All Cloaked Up For You

Chapter 22 - Alexander

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE DOESN'T WANT THE UNIFORM?" I asked furiously. "I'm sorry sir, she doesn't want to meet with you anymore either, I think you are starting to make her mad at you," Abitha said. I calmed down. I know and there's a feeling that I know that Sophia is mad at me. "Do you know why she's mad?" I asked. I have a sort of idea why she's mad. "She said that she love you but you just left without saying anything," Abitha said. 

I flopped on my desk chair. She can't possibly don't talk to me forever. I understand she likes me but I didn't expect her to still be mad at me while liking me. At this point, Sophia will probably choose Joe Tumbleweed instead of me. It has been a week since I have seen Sophia. Well, not really she asked to see me when I was working.  Even if she likes me and I don't. I still worry hell for her since she is my friend. I don't know what to do. 

I don't want her to hate me forever. I still want to see her. I don't know if I can. She looks like Madeline. Think, think, what the fuck you can do the savage the friendship again. Get it in your head, Alexander, she hates you. She fell for you and you hurt her by going away. I slammed the pen on the desk. I stared at the wall and mocked myself. "Hi I'm Alexander and I ruined a girl's life because I imagined her like my ex," I mumbled. 

I got to bed and tucked myself in. Even if Sophia likes me and I only see her as another fragment of Madeline, I care for Sophia just like how I care for Madeline. Abitha's situation with her first love hits me. If the new guy Abitha was the one who drugged her husband's water despite being with her, would Sophia be the new guy? There's no way. There's no fucking way. Sophia was a smart girl so she would read all day and not do anything to kill Madeline.

I swear, Maddie was in front of me at the dress store the day before she left. Well, why? I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep. As I close my eyes, my mind is aching for more answers. Did Madeline die? I know she left me but I still wasn't sure if she died. I gave a shaky sigh. There's no hope of finding the disappearance of Madeline Windsor will there? The more breaths I released the more I felt a sense of drowsiness. 

 I tell you, I never used to remember my dreams. Except this one. I think it's giving me a sign. I remember Sophia and Madeline standing next to each other having a conversation. This time Madeline was covered in blood and spread the blood to Sophia. I have no idea what is going on. When Sophia was covered in blood like Maddie. I woke up gasping for air. Abitha ran into the room. "You okay sir?" Abitha asked. "I'm fine."

"Alright sir, you might want to be ready for school. You have 30 minutes to prepare and then I'll get your breakfast ready," she reminded. "Alright." Abitha closed the door. I got prepared but as I was about to go down the stairs, I got a bit of a thought. The dream was very realistic to my eye. I know it was just a dream but I remember this dream very well. Maybe I'm just buffing and I'm being all crazy because I feel guilty of hurting Sophia. 

There's no way. Sophia and Madeline do have similar faces. Does the blood in my dreams mean anything? Are they siblings? They can't they barely even know each other. What causes them to have the same face? I realized there was something with that particular blood I see in my dreams that caused all this mess in my head. Sophia and Madeline share the same blood somehow. BUT HOW? Plus, how doesn't Sophia know about this? 

What, did I almost solve the mystery of her dad? Look, it was weird for her dad to die by a car before she was even born because there were barely any cars in the wasteland at that time. The dad probably was drunk or crazy that he fucked another woman and his wife making Sophia and Madeline have the same blood as their dad. I don't know if I should say that to Sophia because yes, my theory came out from a crazy dream I just had. 

Also, we aren't going to be sure that Sophia and Madeline share the same blood. What happens of Sophia's dad is a loyal husband who loves his wife. There should be a clue here. All this thinking about Sophia got me wondering. What is she doing now? Is she okay? I snarfed up that last pancake and ran out the door. "Have a good and peaceful day sir" Abitha said before I closed the door. Today isn't going to be a peaceful day alright. 

Sophia should be at school. I hope. I want to see how she is doing. Then I realized something when I got into the car. Things feel weird without Sophia by my side. I barely wore my cloak, I barely smiled, and I miss her. I miss a good conversation about books or life. I miss my best friend. When I said I want to be C.M. forever, I now mean it. I want Sophia to hug me, giving me trust, and care maybe differently than Maddie. 

I feel watery, I don't have a sense of myself anymore. I had built a wall after a bad relationship but I want Sophia to stay in the wall with me. What I feel is selfish, and it might need to be checked. I understand that she supported me and was patient with me. Like Maddie did. This time, she was there longer and cared for me. This time something surges in me. I will chase after her if she leaves. I don't want Sophia to go. 

I opened the door and I didn't see Sophia at school. My heart sank. I sat down next to Jake Bloque. He looks at me with concern. "Dude, did you get in a train wreck or something?" Jake asked. I look at him with confusion. "Look we are friends, I know that deep down you are feeling sad. What is making you feel like that?" I sighed. "It's none of your business," I snarked. Jake shuts up for once and I can't help but stare at Sophia's desk, which is empty.