Love Hurts a Lot Sometimes...

Hard Choices to Be Made..(Part 1)

Dabi's POV

It was another boring night in the LOV so Shiggy and I decided to play some video games on his Xbox. I was beating him at Call Of Duty 3 and he was getting really mad at me but I was really enjoying it. He pushed me around while I was laughing at him for losing the game "Dabi you are so mean!" Shiggy said with a pout, I giggled softly while looking at him "Oh come on Shiggy~ you know that I'm just messing with you" Shiggy looked back at me and said "Yeah I know but sometimes you can be a real asshole!" I laughed even harder and said "That's the whole point Baby~~" He blushed bright red while looking up at me "Yeah I know Dabi~" He moved over to me and laid his head on my shoulder, I blush and say "I'm glad you do Baby~~" I kissed him on the forehead and he snuggled even closer to me, I wrap my arms around him "Ah, you're so warm Dabi~" I smiled while blushing "Thank you Sweetheart~~" He looked up at me with a soft grin on his face "You're welcome Dabi~" He kisses me on the cheek and we turned off the Xbox, we laid down on the couch while cuddling. I woke around 6:00 chock at night and got off the couch, I put on my boots and leather jackrt. I decided to text Hawks to see if he still wanted me to come over tonight,

Dabi:'Hey do you want me to come over still?'

Hawks:'Yes! Of course I do Dabi~'

Dabi:'Awesome I'll be there soon Babe~'

Hawks:'Good, see you then Dabi~'

Dabi:'See you then Love~'

after I was done texting him. I put my phone back in my pocket and headed towards the door, opened it. I locked it behind me and walked towards my car and unlocked it, got in. Put my seatbelt on and drove to his apartment while thinking about stuff in my head 'I hope Shiggy doesn't wake up but I should be back before he wakes up or before morning' I continued on driving to his apartment while playing my music, trying my best to not think too much about Shiggy waking up and not seeing me next to him on the couch. I finally arrived at Hawk's apartment and I undid my seatbelt, I got out of my car and locked it. I walked up to the apartment doors and opened it, head on in and went to the front desk to sign in "Hello there! How may I help you?" The lady says, I smiled and said "I'm just signing in" She grins softly and says "Of course sir, sign the paper to the left" She points to the packet of papers on the left of her desk "Alright thanks, I sign in the slide where the person's name is right?" I ask softly, she smiles and says "Yes, that's where you sign it sir" I grin a bit and sign it then say "Thanks ma'am" She smiles sweetly and says "No problem sir" I walk away from the desk and head upstairs to Hawk's apartment room. I make my way up to Hawk's room and knock on his door "Coming!" Hawks says from inside the apartment room, I smiled softly while waiting. He opens the door and grinds very softly "Hey Dabi~" He runs towards me and hugs me very tightly "HI Babe~~ I'm happy to see you too" I hug him back, I kiss him on the forehead and run my fingers through his hair "Mm you feel so warm Dabi~~" I smiled sweetly and hugged him even harder "Aww thanks Love~" He looks up at me and smiles softly "You're welcome Dabi~" We kiss each other on the lips while still hugging each other, we let go of the kiss and look at one another "I love you Dabi~~" I blush red and say "I love you too Babe~" We kiss one last time before we go into his room. I walk towards his couch and sit down, Hawks walks towards me "You alright Dabi~?" I looked up at him and smiled "Yeah, I'm alright Babe~" he nods and sits next to me "So what do you want to do?" Hawks while looking into my eyes "I'm not sure, what do you want to do?" Hawks pulls me by my shirt and kisses me on the lips, I blush very bright red and kiss him back. I wrap my arms around his hips and pulled him closer to me, he wraps his arms around my neck very tightly while we have heated make out session then I push him down on the couch still having a heated make out session. I run my hands up and down his body while still kissing him, he pulls my shirt off then I take his sweat pants off and we throw both of these things to the floor. After having fun with each other, we fall asleep while cuddling. A while after that I woke up around 10:30 pm, I quickly get up off the couch and put my clothes back on and quickly headed out the door. I went downstairs to the front desk "Hello again sir" I grind softy and said "Hi, I'm just checking out" she nods and says "Alright dear, sign out in the papers next to the sign in ones" I nod and sign out "Thank you sir, have a nice day" she said with a smile "Your welcome and thanks" I walk towards the doors and opened them, walked out of the building and headed to my car then I unlock it and got in. I drove to the store real quick to pick up some stuff for the LOV then I headed back outside to my car and unlock it so that I could put the food and other things in the back of my car after that I closed the trunk and walked towards the front of my car and opened my driver side door and got in then put my seatbelt on, started up the car and drove back to the LOV hide out. On my way there I was thinking about both Shiggy and Hawks because I love them both even though I'm supposed to love only one of them, it's very hard for me to choice who to be with. I know it sounds crazy but I can't choice just one of them even though I will have to some day... Witch I'm not ready for and I never will be.. No matter how hard I try, I'll never be ready to lose either one of them....but it will be my fault if I do.. If that day ever comes, I will have to make a very hard choice...but the thing is that I don't know who I would choice to stay with.... God! Why is it so hard? I do understand why but there has to be at lest one of them that I love more than the other.....right?