Smile. ON HOLD(Punk Niall Horan Fanfic)

t w e n t y - t h r e e.

Recap:

I was at lost for words. I didn't know what to say. What was I supposed to say? I didn't know how I felt about all of this. I was incredibly confused. Everything is spinning in my head. Pieces are trying to match together, while some pieces are still scrambling. My brain hurts. But so does my heart. Different feelings are being made towards Niall now. I just don't understand. My brain is telling me something, when my heart is saying the exact opposite. Well I guess my heart wins this conversation, 'cause the next thing that I found myself doing was reaching for Niall's hand and placing the other on the other side of his face. I turned his head toward me and I leaned in to kiss his lips.

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(Talia's POV)

The kiss seemed infinite. Like everything in the world was gone and it was just Niall, the wooden bench, the enormous tree, and me. Everything less was just blank. For once in a long time...something seemed right. But then that moment ended. I thought about Luke and what he would look like if he saw Niall and I kissing.

So I pulled back. Niall stared at me with shocked eyes and a twitching grin. I blinked a few times, then spoke, "I'm so sorry! I didn't mean it." I stood up and ran off.

I can't believe I just did that! I finally met the perfect guy and I betrayed him within seconds of the relationship. What am I going to do? But...that kiss...

"Talia! Wait!" Niall ran after me. I could hear his footsteps closing in on me. I felt a hand wrap around my wrist and jerk me back. "Talia, you can't just kiss me then run off!" I kept my mouth shut. "Talia..."

"Niall, can we just not do this. I really like Luke and I want to be with him. But I don't know what's going on between you and I. I'm having so many mixed feelings I can't keep up with myself." I turned around and took my arm out of his grip. I let my arms fall to my sides. "I-I want to have something with you Niall. I do. But I don't think I want something-I want us to be just friends. I want to start new with you Niall. I just don't want this-what happened a few seconds ago to happen again."

Niall let out a long sigh. "I'm just letting you know now Talia, I want you. But, if you want to be just friends. I'll be okay with that. I don't want to cause you pain anymore." Niall's hand grazed my cheek, and left a lingering touch. I smiled.

"Thank you Niall." He just nodded. We walked back to the school in silence. But it was nice. He grabbed the door and held it open for me.

"Oh and by the way, you're an amazing kisser Talia." he whispered. I gasped, he just laughed.

We walked back into the lunchroom and went to our tables as if nothing changed between us before we left. When Luke saw me coming he rose to his feet and hugged me.

"Are you okay? What happened? He didn't hurt you did he? I swear if that little fucker-"

"No." I chuckled. "He didn't do anything." But I did. "We're fine now. We kind of made a truce. We're going to try to be friends." I sat down and Luke did the same.

"Woah...really?" He grabbed his bag of chips and handed them to me.

"Thanks. And yeah, I know it's weird huh?"

"Very. I just don't understand what goes through his mind. I swear he's bipolar." I laughed. That basically sums Niall up pretty well. For the rest of lunch, Luke and I joked around and actually acted like a couple. We held hands, I put my head on his shoulder. He would peck my cheek every now and again. I've never been this at ease before in my life. Everything seemed okay. I felt like my worries were drifting away from me.