At Kevin's Mercy 2: Reclaimed

20. Payback time.

We're back at the forest house, the one I escaped from before with Iris.
Kevin told Felix to take a break while he was going to make sure I was comfortable for the night.
It was a long ride and I had been half asleep half awake on his lap for the rest of the ride.
I was exhausted and emotionally drained from everything that happened.
Feeling Kevin's arms around me had finally relaxed me enough to give in to it.
Kevin sat me down on the bed and checked the bruises on my face.
His eyes lingering on my black eye.

"I'll get you some ice for that."

He said gently kissing my forehead.

"Are you okay Kevin? With the car crashing and all? Are you not hurt?"

I asked a little concerned, for as far as I saw he only had some small cuts and bruises but you never know.
It was a big car crash for both of us to be knocked out.

"Such a sweet girl. After everything they did to you, you still think of me first."

His arms wrapped around me, pulling me in for a hug.
I snuggled up against him, trying to find more comfort in his arms.
Trying to erase the memories of others touching me, replacing them with his touch again.

"Just like you should. You should only be thinking about me."

His voice sounded dark all the sudden and I felt some tension in the way he held me.
It had me freeze up and Kevin felt that immediately.
He looked down at me with guilt ridden eyes, gently stroking my cheek with his fingers.
Coaxing me to relax again.

"Sorry baby, I'm not angry at you. While you were sleeping in the car Felix told me what happened when he found you. I need you to tell me exactly what was done to you. Don't leave anything out. No lies, just the truth."

I stared back at him with tears in my eyes.
What he asked was hard and painful.
I wanted to forget what was done to me, and not tell Kevin everything.
Just forget and move on.
Not remember how scared I was when his father promised me to another or when Maxwell was forcing himself on me, not remember how dirty I still feel from all those hands touching me.
Just forget, throw away the keys, never look back.

Talking with the therapist about what Kevin had done with me didn't help me then either.
It only made me miss him more, but Kevin never made me feel dirty.
That's why I'm happy he's back with me.
I only need Kevin, Kevin is enough for me.
But he's not going to let this go... he never does.
I need to do what he wants, it's always his way, because Kevin knows best.
So even if I didn't want to, I started talking.
I told him what his father did to me.
But also showed him the cut he bandaged.
It wasn't all bad what his father did to me and his sister was nice to me even if she didn't help me.
Kevin wasn't happy hearing all of it but he seemed relieved that was all his father had done.
Next I told him what Maxwell had done.
With every word I spoke and pointing out every place he had touched, I could see Kevin was getting more and more worked up.
I also saw something else in his eyes as he saw me struggle to tell him everything, I couldn't quite place it because his anger kept taking over. 
When I got to the point where I was bend over sticking out of the back of that car, I saw his fists turn white from clenching them so hard.
He even brought one of his fists up and bit himself to calm down.
By this point I was crying between my words.
All the fears I had in that moment were back, Kevin being angry didn't help at all.
Kevin suddenly scooped me up in his arms and just held me close.

"Good girl, you're my good girl. Thank you for being honest even when it's scary. You're so brave for telling me all this. Don't worry about a thing. I'll make him pay, I'll make it all better. You're mine and I will never let anyone take you away again."

It was a strange promise, still I took relieve from it.
Mostly because he wasn't angry at me.
He says he's going to fix it, so he will.
Kevin never lied to me before.
All I need is Kevin to make me feel better again, to make this dirty feeling go away.