn't his.

Today when he said it was her husband speaking for his wife, I somewhat felt better. But how could I believe his words. Zayaan is never so possessive about anyone if his love isn't attached to it.

He simply lied on my face so that I don't hurt Qulsum - his wife and his LOVE.

Obviously Zayaan loves Qulsum. He looked so desperate to convince me. The emotions which I had seen in his eyes for me before were there but today those were directed towards Qulsum. Actually emotions which I could feel in his eyes today were way more overpowering than what I had seen for me.

I peered down at my hand where a huge diamond ring was shinning. A lone tear escaped my eyes.

My first love was gone forever.

Cold breeze was bursting through the windows, trying to placate me but my stomach was in knots.

How will I forget Zayaan?

I know my anger which came out today wasn't because Qulsum and Zayaan got married but because they hid the truth from me.
I also know that nothing was Qulsum's or Zayaan's mistake. They took the decision which was best at that time just like I did today.

But this pain and grief of losing the love my life is different path and I have to go through it alone. Atleast for Zayaan, Qulsum was there making it easy for him but in my case; I don't think Asad and I will be able to bond on such levels easily.

"Shiza?" Asad voice broke the reverie of my thoughts.

Wiping the tear from the back of my hand and turned my head to face him. "We have reached." He said and that's when I realised the car had come to halt in front of white double storeyed building.

"Mmm" I nod inhaling deeply.

I fixed my veil properly and was about to open the door when Asad opened it for me.
"Let me help you, your dress looks heavy." He stated forwarding his hand in front of me.

Yes, I did wear a bridal dress just like I had always dreamed off. Asad had ordered a new bridal wear for me cause no way in hell I was going to wear a dress which he got for Saniya.
He somehow managed to get my dress delivered within an hour and I can sense that Qulsum definitely helped him select this cause my bridal wear was dark brown. As weird as it might sound, I wished to wear a dark brown wedding dress and Qulsum was aware of this wish.

Giving him a midget smile, I slip my hands in his and all the memories of my hand in Zayaan's came rushing in. It felt the same except Asad's touch touch was halal (lawful or permitted).