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Sway

Sway

Hi! Kamusta ka na?

Naaalala mo pa ba ko? Hmm… Probably not anymore. But well, we used to know each other. We used to be an important person in each other’s lives. Pero matagal na yun. Kaya naiintindihan ko kung hindi mo na ko naaalala.

But you know? I clearly remember you.

You and everything that happened between us.

Sa totoo lang, ikaw na lang ang naaalala ko sa naging buhay ko noon. I don ‘t even know who I was before. All I know is that I used to love you. And maybe I still do. Maybe you’re my unfinished business. Kaya hindi mawala yung image mo sa alaala ko because I keep holding on to you even across the afterlife.

For your information, we met at a party. Debut of a friend. Funny, I remember that instance but I couldn’t remember who the celebrant was. I can only assume that she’s a close friend of ours. The song Sway started playing and soon enough, my other friends were gone to the dance floor, leaving me behind. Mahiyain kasi ako and I don’t really dance. So I just stayed there with my head bowed down while I kept playing with the leftovers on my plate.

Then, as if on cue, your hands laid in front of me.

I looked up to you and you smiled.

“I was hoping to dance with the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. So uhm..” Humawak ka pa sa batok mo.

“Will you dance with me?”

Of course I danced with you. Then you asked me out. Niligawan mo ko. Sinagot kita. I could still remember that first kiss we shared. It wasn’t romantic. It was magical. And I knew right then and there that you’re the one I will love until my last breath.

Apparently, my gut was right.

But you know what? You had me on that first dance.

Not that that mattered. After several months, nagbreak din tayo. I remember crying and shouting and punching you weakly. I remember feeling the mixture of pain, anger, and love. I remember you looking at me with those eyes that are sad but so sure that its over between us.

Well… That was all I could remember in my past life. Aside from that accident that took away my life.

Siguro ok na din na nagbreak tayo bago ako namatay. Because if we didn’t, baka hindi lang not getting over you ang unfinished business ko. I would regret leaving you behind.

So kamusta ka na? Huling balita ko sayo may bago ka na. I’ve been dead for so long. Siguro kasal na kayo ngayon. Siguro may anak na kayo. Or mga anak. Siguro masayang Masaya ka na. At malamang, nalimutan mo na talaga ako.

Ako? Wag mo nang itanong. I’m always the same. And it was always the same. I’m always waiting for that moment when someone remembers me. I wait and wait and wait. But no one really does. Kaya sana, kahit minsan sumagi ako sa isip mo. Sana, kahit minsan maalala mong minahal mo ko. ‘Cause I don’t want to be forgotten.

So I hope, even for just a second, you’d remember me. Because I couldn’t forget loving you.