Smile. ON HOLD(Punk Niall Horan Fanfic)

t w e n t y - e i g h t.

Recap:

"Thank you for being here..." He whispered so quietly I hardly heard it.

"You're welcome."

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(Talia's POV)

Niall and I stayed there for a while. It was really nice. After this I see him a lot differently. I'm not exactly sure how I see him now, but I know he doesn't feel the same to me anymore. and I don't know if that's good or bad. But I do know that I want to hangout with Niall much more...

Okay. I guess that is bad. I shouldn't be wanting to hangout with him. He's not my friend. He's my...bully. This moment Niall and I are sharing, caused me to forget all about him being my bully. The person who ruined my life. It hadn't even crossed my mind while Niall and I lied there. Everything was frozen still and peaceful.

Now that I've come back to reality, I realize who I'm with right now. I realized what I wanted to do it that moment earlier when Niall's face was inches away from mine. I wanted to kiss the person who ruined everything for me. That can't be right. I must have totally lost it. Niall and I? We could never...could we?

Before I could have another thought, Niall spoke.

"Talia?"

"Yeah?"

"How do you feel about wonderings?"

"What do you mean exactly?"

He sat up straight, "Wonderings, as in going on trips to odd-special places," he said as he created an invisible rainbow with his hands. I couldn't help but giggle.

"I mean sure, who doesn't love taking trips and seeing the world." Now I was sitting up. Niall turned his head and smiled at me.

"So do you want to take a trip with me?"

"When?"

Niall shifted his body so that he was fully facing me now. "Um, I'm not sure yet, but sometime soon. It'll kind of be random."

"That actually sounds cool." I shift around so I'm fully facing him too. "Sure, I'd love to." A huge grin spreads across Niall's face. He holds my hands.

"Really?"

"Yeah. It'd be fun." He leans in a kisses me. My stomach gets butterflies. I love this feeling that Niall is giving. But I also hate it at the same time. He's the guy who made my life a living hell, and here I am, kissing him. To make matters worse, I'm actually with another guy. I haven't been with someone in so long, and here I am cheating on him. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just be normal?

I pull my head away from Niall. He looks at me with worrying eyes. "I'm sorry...I just-" I can't even finish my sentence because there are tears running down my face.

"Talia..."

I try to wipe the tears away, but there's no use. They just keep coming and coming. "I'm sorry. I don't know what's gotten into me. I-" I pause to wipe the tears again. "I just feel really upset now. Ugh-" I continue to wipe my face. "I can't ducking stop crying!" I start to get frustrated and just drop my head into my hands, sobbing.

"Talia, it's okay." Niall pulls me close to his chest and runs his fingers through my hair.  I am so fucking bipolar. I was smiling one second, and the next I'm having a mental break down.

"Niall- I'm so sorry. I'm- I'm just so- sorry. I'm-" My words come out in short hiccups between sobs.

"Shh. It's alright, it's alright." Niall continues to run his fingers through me hair, cooing in my ear. "Just cry it out." So I do. We sit there for about another three minutes, until I start calming down.