Everything I Wasn't

Three

Lacuna: N| a blank space, a missing part
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First Person POV; Kamari Lupin:

I sit at the Gryffindor table with my head in my hand. It's been two years since the sorting, two years since I've last spoken to Regulus. Of course there is the seemingly forced hello in the hallway, followed by the sneers of his pureblood friends.

Remmy, Sirius, James, and Peter have all drifted away as well. Yes Remmy and I still stay up all odd hours of the night just talking about this and that, but our talks have been getting less frequent and cut even shorter.

I sigh as I open my eyes watching the first years get sorted. I was sitting at the edge of the table closest to the door, surrounded by the ghosts. They seemed to be the only ones really interested in what I had to say so I hang around them.

The last two years have felt like I've been on auto-pilot, waking up at odd hours of the night to Marlene and Lily laughing as they sneak that Ravenclaw Dorcas girl in.

Since the end of my first year I just curl up in the arm chair beside the fireplace and sleep there. Around the middle of second year a fuzzy black cat could come snuggle my lap. Surely it had to be one of the first years.

This cat was gorgeous, he had silky black fur and grey eyes that seemed to be judging those who tried to wake me. I named him Kenneth, Ken for short.

I read somewhere the name Kenneth means born from fire, and I deemed it fitting from his ash colored fur.

I sit in my chair waiting for Ken to arrive. Instead I'm greeted by a big fluffy dog.

"Hello Sirius." I grin as the dog licks my cheek. "How's your day been?" I ask the dog, imagining Sirius' voice in my head. Great, what about yours?

I ask myself in what I've made Sirius' dog voice. "I'm good thank you." I chuckle, a passing first year looking at me with furrowed eyebrows as he scurries away. Sirius barks at him lowly turning back and trotting out of the common room his tail wagging.

"By now Siri." I grins, hugging my knees to my chest as I open my book. About fifteen minutes later Ken comes strutting in, curling himself around the back of the chair, his head resting on my shoulder as he reads along with me.

"Sorry, I started reading before you got here if you don't mind." I say softly, scratching behind his ears.

My brothers voice wakes me from my trance. "A penny for your thoughts?" He asks grinning softly.

"And a nickel to keep them to yourself." Regulus says as he comes up with cold eyes, he still had his baby face which was hilarious. "Sirius I need to speak to you." He says as the brothers walk away, heads furrowed in a conversation.

"Rude." I grumble under my breath. "Wait Remmy when did you get here?" I ask looking around at the remaining Murauders.

"Just a moment ago." James says stuffing his face with mashed potatoes. "Swallow first please." I say grimacing at his bad table manners. James grew up with good manners but he seems to forget them at Hogwarts.

"That's what he said!" James announced with a mouth full of food.

"Say it don't spray it." Remus says with equal disgust.

A/N
Hey guys sorry for the short chapter, it's just a filler. Merry Christmas for those who celebrate!!