Alike but so different

part 8

It was time for the dinner to be served and well sat down. I got seated next to jess and luke was next to him. Emily and richard across from me.

While we was waiting for the food to be served everyone was talking. Emily and richard started asking me questions.

"your christophers neice?"-emily
"yep"
"so how come your not living with him"-emily
"he was to busy."
"ah, well are you coming to friday night dinners?"-richard
"im not sure yet"
"did you want to go to chilton?"-richard
"starshollow high is fine"
"are you smart?"-emily
"well im not dumb"
"thats good. You got a boyfriend?"-emily
"nope"
"have you-"-richard
"you know what i need to go toilet"-i said interrupting richard and getting up walking out.

I went to the bathrooms and sat on the counters. Jesus how many questions did they wanna ask.

After about 10 minutes i walked out the bathroom and saw jess standing there.

"you alr?"-jess
"yeah fine"
"okay. Come on then"-jess

We walked back to the table and sat down next to eachother. We then realised everyone was staring at us.

"is he your boyfriend?"-emily
"no"
"why dont you stop asking her so many questions."-jess

Emily and richard looked so offended but i was so gratefuk for jess in that moment. They brought out the first dish which was some sort of soup.

"whats the white stuff"-jess
"uhm cream i think"-luke
"and the green"-jess
"meant to be picked of"-luke said picking his of jess then doing the same.

I wasn't really listening to them as i was talking to bebette but saw jess's hand go near my food and looked him. He was picking of the green stuff.

"your welcome"-jess
"ur lucky i didnt bite you."
"for what"-jess
"i didnt realise what u was doing i just saw your hand near my food"
"alright dont go near you food in the future."-jess

I was starting to warm up to him and i think he was starting to warm up to me. Im definitely the more polite and nice one just not all the time. I dont like getting close to people.

Jess is just not rude to everyone sonetimes he is yeah but hes just more closed of i think. I dont know why hes like that but its not my problem.

After dinner i went outside and sat on the grass. I was really starting to get overwhelmed and have a panic attack. As soon as i sat down the tears came out. Running all down my cheeks as my breathing went funny.

I didnt even realise someone was coming over until jess sat next to me and put his arm round me pulling me into his chest.

He sat there playing with my hair and trying to calm me down while i cried into his chest. Once i had calmed down he pushed me away a bit to be able to see my face.

"you okay?"-jess
"mhm"-i said nodding.
"ill be right back stay here."-jess said getting up and walking inside.

After about a minute he came back and gave me a bottle of water. I had a few small sips before putting the lid back on and putting it down.

"im sorry"
"for what"-jess
"crying on you"
"no its fine. Why dont we go find our rooms?"-jess
"okay"

He got up and put his hand out. I took it and he helped me get up. When we went a few people turned and looked at us. This is starting to piss me of.

We already got given our keys and me and jess got our own rooms because we asked specifically for it as we didnt want to share with anyone.

We went up the stairs and found my room first then found jess's 3 doors down. We went into mine first looking around then jess's. They were nice rooms.

We sat in jess's room just reading or chatting shit about people that were there. Only people we were okay with there was luke loralie and rory. Jess was barely even okay with them.

After a while there was a knock on the door.

"come in!"-jess
Luke then walked in and looked at us both.
"everyone going bed. So lottie your gonna have to go to your room."-luke
"alright. Night luke night jess"
"night"-luke
"night"-jess

I left and went to my room and changed into pyjames before getting in bed reading.

Jess's pov.

Luke was still stood in my room even though hes told me what he needed and lotties left.
He closed the door and sat in an armchair that was in my room.

"what happened with you two?"-luke
"nothing"
"really? because you came back from the bathroom together then you defended her then you went outside together and then came up here together"-luke

"i think we've become friends. I went to the bathroom to check on her and defended her because you could tell she was uncomfortable. And when we was outside i was helping her because she was having a panic attack and here we was just reading and chatting shit"
"what happened after you kissed her last night? have you not spoke about that"-luke
"no we havent"
"do you like her?"-luke
"i dont know."
"ooooo"-luke
"shut up and get out"
"alright night"-luke
"night."