Smile. ON HOLD(Punk Niall Horan Fanfic)

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(Taila's POV)

Luke and I were by the stairs when I finally heard Niall close the door. I quickly glanced over my shoulder and then walked down. I followed closely behind Luke, taking my bottom lip between my teeth. Once we finally got to Luke's car, he ran to me side and opened my door. I weakly smiled and thanked him.

"Mhmm." he replied. With that I went inside and he closed the door for me, then went to his side of the car. When he started the engine I looked up at Niall's flat.

I swear I saw him looking out. I shook my head and pulled my seat belt across my chest and clicked it in. Luke drove out of the complex and onto the rode.

There was a very long silence in the car for about 3 minutes. Until Luke spoke up, "So...what should we do once we get to your house?" he said tapping on the steering wheel. "Do you have any video games?" he laughed.

"Actually I do." I looked out the window and watched the trees pass by.

"Really?" he sat up straight, and even though I wasn't looking at him, I knew he was smiling.

"Mhmm."

"Sweet."

After a few minutes Luke realised that he didn't know where I lived, so I told him where. He started laughing because he apparently lives a few blocks from me. Weird huh?

Once we finally got to my house Luke parked in front.

"Are you sure it's okay if I stay over?" He turned to me and stared into my eyes.

I thought a moment. Would it be okay for him to stay over? Of course it would be okay. Since when did my parents ever care about me? And plus they aren't even my real parents, so if anything I can pull that card on them. Mean? Yeah I know. But this is the first time in a really long time I had someone to hang out with.

And to be honest...I feel safe with Luke. I feel like I've known him forever. It's nice having someone be nice to me. I really haven't been treated well in a while. Thanks to Niall.

Niall.

I clench my fist at the thought of his name. He ruined my life. Why? Why me? What did I do to him? Ah! I just don't understand!! What did I so to upset him all those years ago?!? He changed me. He made me so alone. Depressed. Suicidal. Niall made me build a thick brick wall that I won't let anyone enter. Even with Luke, I'm being careful. Sure him staying over is a very fast move and all..but just something about him. I don't know. I just know he won't do anything tonight to hurt me. But at Niall's flat...I tour my wall down.

Why? Cause some reason, I felt...okay there. I have no idea why, especially since I was with the person who ruined everything. I just, let my guard down. I don't know what's going on. I'm so confused with everything. I'm losing it. That's what I'm sure of. I'm losing it.

I'm at high point. I don't know if I can take all this stress anymore. I'm dying inside. And sooner or later...I will die. If everything keeps piling on me...I'm sure to collapse. My breathing will stop. And my heart. I just don't-

"Talia? Are you okay?" I blinked a few times and shook my head. I looked at Luke and saw that both of his hands were on my shoulders. "Are you okay? Why are you crying?"

Crying? I lifted my hand to my face. Instantly, I felt streams of wet dripping down my face. When did I start crying?

"Talia...please. Are you okay?" I looked up into Luke's eyes and nodded.

"Yeah. I'll be fine. I-I just started thinking of somethings. That's all." I said trying to breathe.

"Oh..okay." he took his hands away and put them into his lap.

"And oh yeah. To answer your question from before, it's definitely okay for you to stay over." I weakly smiled. Luke smiled widely, popping out his dimples. "Let's go in." I said taking off my seat belt.

He nodded and did the same. I opened the car door, grabbed my bag and got out. I walked to the front door and stopped to get out my keys. When I finally fished them out, Luke was by my side and I unlocked the door. I walked in with Luke behind me. He walked ahead of me a little, so I turned back and shut the door.

I quickly looked around to see if anyone was downstairs. No one. "I'll be right back." I told Luke, patting his shoulder and walked to the door that lead to garage. I opened the door and turned the light on. No cars. Figures. My "parents" aren't even home half of the time anyways. I rolled my eyes, turned the light off, and closed the door.

I walked back to Luke and saw him sitting on the steps of stairs. "Wanna head upstairs?" I asked. Kind of...sort of...blushing.

"Yeah, sure." Luke stood up and stepped aside for me to walk ahead of him. So I did. I walked up the stairs and up the other set of stairs. Since my room was on the third floor it was a bit of a walk. Once we were on the third floor I walked down the long hallway. There are two doors on this floor. One is my room and the other is the door that leads to the attic (Which is my art/music room). I twisted the knob for the door on the left and pushed the door open.

I stepped inside and walked to my bed. I dropped my bag into the floor. Luke slowly walked into my room, looking around a bit.

"Nice room." He said nodded in approval. I chuckled. He came over and sat next to me on the bed. Then just as I remembered I have broken glass, knives, and blades hidden in places.

Shit.

"Um Luke would you excuse me for a moment. I'm gonna put some stuff away." I stood up from the bed.

"Yeah, go ahead." he laid down on the bed with his hands behind is head.

Okay where first? I looked around the room.

Maybe I should head to the toilet. I walked over to the door and opened it. I stepped in the and took a quick look around. I spotted three blades on the counter and blood on them too. I grabbed took a roll of paper towels and wrapped the blades inside it.

Then I stuck the blades on top of the cabinet, and then moved my hair bush in front of it. I walked back out of the toilet and shut the door behind me. I hurried to my desk and looked around the desk. I spotted a blade lying on my textbook and the blade with covered in dried up blood. I took the blade into my hand, opened the textbook and set it inside. My eyes scanned the desk for more things. There was a piece broken glass. I put the glass in the book, sighing and I shut the book.

I thought a moment about where else there would be anything else.

Oh my god!

I turned around and stared at the bed. There's some under the pillow...I bit my lip hard. I ran my hand through my hair thinking on how to get them. Luke's laying on my bed. Wait! I got it!

I walked over to my bed and looked at Luke. His eyes were closed and he had headphones in his ears. I smiled down at him. His face was flawless. His eyelashes layed still on his face and his plumped pink lips parted a bit. And his chest raising up and down slowly. He looked so peaceful. I would hate to break his peacefulness, but I had too.

I lightly tapped Luke's shoulder and his eyes flung open. He looked up at me and smiled. Luke quickly sat up and pulled his headphones out of his ears. "Hey." He grinned.

"Hey." I grinned back. "Wanna go pick a movie to watch?" I asked tapping my fingers on my thigh.

"Oh yeah, sure." He swung his legs over the bed and stood up. He was much taller than me. Luke basically towered over me. "Where are the movies?" He said setting his phone onto the bed. I pointed towards my CD rack in corner by the balcony. Luke nodded and walked over it. Once he reached the rack I turned to my bed and lifted the pillow up.

There were five pieces of blood stained glass sprawled under the pillow. I grabbed them and threw them under the bed. I quickly remade the bed and sat down. I huffed out a breath of air and lied down.

That was a hassle. I should have thought this through better. Damn.

At least Luke didn't see any of them.

Yeah, thank god for that.