10 layers of bubble wrap for the lady, please!
/ everyone's a little ugly in real life / why don't we make them ugly in movies too? / everyone's beautiful in our collective imagination / everyone's beautiful outside of a photo / i used to say all people are beautiful when i was a child / now i resist the urge to throw myself out a moving car / lock the door / check if your eyeliner is bleeding in your phone's mirror / close your eyes / think of a better time / think of holding someone's arm / feeling safe like you're bubble-wrapped / time the silences / only look at the flower / how do you keep a beautiful thing safe? / how do you go from one day to the next knowing how unfair everything is / swallow your fear / tamp it down /
if i could vomit my heart out / pull it right out of my slimey throat / i'd put it in your hand /
die with empty eyes and an incapable voice box /
if i could / hotel imagery / dim light / dim light / dim light / yellow / yellow / yellow / cat with yellow eyes / crying on a rooftop / poetry on a rooftop / a woman in red / my face hurts when i smile / we can't afford your depression anymore / food is losing its taste again /
locking the car door / definitive click / someone (i) will make a movie about this / someday / one day / day one / giggling by the water dispenser / i miss / hands touching on the train home / i miss / crush / potentiality / those good old boys who still find joy in life to talk about / 4 pm / hurtling through a desert / deep pink flowers bloom under scorching sun /
winter finally arrived midway through december /
i miss those good old boys / they could still find joy in life to talk about /
