AWOKEN (Third Book Of The Nightmare Series)

Chapter 23: Funeral

Chapter 23: Funeral

*Alison POV*

Was there any way to disguise the pain of losing your husband?

The love of your life?

I didn't think so.

But I had to be strong. For my children and my baby.

Mine and Jason's baby.

Olivia was bawling, saying it was all her fault.

It wasn't, I always reassured her. It wasn't. Life took its course, and we are all given something we can't handle but God, believes we can.

I can do this.

Jason's old gang members were currently looking for him when the bomb went off.

I kept telling myself he was alive, and was going to come out, with bruises and scars, but alive.

It's been 2 and a half hours.

I kept insisting on them looking. The boys had no idea what was going on and where their father was, I thought it was best they didn't know yet until we found Jason.

"Alison-"

"Please.. Keep looking." I told them, my voice filled with desperation.

They just sighed and nodded.

They knew where I was coming from. They all had girlfriends and wives of their own and understand what they would be feeling if they were in my spot.

"Momma I'm so sorry. It's all-"

"Stop Olivia. It's not your fault. It's no ones fault."

"When me and dad were back at the house.. He wanted me to tell you that he loves you, and doesn't want you with any other guys because your his." I just laughed.

It was the best thing I've heard a day.

"I wouldn't want to move on. He's my husband, the love of my life. Yes okay he was a jerk, but when you fall in love, and I mean truly fall in love, it's like your world revolves around them, every imperfection of theirs is perfect to you. They seem perfect. And you're father is perfect.

He has these amazing brown eyes, that I just get lost in whenever I look into them. And his beautiful smile that keeps me laughing and living everyday, and his personality. He's an ass sometimes but he does it out of love. He doesn't mean to be a jerk, but that's just who he is, and I love him for that.

He's amazing and handsome and so many other words but I couldn't possibly tell you everyone of the because there's just to many. Listen to me Olivia, when you get older, or maybe a year from now, you'll fall in real love with an amazing guy who freaking will love the hell out of you and cherish your well being as a person.

Love is a bitch sometimes and it's not perfect. But being with your father, was the best decision I've ever made. And you guys will argue, fight, call each other names, and that's okay. Because that's love, it's not perfect but it's something you won't regret if that person is your soulmate."

"What would I do without you?"

And there was that amazing cocky voice I fell in love with and keep falling for every time I hear it.

"Jason.."

"I'm here baby." We both ran into each there's arms, but not romantically because we both hit each others foreheads when we got to each other.

That romantic stuff only happens in the movies.

"I was so scared! You scared me Jason Andrew McCann! How dare you!"

"I'm here now. I've been out for a while, I just had to catch my breath."

"For two and a half hours?!"

"I didn't realize it was that long. I'm so sorry I put you through hell baby. I love you so much."

"I guess I love you..."

"You better because I'm not leaving you. Never ever ever."

"Thank you Jason... So much."

"For what?"

"Being the amazing father you are to our children.. You've given them a life we would have dreamed of when we were their ages. We've been through a lot and I want you to know that I love you Jason. I want you to know I'll always be there for you, whenever you need me.

I'm going to be here. I'm never leaving because you Jason Andrew McCann, are the love of my life and you're an asshole sometimes but that's okay, because you're my asshole and that sounds weird and wrong but I think you get what I mean.

When we got married, even though it wasn't a huge wedding, it was one of the best days of my life. And when I first met you I thought you were going to be like all the others.. I never expected to marry you let alone fall in love with you.

What you did to my sister hurt me and still does hurt and I wish you hadn't done that, but I can't stay mad. I love you and.. We can't help who we love, Tapanga wanted to hurt us.. I understand where you were coming from. I love you Jason. Sometimes I wish I didn't but I do, and I'm so thankful I devoted my life to you."

"What would I do without you Alison goddamn. William Shakespeare or John Green couldn't beat that shit holy fuck. I don't know what to say.. I love you though. I freaking love the hell out of you and I wish I could change the past but I know I can't so I'm just going to say this..

I love you. I love you Alison Jennings-McCann. You are so perfect and I can't imagine my life without you as my wife. I'm sorry for what I did to you and Tapanga. I wish she was here to see her niece and nephews, I hated her and I still can't stand her, but I love you. And that's all there really is to it. I'm sorry for all I put you through but you're still here so I guess that's a good thing.

Just know that I love you and I'm willing to do anything for you. Even if it means risking my life, I'll do it because you're my wife and you're amazing as hell."

My heart was melting as we speak.

"I love you Jason."

"And I love you more Alison."

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THIS IS HOW YOU KNOW I DONT HAVE A LIFE

I'M SO SORRY FOR THE SAPPINESS

THIS IS THE SECOND TO LAST CHAPTER BEFORE THE EPILOGUE

I MIGHT CRY GUYS OMG

I LOVE YOU ❤️

I MUST GO NOW..... I love you guys

~Alexis Bieberr~😘💋💋