Inspired by: "Let you break my heart again" by Laufey "Tingin" by cup of joe "Male Fantasy" by Billie Eilish
Hans continued his movement through the middle of the bustling school corridors, as he saw him, Mateo. Can't notice the loud crowd in the corridors. each step echoing the quiet rhythm of his emotions. The words of the a song played in his mind like a haunting melody, resonating with the unspoken poetry of his new found admiration for Mateo.
"Feeling under the weather" Hans thought, the weight of his emotions settling like a heavy fog. The routine of school became a backdrop for the unexpressed feelings, and Hans found himself lost in the quiet symphony of his own heart.
As he passed by the cafeteria, the aroma of food filled the air, a sensory reminder of the moments spent daydreaming about Mateo. Hans sighed, realizing that his infatuation had become a staple in the tapestry of his daily life.
"You're always inside my mind" Hans whispered to himself, the truth hanging in the air like an unspoken confession. The mixed signals from Mateo became the source of both delight and torment, a paradox that Hans couldn't unravel.
That one table at the cafeteria, their unofficial meeting place, witnessed more than just stolen glances. Hans reflected the thought that he will always be nothing to him. Sunset views added layers to the connection, weaving a tale of intimacy amidst the chaos of school life.
"I'm just tryna understand what you could think of me" Hans pondered, the question lingering like a shadow. The silence that followed each encounter left him overwhelmed and confused, caught in the enigma of Mateo's presence.
"If I'm moving on from you, Or just acting like it. Telling myself I don't love you.
Can't move past you No matter what I try I should, but I can't bring myself to hate you, Why can't I move on? Guess it's hard when nobody else comes around to replace you."
"Sometime, I will stop falling in love with you," Hans whispered again, a mantra of unfulfilled hope. The daydreams of someone liking him like he liked Mateo became a distant beacon, a promise that kept the flame of his affection burning.
The year unfolded, the routine of hot chocolate while thinking of you as a daily ritual of unspoken passion. Putting on love songs in the background "Pretend that we are more than friends" as I speak into nothing, sounding stupid all alone Hans mused, savoring the quiet moments while knowing that the inevitable heartbreak awaited.
"Some day, one day," Hans mused, a touch of melancholy in his eyes. "I will stop falling in love with you" The story of falling in love with Mateo continued, a poignant journey marked by the quiet symphony of emotions that echoed in the corridors of their shared existence. Until then, in the solitude of his thoughts, Hans sipped his coffee, savored it, and let the unspoken verses of his love story play on.
Someway, sometime, somewhere, you'll love someone else.
~for the last time this year. I love you.-END
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