i miss how you use to make me feel
i miss the way you would treat me
the way you would love me
and always make time for me
i miss the constant "i love you's"
i would get from you throughout the day
i miss the nights when you would stay
and make me feel safe
i miss the way you'd laugh and
the playful way you'd act
you made life feel light and fun again
now i'm constantly pacing the floor
wondering what i did wrong or
what i can do to make you love me again
because even though you say you do
i'm not sure that's true
the way you speak to me
is as if i'm disposable
like you don't care if i leave at any moment
you don't care if i'm hurting from this
and struggling mentally from it
whenever i try to talk
i'm only ever "complaining" at you
when in reality i'm just trying to save us
you use to make me feel so wanted
and now i feel anything but that
i stay because i love you
and all i want is for this to work
but i'm falling apart everyday
and you don't even see that
because you choose not to
when i tell you how sad it makes me
you turn me instantly into the bad guy
and as i lay in the bathtub
sobbing uncontrollable
i know you won't notice
and i know you won't care
because every time we get better
it all goes down the drain once again
so what do i do when my heart wants you
but my mind is telling me it's better not to?
YOU ARE READING
The Girl Who Weeped Like A Willow: Book 1 Pt. 2
Poetrypart 2 of my book. filled with many poems about my life and the feelings i've felt along the way.
