Finally after being in the hospital for so long they released me. The sad thing is that i have to go to counseling for suicide attempt and i honestly don't need it but after my poor decision my parents won't have it any other way.
Justin has been with me basically the whole time and it really shocked me how much he cared when we know really nothing about eachother.
We still haven't talked about the kiss either so I'm very confused about us right now. I didn't know why i did it but it felt nice.
"What are you smiling about?" Justin asked as he helped me out of bed.
"Nothing" i blushed making him chuckle.
"Tell me, come on"
"Maybe another time" i smiled then my foster parents walked into the room.
"Come on sel let's hit the road!" Miss Emily smiled at me warmly.
"Okay"
"Um justin are you going home or did you want to hang out a while with sel at the house?"
"Um" he looked at me deciding.
"Just go home justin its okay I'll be fine, you must be exhausted anyways so ill just see you at school" i smiled at him.
"Are you sure?"
"Im positive, just go" i shooed him off.
"Alright bye selena" he hugged me tightly then waved to my foster parents then he left.
"Hmm that boy is something" John suddenly spoke up after justin left.
"Do you like him?" Emily asked.
"No he's just my friend" i shrugged.
"I like him, he seems like a great friend and you're more than welcome to bring him around more often" John smiled at me.
I nodded smiling also, who knew John would like justin so much i think him saving my life played a huge role in that.
We walked out of the room and my eyes scanned over a familiar face and my eyes widened in horror.
I got flashbacks from the night my parents were killed. His prickly face, his evil grin, everything.
I turned and tried running but ended up in my parents arms as they held me tightly.
"Selena what's the matter! " they shouted
"No let me go! Help me he's here for me! " I screamed and jolted around as tears filled my eyes.
"Who selena calm down!" I heard them tell me
Soon new arms wrapped around me and i looked up slowly seeing justin there holding me. I dug my face into his chest crying.
"Selena it's okay just calm down" he whispered
I quickly glanced back to see if the evil man was still there but we was gone. I looked around confused, did i imagine what i just saw?
I wiped my face and stepped away from justin.
"B-B- But" i choked out.
"Are you sure you want me to go home?" He looked at me worried.
I nodded my head, "im sorry i worried you all i just thought I saw somebody i knew"
"That man?" Mrs Emily whispered only so we can hear alerted.
"What man?" Justin asked concerned.
"No! Okay guys look I'm fine can we just go home? Justin you go home and get some rest I'll be fine and I'll see you later"
They all just sighed and nodded.
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That following Monday i finally went back to school i knew everybody have been talking about my suicide attempt. I don't even know how it got out but it did and now i have to face it.
I was actually looking for justin instead of avoiding him like usual. I couldn't wait to be with him cause now i suddenly hated the feeling of being alone. It felt good knowing i had a friend like justin too.
When i walked into the school everyones eyes were on me and the whispers erupted from their mouths. I just put my head down and kept walking.
"Haha jaay stop!" I heard a girl giggle as i came around the corner.
I stopped when i saw justin with a girl all wrapped up in his arms. I tried to hurry up and leave but he saw me.
"Selena!" He called out to me and i froze scrunching my face up then i slowly turned around to face him giving him my best fake smile.
"Oh justin hey i didn't see you there"
"Come here i want to introduce you to my girlfriend" he smiles at me.
I mentally slap myself in the face he has a girlfriend and i kissed him! I don't know why i didn't think this through of course he has a girlfriend i mean look at him!
"Oh your girlfriend?" I repeat walking closer to them.
"Yeah this is Jada, Jada this is selena" he motions to me.
"Hi selena nice to meet you" she smiles and shakes my hand.
"It's nice to meet you too" i smile back.
We were all kind of just standing there looking at eachother with awkward over played smiles.
"So um, im gonna go have fun you... lover. . Bird..kids" i shrug as i turn and walk away slapping my head.
"Wait hold up" justin called and ran up to me.
"Why didn't you tell me you have a girlfriend!" I whisper yell trying to make sure his girlfriend couldn't hear or anyone else.
"Whoah why are you yelling at me?"
"Because justin i fucking kissed you and if I would have known i wouldn't have!"
"Well first of all we were barely on friend bases because you refused to trust me and how did I know you were going to kiss me!"
"I didn't mean it! I was just...just happy"
"So you kiss people when you're happy?" He smirked crossing his arms.
"No but you did so much for me and when you found my necklace that set it off, if it weren't for you i wouldn't be alive right now either" i shrugged
"Well im sorry i didn't tell you" he grinned
"And im sorry for kissing you when you have a girlfriend" i grinned back.
"If you can forgive me I'll forgive you" he tilted his head sideways waiting for my answer.
I just giggled and nodded before he engulfed me into a hug.
"Now go, your girlfriend is waiting for you"
"We need to talk later alright?" He told me and i knew he wouldn't let it go.
"Fine" i smiled once then turned leaving as my smile dropped down into a frown.
Why was I so sad? He is just my friend and that's all I need right now.
