The reckless girl's love

It's Time To Stop Giving A Shit.

When I opened my eyes, I was met by a blue ceiling. I frowned and looked around. I sighed when I saw it was my room. My head hurt and my eyes were probably sticky with tears. As soon as I remembered yesterday's events I felt like breaking down again but I didn't. I had to stay strong.

But how did I get home?? I frowned. Last thing I remember is.......... Oh! Damien found me! He must have brought me home. But I groaned.. He saw me crying!! Nobody except Blake and Emily saw me crying. But I guess now I don't even have them in my life.

It was 6 o'clock in the morning and school was in one hour. Thinking about the school made my stomach churn.. I didn't want to see Blake or Em... But today I need to talk to Mr Holmes about the project.

Idea!!!

I can always stay in the music room except history class. Yeah that would work.

I got up to find mom. I think she would be worried about me. I need to tell her... I opened my door and went downstairs to mom's room. Opening the door I was about to shout good morning when I saw something which made me freeze.

My mom was with another guy under the sheets snuggling.

I couldn't believe my eyes. After all that's happened she still did this without even telling me??!

I felt the same feelings that I felt yesterday. Betrayal. Sadness. Broken.

I closed the door softly not wanting to wake her up,and hurried to my room. I started packing things up. I didn't want to stay here in this house any more. I took my phone, laptop, some dresses, and all the necessities and shoved them into the bag. I ran downstairs and took my car keys. Opening the front door I glanced at my mom's room for the last time.....

"Goodbye Rosella Williams ".

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Damien's POV

" Hey Sarah!! Happy birthday!! " I said cheerfully to the little girl who had a large grin on her face.

" Thanks Dami!! You know I turned 8" she showed me with her little fingers.

"I know lovely.. Go and enjoy " I said smiling.

She kissed my cheek and ran to her friends.

I waved at her and put her gift on the table.

I was attached to this place. Why wouldn't I be... This was once my home. 'Mary's orphanage'. Pete Charles, my dad adopted me when I was 10. I couldn't forget this place. I come once in a week to meet the children and Mary.

"You can sit down young man ".

I turned to look at Mary. There she was, still the same. She had the same motherly smile and the same kindness in her voice. I guess she was in her late fifties now. .

" Hey Mary! " I hugged her.

" Boy, Damien.. You've grown into such a lovely young man.. I'm glad you could make it to lovely's birthday. " she smiled softly.

" It's no problem. I want to see her as much as time I get. I know she has a little time with her. " I sighed.

Sarah aka lovely had brain cancer and she knew it. She knew she was going to die but she wasn't worried at all.. She was still smiling and I even heard her once telling " I'm going to take care of everyone by being an angel ". She was a the most beautiful and kind girl in the universe I bet. No other girl in the age of eight can resist to hear that they would die and put up a smile. She was brave. She was everyone's lovely.

Suddenly my phone buzzed. Checking the caller ID I saw its Blake.

"hey man" I said.

"Damien, do you know where Amanda is?? " he asked panicked.

" no.. I left her in her mom's house yesterday after your party. That's how much I can remember. " I said worried. " what happened Blake? "

" She's missing. Aunt Roe called me in the morning to inform that she wasn't in there. Her things as well as she was gone. I hope it's not about something that Emily said to her last night. " he sighed.

" I'm coming. Don't worry we'll find her " saying this I hung up.

Shit. Where was she?? I remember her crying like something bad happened to her last night. Was is something related to what Emily said??

I didn't waste any more time. I told Mary what happened and she herself was on the verge of Tears..

I went to my car, unlocked it, pulled the gear and headed out in full speed.

"I'm coming Amanda".

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Amanda's POV

I unlocked the door to my other house (where I stayed earlier before mom came) and went to the kitchen to eat. I was hungry and my stomach was making funny sounds because of it.

I checked the fridge and found the necessary items for making a grilled cheese sandwich. I started cooking and thought about today's things.

First Emily.
She told me to stop being her mom and told me that Blake didn't want me either. That means Blake did tell her something which caused her to tell that to me.

Was I so bad? Was I such a bad friend? I felt tears running down my cheeks. I couldn't understand why people kept on leaving me and pushing me into darkness. Whenever I saw a hint of light in my life everything went dark in an instant. I think I really don't deserve anything.

I wiped my tears away and ate my sandwich in silence. It was nearly afternoon... I didn't have any work to do rather than buying a few things. I grabbed my purse and started walking to the supermarket. It was 5mins from my house.

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"stupid bastard! Doesn't even know how to treat girls. " I muttered angrily.

I came back from the market and kept the things aside. I was angry. Do you wanna know why?

Here it goes...

I entered the store and went to the vegetable asile. I was picking up the necessary items, when I felt someone's eyes on me. I turned to look and saw the cashier- that to even a 40 year old man eyeing me like a piece of candy.

It was so gross I mean if a boy did this it was understandable but a man??

I ignored him and did my rest of the shopping. When I went to the counter for paying, the man whose name was Nick said "Heya baby, up for some fun tonight?" and winked in a disgusting way.

I smiled sweetly, gave the money and said "Can you come a bit near?"

He did it gladly. I took out ketchup from my bag and said "For you" and poured it down his head.

"What the hell? " he shouted.

" Serves you right pervert! " I shouted back and exited the store.

Insane old men these days. I was so pissed that I felt like punching him to death. It was nearly evening. I didn't know what to do. Because I didn't want to stay in the house, but if I went out I would be caught by anyone so decided against it. I can always go at dark.

I checked my phone and saw 30 missed calls of Blake himself. There were 20 messages from Damien and 10 missed calls. There were many from mom and Emily too.

But now I don't care about them. I have stopped giving a shit..

A/n: yay me! Another update. Next chapter is going to be full of action. *wink*. Enjoy guys.

Love Amanda!