to the moon and to saturn

six

AGE: 15
WARNINGS: death by suicide
WORD COUNT: 565

❝ you loved the amber skies so much ❞

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I'm currently catching up on my missed assignments, because I went to Los Angeles with my mom so I missed a week of school

I had my phone on Do Not Disturb so I didn't see the missed calls and text messages from my best friend.

I open them, and I'm in shock.

mercury 🪐❤️

please don't freak
but we just lost olive
*attachment*
Y/N
i need you right now please

merc what?
this cant be happening
please no
she can't go

i don't know what to do
she's locked in a room
and she's got the key

she can't go, i need her
break the door down
is she talking to you?

no
i'm so scared

me too lovely
i'll text her, keep talking to her

-

I break down in tears. Olive is my best friend, I can't lose her. She means so much to me, if she dies right now I don't know if I could survive that.

I quickly make my way to our text messages and text her. She's at Mercury's house right now, and she won't talk to her. I'm the only hope we have right now.

liv 🩷

LIV
liv
talk to me rn
i love you so much

i love you Y/N

liv you can't do this
please
i need you

you mean a lot to merc
stay that way

merc needs you, we both need you
i love you please don't go

i regret it too
but it's a bit too far now
i can't go back
i love you

let mercury take you to the hospital

remember me in the sunsets lovely
and remember you're the last person i ever spoke to

-

And just 15 minutes later, I get a text from Mercury telling me she's dead. My best friend just died.

I need my moms hugs right now, so I make my way to her room. Even though it's 1am, she will always be there to comfort me.

I stand next to her bed, watching her sleep as I cry my eyes out.

"Mommy." I say as I shake her awake. I only call her Mommy when I'm upset or anxious. She wakes up and sees me crying, she immediately gets up and hugs me so tightly.

"Baby, what's wrong? What happened?" She asks me, rubbing circles on my back.

"Olive's dead. She killed herself Mommy. I don't know what to do, I can't live without her." I tell her, full on sobbing into her chest.

"Oh my sweet girl, I'm so sorry. I know how much she meant to you." Taylor speaks lovingly.

I spend the next few hours crying in Taylor's arms, and not one second she lets go. She keeps comforting me, and that's all I need right now.

What died didn't stay dead. You're alive, you're alive in my head.

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A/N

this is very short sorry and it's mostly text messages but i wanted to publish smt! i'm currently in austria and my plane legit almost crashed so we ended up landing in germany? long story but we made it to austria hours later 😭😭

this actually happened to me, and today is the 482th day without her, so this is for her

she loved the amber skies so much

— isra x