MINE!!!

Guilt trip!!!

After the school got over, it took me twenty minutes to reach my house seeing I didn't bring my car and I don't take lift from anyone. Call it a guy thing or whatever. I don't care! After the incident with Isabelle, I didn't hear anything from her. Maybe she's still upset and she has every right to be. I will just apologize to her once I get to see her. I don't know how I am gonna face her. I did say some pretty mean things to her. Upon that, it wasn't even true.

As soon as I reached home, I made my way to my room to talk to Isabelle through window. I reached my room and went to my window. I opened it and was about to shout her name when I saw that her room's lights were off. " Isabelle " I shouted even though the light was off indicating no one's there. There was no response from the other side.

I don't know why but I was desperate to see her. I always wanted for her to leave me alone but now when she's not here I don't know why but there's a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I wait more for about twenty minutes when I closed the window and went to sit on my bed. I sighed and recalled all the terrible things I said to her.

In the past two years all she did was love me, yeah no doubt her way of showing it was annoying but she never forced herself upon me. It was always like she was giving me time to accept her. Although I don't like her I shouldn't have behaved so badly with her. You don't like her? My conscience mocked me. Then why are you so depressed after hurting her? Why do you feel so much guilt inside of you? Why do you have a constant feeling to know where she is? Its just because I feel sorry for what I did to her and nothing else. I don't like her and I guess I made it pretty clear in the past two years.

Soon night came and still there was no sign of her. I was getting more and more agitated. What if something happened to her on her way over here from school? NO! It couldn't have happened. If something would have happened then surely my mom would know and she would have definitely told me. But then again I can't think of any other possible reason as to why she's not there. I mean I know that girl for past two years and never once she has left her house at this time. She's always at home.

It has been half an hour since I am sitting on my bed with my cell in my hand thinking should I call her or not? Finally deciding to get it done and over with I called her. Switched off. What? When I finally decide to call her, her cell is switched off. Again it has never happened before. I mean out of all the people I would definitely know seeing she constantly texts and calls me.

Keeping my cell phone in my hand, I drifted off to sleep.

" Wake up Dylan. " I groaned in answer and turned to the other side. Why the hell is my mom telling me to wake up so early? Even my alarm hasn't rung until now. Wait! Alarm? I don't have one. I always wake up by the call of Isabelle. So that means...?

I quickly got up and checked my cell. " Thank God! You woke up. I don't know how everyday you wake up on time but today mister you are late." My mom was scolding me in the background but I didn't pay any attention to her. I was busy looking at my cell for any message or call or anything from her. But there was none! Not a single message or call!

For the first time in two years, she didn't call me in the morning to wake me up like she always does and there wasn't even a goodnight message last night like it is always there. Even when she went to Hawaii with her mother last year, she made sure to call me and wake me up even though there was time difference.

Finally the reality of the situation sunk within me!

I screwed up big time!

I don't even know why the hell I am not happy as this is what I always wanted: for her to leave me alone, and when she finally did I couldn't help but feel more miserable. I am now even more depressed than I was yesterday.

This is what you wished for a long time,didn't you? Yeah but...

I sighed and stood up realizing school is- Wait! School! She would definitely be there as she's a freaking nerd and like every other nerd she doesn't miss even a single day of her school.

Suddenly my mood lifted a bit at the thought of seeing her in the school. I got ready in a record time and reached school as fast as possible. My car was repaired so there was no problem in reaching school.

Parking my car in the parking lot, I quickly opened my door. I got out and was instantly greeted by many people. I was in no mood for their greetings today. My only purpose for now was to find her. I lifted my head and searched the crowd for the familiar brunette but to my disappointment she was nowhere to be seen. Damn!

" Who are you looking for? " someone asked me from my right. " Isabelle " the name left out of my lips without any hesitation. The people who were near me and heard my answer gasped loudly.

Soon there was a bit of "What's" and " Why's ". I ignored them all and continued to scan the crowd.

My attention was however broken when Stacey said," Why would you want to know where that nerdy slut is? I mean she's just a pathetic bitch. Who would even ever want to look for her. You should have seen her face yesterday when you snapped at her in front of everyone. She ran out of the school crying like a baby. What a fucking trash!"

I don't know how to explain what happened next but I growled lowly and the next moment Stacey's back was against my car with my hand on her throat. Everyone around me gasped.

" Never and I repeat never speak a single word about Isabelle. " I hissed lowly in her ear so only she could hear it. " I don't hit girls but that doesn't mean I couldn't make an exception. " I added and released her abruptly. She nodded vigorously, fear shining in her eyes. Without giving anyone else the chance to ask me anything, I walked inside the school.

My mind was still reeling from what happened back in the parking lot. What has happened to me? I never tried to harm any girl in my life and still here I was doing that to Stacey for what? Because she said the same things I used to tell about Isabelle. So why did it hurt me when she said the same things about her?

I ignored all the feelings, emotions, questions that were bubbling inside of me and continued to search for her. Just once! Once I get to see her and apologize to her, I guess everything will be back to OK.

But the only problem was I couldn't find her. It's like she just vanished from every place I know she could have gone to.

This guilt inside of me was eating me up and I could just hope that I get to see Isabelle as soon as possible.