Blood DownFall [TWO - Seduced Out The Dark]

10. Break It

Pov Shiru
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With the biggest and worst headache I walked down the streets in the evening. 

I had played some card games with Cullan and Vince to distract my mind and since I was in a hella good mood due the drugs, but it had got less each second, so I decided to go home. 

Somewhere I hoped badly that Yoongi wasn't home, but when I turned around the corner I saw that his car was there, so he probably was home. I groaned loud ad cursed under my breath, already annoyed again. 

I didn't had to see his fucking face, I didn't had to fight with him anymore, and I just needed a new place to stay. 

Against my will, I entered the house and was greeted with a sweet smell. I sighed deep and kicked my shoes off, laying my jacket on the stairs as I quietly entered the living room, where Yoongi was sitting with his phone. 

'Evening baby.' He said as he turned his phone off and looked at me. I gave a short glance at him and turned around, wanting to leave the room again. 

'Stay.' He said as I heard him pat besides him on the couch. I sighed deep but couldn't deny his offer and sat down besides him. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder, but it didn't felt right anymore.

'You smell like weed, love.' He muttered as he pressed a kiss to my temple. I shrugged and looked at my hands quietly. 

'What's wrong with my little girl?' He asked as he tried to make eye contact with me.

'Nothing.' I said curtly. And I wasn't his little girl, gross. 

'Hmm, do I need to light someone's mood up maybe?' He asked with a chuckle as he pulled me closer and pecked my cheek soft. I growled and moved away, not wanting him this clingy. 

'Oh come on Shi...' He muttered as his arms creeped around my waist, pulling me on his lap. I whined loud, but it didn't seem like he got the hints that I wasn't in the mood. 

'Don't whine... I know exactly what you need.' I glanced from the corners of my eyes at him and could see from his face that he was in the mood to fuck. 

Greater than this couldn't it get. 

'No.' I muttered, looking away again while feeling my chest hurt. He chuckled again and lifted me up, heading upstairs. I sighed and didn't struggle until he laid me down on the bed and hovered over me. 

'Yoongi, get off!' I hissed as I pushed him against the chest. He grabbed my wrists and pinned them down against the bed as he raised an eyebrow. 

'Well that's also a new behaviour of yours, what's up hmm?' He asked as his face disappeared in my neck, placing soft kisses on my skin. 

I groaned deep and pulled my wrists loose rough, pushing him off me. 

'Don't fucking touch me.' I said as my eyes filled with tears like I didn't cried enough yet today. He frowned and sat up. 

'What's wrong? Did I do something?' He asked while I got off the bed and crossed my arms. 

'Don't act stupid.' I huffed, not liking the way how he hid things for me. 

'I don't, tell me what's wrong.' I sighed deep, annoyed that I was the one who had to say it. 

'I know everything, Eru told me.' I saw that he was thinking for a moment until he froze and color disappeared out his face. 

'Shiru, it's not like that okay? Trust me.' He said as he got up as well. 

'No Yoongi! Don't tell me that it isn't because it is! Did you really think I wouldn't notice how close you are with her?!' I hissed at him, tears escaping. 

'What even were we? Fucking friends?' I asked with a sob when he stayed silent. He sighed and tried to move closer, but I stepped back, not wanting his hands on my body.  

'Shiru... I never thought things would go this way either alright?' 

'I thought you loved me!' I shouted at him with another sob followed, ignoring what he said.  He looked defeated at me and nodded.

All that time, it was all faked, who knows how long he was already doing things with Eru? Who knows how much he even ever loved me? Maybe he just used me for a kind of stupid reason and I was just his little toy where he played with. 

'I do love you, bab-' 

'I'm not your fucking baby.' I interrupted him angry, not needing anything of his love and nicknames anymore. I was done.

'But I love you...' He muttered, which made me shook my head. 

'If you loved me you wouldn't cheat on me...' I muttered as I wiped my cheeks. 

'I do love you, but I, look, I just, you know, feel something for Eru too.' He said quietly. I could see from his face that he was struggling with his emotions, but I couldn't care less about it at the moment. 

'You wouldn't fall in love with someone else if you truly loved me.' I muttered, pulling his hoodie off, throwing it off the floor. He looked at it and swallowed. 

'Shiru, please, I wanted to tell Eru we had to stop when you showed me the positives tests, I want to be there for you...' I shook my head and rubbed my nose. 

'No, no I can't, sorry.' I muttered with a high voice as I opened the door, wanting to leave the situation. 

'Where are you going?' He asked, his voice worried. 

'Nowhere, guestroom, I'm not sleeping here with you anymore.' He grabbed my wrists and whined. 

'Shi, please, you don't need-' I snatched my wrist back and glared at him. 

'Don't you understand? I'm breaking up with you!' I shouted with a trembling voice.He frowned deep like he didn't understand my words and shook his head. 

'Shiru, please, I don't want to break up...' He said with watery eyes, a crack in his voice. 

'Maybe you should have thought about that before you decided to cheat on me...' He sighed deep and crossed his arms. 

'Well sorry that I just go after my feelings.' He muttered, but it still made me scoff.

'Right Yoongi, go walk after your fucking feelings and leave me alone, get together with Eru or something, oh wait, poor Jungkook doesn't know yet about you two, maybe I will tell him tomorrow.' His eyes changed from sad to a big glare and he clenched his jaw. 

'I swear, if you tell him you're so done.' He said, stepping back to sit on the bed. I shrugged and looked at the hallway.

'I already am, so I wont worry about that.' He nodded quietly and I leaned against the door frame since breathing felt difficult and my chest hurted. 

Yeah, this probably was how a heartbreak felt.

'Can I go now?' I asked, wanting to be alone so I could cry my lungs out without embarrassing myself.

'So you can cry yourself to sleep?' I squinted my eyes by his comment and shook my head. 

'Like you wont cry.'  A smile creeped up his lips and he tilted his head. 

'I will be fine without you, babe.' 

That's,

It.

I scoffed loud and clenched my fists. 

'You fucking...' My voice broke down as he kept looking at me like I was the crazy one. It was way to intimidating.  

I looked down while tears rolled down my cheeks and felt on the top I was still wearing. I left the room quietly, not feeling like being angry anymore and went the one of the guestrooms before breaking dow fully, having difficulty with breathing, but it didn't matter for me anymore.

Now I understood what real pain was. 

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