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"If yah guh siddung yasso and be quiet and smoke let mi out a dis yer." She says infuriating me even more.
Why you upset and a you do sumn.
Mi know.
"Jus easy yuh self nuh babes." I said pinching the bridge of my nose.
"Who a babes??" She asked looking around dramatically.
Swear think she funny enuh.
"First of all, you nah go use sex fi come out a dis." She says as she met my lustful stare.
She knows me well.
Yet still yuh choose fi almost cheat pan har.
Why dah bredda yah inna mi head cya shut up?
Trying to touch her she flashes my hand off, her face scrunching up in disgust.
"I excused the first "Mi nuh know fi express miself" thing because you are human and something tragic happen to you but." She pauses.
"There's a but, your emotions are intact enough for you to know that cheating on your pregnant girlfriend who just went through a miscarriage isn't the way to go." She says as my heart started to feel uncomfortably heavy.
Weh yuh really did ago do?
Rubbing my palms over my face I sighed feeling something slide down my cheek.
Tears?
"Yuh leff mi fi do a video-shoot? I'm not insecure so I understand the touching girls thing but yet still you had to take it to a level where you almost cheated??" She shouted even more tears falling from her eyes.
"Yuh realize skai and twin? Not to compare anyone because everyone has their own problems in their relationship but he had to stop you? Someone who had a gyalis repuatation had to stop you from cheating?"
"You just told me I love you the other day do you even know what that means? Do you even know how many value that holds? I'm sorry but as much as I love you , I'm loving you enough to let you go.
"I'm not bitter enough to not make you see your child, you will be included in everything relating to this baby but I won't be with you anymore." She concluded making it feel like my heart was stopping.
Mi woman a leff me?
"Babes... babes please , mi will do anything yuh wah me do fi get back inna yuh good graces. Nuh give up pan me...
"Before you , as mi explain many times mi neva know nuh love. You a di only love mi know and the only love mi wah know.
"Mi know mi already seh it multiple times but mi experience so much new feelings when it comes to you..
"Mi do things weh mi never yet think fi do yuh even a carry mi youth." I said as my voice breaks a tear streaming down as I quickly wiped it away.
Weak.
Daddy neva grow mi suh.
"As much as mi just wah drop everything and run come hug yuh up and seh "It's Okay" I won't. What you did once you will do again and I have to set boundaries.
"If I just take you back you'll think that all is well and it's okay to do what you're doing when it isn't.
"It isn't okay because you know what my ex did to me and you came around to do the same thing.
"What would you have done if twin never stopped you? You would've cheated then came home to me and rub my belly and have sex with me too?
"If you say I'm the only love you know and you have me what are you possibly going out there to look for?
"If I'm everything you want what did she have that I didn't?" She said making the defenses around my heart drop and the feelings rush in one by one.
Mi lost fi words, cause a the truth she a talk. She hit every thing pan the head when she talk bout the cheating part.
The way how mi woulda come home and hug her up like all is well and touch up the baby bump like mi neva just give her bun.
"Deven ago deny it ba— Lee, everything weh yuh seh yasso a true. Mi really need fi work pan mi self cause mi just a hurt you inna the process and nah see.
"Mi cya erase weh mi do or almost do but when mi tell yuh mi appreciate and love yuh from mi heart mi mean it.
"When mi tell yuh seh a you first mek mi start do certain things and mi nuh regret it or woulda change it fi the world mi a be real.
"Just one last hug.. one last kiss.. that's all mi ask." I said my body feeling light the moment I got out what I was feeling.
"Not kissing you, because I don't have the level of control to stop, but I will give you a hug." She says wiping her tears as I nodded.
Pulling her over on my lap I hugged her nuzzling my face in her neck basking in the last moment and inhaling how he smells.
She always smell so good.
Nearly diss mi woman fi a groupie, weh mi really a pree?
Pulling away she tries to climb back to the passenger seat as I held her close my lips coming close to her's.
Pushing me with her small hands in my chest she eases me off looking at me with a strained expression.
"No Romeo, we cant. You need to work on yourself and I need to work on stop settling for less and excusing things so easy." She says as I nod letting her go.
"My next appointment is tomorrow at ten. I'll unblock you on WhatsApp and send you the details.
"I really wish you the best as you embark on the journey of trying to find and express all that you feel.
"You made a bold step by pouring your heart out and just know that it's appreciated and I love you." She said kissing me on my cheek before getting out of the car.
She do it, she finally break down the barriers and mek mi express mi self.
The fact seh me losing her a wah mek mi really learn how fi express mi self is wild.
