to the moon and to saturn

four

AGE: 16
WARNINGS: none
WORD COUNT: 1012

❝ this pain wouldn't be forevermore ❞

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I can't really relate to anyone my age, Taylor Swift is the one person I see myself in.

Taylor and her music have always been there for me. She gets me through every dark night.

It's safe to say she's saved my life so many times, and still does every day. She's the main reason I'm still alive.

On nights where I wasn't supposed to continue, she gave me a reason to stay. It's not like she said it to my face or something, I just hold on until the moment I will meet her.

My show of The Eras Tour is tomorrow. I've been looking forward to this moment ever since she announced the international tour dates.

I'm seeing her with two of my online friends. It was a hell getting tickets, but I got them for us.
I still can't believe I'm actually seeing my favourite person tomorrow.

Of course I wont get to tell her how much she means to me, but I wrote her a 6 page letter that I hope will somehow make it to her. I just want her to know how much she means to me.

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The next morning I wake up, and immediately get ready for the show today. I have made too many friendship bracelets, but it was fun!

I'm dressed as T-Swizzle. My hair goes perfectly with my outfit since I already have blonde curls.

A few hours pass and me and my friends have made it to the stadium. We're queuing because we have front right standing tickets!

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Taylor is absolutely breathtaking. The three of us immediately started crying our eyes out the second Taylor came on stage.

We're currently on The Archer. That song has helped me through so much, and honestly exactly explains how I feel.

Before I know it, we get to the Red era. Someone from Taylor Nation, what I figured out later, comes up to me and tells me I have to come with her. I was so confused because I thought they were removing me from the stadium. Even though I did nothing wrong that was the first thought that crossed my mind.

Except, I was taken to the stage. I'm getting the 22 hat!!! As soon as I realise what was happening, I see Taylor skipping down the stage, literally coming up to me.

All of this feels surreal, how is this happening to me? I am about to tell my life saver how much she means to me. This. Is. Not. Real.

I am obviously crying, and Taylor crouches down infront of me and takes my hands in hers.

"Hi! You look so beautiful!!" She speaks lovingly.

"Oh my God?! Taylor you literally mean so much to me you have no idea." I speak very fast since we don't have much time.

"You saved my life, multiple times. I'm so grateful for you and your music. You've helped me through so much!" I say smiling as tears stream down my face.

She hugs me tightly. This is something I have been craving, especially from her.

"This means a lot to me, I'm so proud of you! Keep your head up, you're a beautiful girl." She says as she puts the hat on my head.

"I love you so much, I wrote you a letter." I say and give her it and she presses a kiss on my cheek.

"I love you too, I'll read it after the show, I promise." And with that, she walks off.

Taylor fucking Swift kissed my cheek. This was the best thing someone could ever experience, and it happened to me.

I am forever grateful. This moment cured everything in me.

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The next day, I rewatch the videos my friends took of me getting the hat over and over again. I'll never get sick of this, I miss Taylor so much.

I then receive a text with a number that's not in my contacts.

Y/N,
I read your letter! I am so sorry you've experienced all this at such a young age, but I know how you feel. And I can promise you life does get better. Being a teenage girl in this world is such a painful thing, but you're so strong and you've gotten so far in life already!
I'm so glad you have my music, I read how much my songs mean to you. Especially 'The Archer'. I'm sorry you relate to it, but I hope you get through it, and I know you will. You're such a beautiful girl, inside and out!
It means a lot to me that you took the time to write this letter. I'm so happy you're still here, if you weren't I wouldn't get to meet you.
You have the sweetest soul, and I wish you the absolute best in life. If you ever feel sad or feel like you don't belong, please don't hesitate sending me a text and I'll be there for you.
This pain wouldn't be forevermore. It will get better over time, and I know it doesn't feel like it right now. Know that I will always be here for you.

Love, Taylor 😸🩷

By the time I finished reading all this, I'm in tears. I honestly forgot I put my number in the letter, and I also never expected her to text me.

I met Taylor, because my world didn't end when I was 13. I have something to live for now, and I will live. For her.

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A/N

this was honestly so comforting to write because i am convinced i will get the 22 hat. did you hear about the girl that lives in delusion? yeah it's me

i'm so excited for the eras tour, so i wrote this. i still can't believe im seeing her with my two bestest friends ever.

im clowning so bad with all my rep tv theories
please may they all be true so i can be at peace

— isra x