Smile. ON HOLD(Punk Niall Horan Fanfic)

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Talia is played by Ariana Grande.

(Talia's POV)

BEEP BEEP BEEP! BEEP BEEP BEEP!

I slammed my hand down onto my clock turning it off. I groaned and sat up rubbing my eye. It was 5:57 and time for...school. I hate school so much. I thought to myself. School was a fucking hell hole! All thanks to the arse Niall. I don't get why he picked me to bully...I shook my head trying not to think about it. This was a new school year. The last school year until UNI. And the last year until I leave this shitty place. I jumped off of my bed and walked to the toilet turning on the light I started at my face.

Ugly.

Fat.

Slut.

Those words moved around in my head. Tears started forming in my now brownish grayish eyes so I took a deep breath and wiped my eyes. I've noticed that about myself. My eyes are naturally an ugly light brown but when I got upset or mad they would become a brownish grey.Or if I was shocked or something they would get dark brown. I pulled the hair-tie out of my long light brown hair and put it on the counter. I stripped out of my clothes throwing them into the hamper. I turned the water on making sure it was nice a warm. I stepped into the shower and let the water run over my body. I winced as the water ran over my arms. I looked down at my wrists and frowned. The cuts were still fresh from last night. A few tears fell from my eyes.

As soon as I was finished with my shower I grabbed my towel and brushed my teeth. I walked out of the toilet, still in my towel and walked to my closet. I opened the door and turned the light on for my walk in closet. I walked inside and closed the door behind me. I looked around for what to wear. I just grabbed a pink laced bra, with matching panties. I put those on and put my towel to the side. I looked around my closet and picked out a white tank top throwing a off the shoulder tan long sleeved shirt over it. I grabbed some white high waisted shorts, and a pair of blue TOMS putting them on. I eyed my self down in my body long mirror sighing.

Not good enough.

I looked at the clock inside the closet seeing that it was already 6:15. I didn't have time to change. I let a loud sigh out and walked out of my closet turning the light off and shutting the door. I walked back into the toilet opening the cabinet and grabbed my black mascara and the eyelash curler. I curled my eyelashes and then put on some mascara. When I was done with that I put them back into the cabinet closing it. I don't like putting on a lot of make-up. Because if you forget to put on make-up you look like a completely different person. So that's why I like to just put a tad on. I picked up my hair tie and tied my long brown hair up into a pony tail. I walked back out of my bathroom and went to my desk. I picked my backpack off of my desk and grabbed my phone. I swung my backpack over one shoulder and walked out of my room. As I walked downstairs I unlocked my phone seeing I had twitter and ask.fm notifications. My heart pounded. I knew exactly what they were.

Hate.

I knew I shouldn't check it...but I couldn't help it. I pressed on the notifications to twitter first. They said stuff like.

'Ew @Taliaa_ is soooo gross no wonder why no body likes her'

'@Taliaa_ should die all ready'

'@Taliaa_ still such a fucking slut!'

Tears started streaming down my face. Thanks god I put on water proof mascara.

'I wonder why @Taliaa_ still goes to school, no one wants to see her fugly face'

That's it. I can't do it anymore. I locked my phone and stuck it into my pocket. I quickly walked to the kitchen and opened the knife drawer taking out one of the knives. I pulled my sleeve up and sliced the blade across my skin. I winced for a second then smiled at the sight of blood. I heard footsteps so I quickly ran to the sink washing the blood off of the knife and cleaned it I put it back into the drawer. I grabbed a paper towel, putting it on my wrist and then wrapped one of my bracelets around it so the bleeding would stop. I rushed out the door and yelled bye to whoever was coming down. I sighed and started walking to school. I pulled my headphones out and connected them to my phone and hit play on my play list. 'Love Like War' By ATL started playing and I turned it up.

As I finally walked into school, everyone looked at me in disgust. They laughed at me then went back to their cliques. I looked down and kept walking. I pulled my sleeves down even more and rubbed my arm awkwardly. I stared straight for the school doors when I saw someone walking my way. I froze.....Niall. He got more tattoos over the summer I'm guess. Cause his arms we're covered more than last time. I saw that he even got blue highlights in his dark hair. I would be lying if I didn't find him attractive. But he hurt me. Ever since he got here. I don't understand why...

Just then his eyes met mine. My eyes went wide as he smirked.

Oh my god! Oh my god!

I quickly ran inside the school having some people staring at me but I didn't care right now. I headed straight to the toilet and I went into one of the cubicles and put the seat down sitting on it. I took a deep breath and sighed. I remember that I had the paper towel wrapped around my wrist so I pulled my sleeve back and took the paper out throwing it into the rubbish bin. I stared at my wrist. The cut was covered with dried blood.

"Better go wash this off." I said to myself. I picked my backpack up and walked out of the cubicles and went to the sink. I turned the sink on and pulled my sleeve up even higher. I put my wrist under the hot water and softly wiping it. You could see some of the previous cut and some cuts which have become scares. I couldn't help but cry again. God I'm so weak. I can't handle this. But yet I still do. By now I was bawling my eyes out. I turned the sink off and slid my back down the wall putting my face into my hands. I heard the door slowly opening so I quickly pulled my sleeve down and looked up.

"Niall?" I said shocked.

"Obviously." He said rolling his eyes.

"What do you want?" I snapped wiping the tears away.

"Woah!" he said putting his hand in the air. "Clam down. I wanted to know why you ran away from me. I don't like when girls run away." He said stepping closer to me.

I stood up picking my backpack up and looking to the floor. "I've gotta go." I said trying to pass him. But he moved causing me to bump into him.

"You're not going anywhere." He said. I could tell he was getting angry.

"Why can't you just leave me alone for one day Niall?!" I yelled looking into his eyes. They were so beautiful. They were such a light blue. Unlike mine which were an ugly boring brown. But his were so hypnotizing. No. Talia. Don't go there. I warned myself. Niall frowned then in one swift motion he grabbed both of my wrists and pinned me to the wall.

"Don't talk to me like that!" he growled, tightening his grip making me wince.

"Please...let go." I begged.

"Why should-"

"Please!" I yelled. He seemed a bit shocked then let go. I fell to the floor and held my wrist to my chest. I pulled down my sleeve only a little bit, making sure he couldn't see. It was bleeding again.

"Shit." I cursed.