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Chapter 7: That's not your fault

Thousands of people suspected that they all regretted it after they died.
Author: Qi Miao is a bad cat
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Chapter 7

　　The three people who were watching Su Mingran dispersed with peace of mind when they saw that Su Mingran didn't respond anymore.

　　Su Mingran sat on the steps of the courtyard in a daze.

　　He once watched a short film about a female cat who goes out to look for food every day. Every time she finds food, she feeds it to her kittens, but the female cat doesn't eat it.
　　If the female cat is really hungry, she will eat pebbles on the roadside to fill her belly.

　　In the end, the mother cat starved to death, and her kittens clung to her side. The mother cat used her last body to protect the kittens from the wind and rain.

　　The short film lavishly praised the greatness of maternal love, which does not distinguish between species.

　　Su Mingran couldn't help but ask: Are there any mothers who don't love their children?

　　He received tons of feedback.

　　"How could it be?"
　　"A mother loves her child the most. It's so painful to be pregnant for ten months." "
　　Yes, maternal love is great. She can give up everything for her child."
　　"Why do you ask such a question? What do you want to say!"

　　Su Mingran wanted to say: But his mother really doesn't love him.

　　The pain of being pregnant for ten months was so difficult that Su Mingran always wanted to ask Yan Qian why she gave birth to him in the first place if she really didn't like him.
　　Why endure ten months of pain to give birth to a child you don't love?

　　Su Mingran stared at the ground blankly, recalling Yan Qian's words just now, "You should reflect on yourself, why do the Su family like Xinghe but not you? Everyone likes Xinghe, that only means there is something wrong with you."
　　Does he really not deserve everyone's love?

　　Su Mingran fell into a trap of self-doubt and began to seriously think about whether she had really done something wrong. Otherwise, why could Qi Xinghe be loved by everyone but not himself?
　　My father is, my mother is, my brother is, my sister is, and so is Gu Pei.

　　Everyone thinks that the mother will love their children, but he failed to get the mother's love. Is he really unworthy?

　　This kind of thinking pulled him into the quagmire. The more he struggled to escape, the deeper he sank, until a pair of light blue flat shoes appeared in front of him.

　　"Child, are you okay?"

　　Su Mingran raised his head, with a little mist in his eyes, looking at the woman who appeared in front of him in confusion and helplessness.

　　The woman seemed to sigh deeply and sat with him on the stairs, "I am a guest invited by your father. You can call me Aunt Xia. Just now, aunt wanted to go to the toilet and accidentally went to the wrong place and overheard your parents' conversation. I couldn't help but want to tell you."
　　"Kid, that's not your fault."

　　How could a biological mother say such hurtful things that her child didn't deserve to be liked?
　　The mother had problems of her own.

　　Aunt Xia gently stroked Su Mingran's hair, "Some parents do not like their children. You play the piano very well and you are handsome, but none of this has anything to do with your parents. You are not liked. It's not your fault."

　　Su Mingran looked at Aunt Xia, with more and more mist in her eyes, remembering her childhood when she was thrown into the corridor in disgust by her parents, her brother's disregard, her sister's teasing, and Qi Xinghe's provocation.
　　Like a helpless child, he asked the strange Aunt Xia in front of him, "But Auntie, why don't they like me? I'm already very good."