The sense i've been betrayed

Chapter Four. "Cashews"

Kurt

As Rachel and I walked into the bar, a familiar feeling washed over my body. A feeling of regret, of anxiety. I brought Blaine's engagement ring with me so I could give it back to him, and now I feel like I shouldn't have done it with Sebastian here. But it's now or never. Now or I never build up the strength to officially accept that it's over.

Rachel spotted the table at which my ex-fiancé sat and pulled me with her. Sebastian had an empty glass in front of him and was nursing a beer, while it appeared Blaine has done the polite thing and waited for us to get here. I pulled a smile onto my face as we walked across the room. "Hi Blaine! Sebastian. How are we?" I asked as I sat across the table from Blaine. He started to open his mouth but before he could get a word out, Sebastian spoke up.

"We're good. Especially since I knew you would be here this time, isn't that right Blaine?" As he said the last part, he turned his neck to face his head to the man sitting next to him, who tried to flash me an apologetic look before nodded in agreeance with his boyfriend. Their dynamic does not sit right with me. "Well, the first rounds on me. I take it you'll get a Shirley Temple since you're probably driving. What do you want, Rachel?" He isn't actually right about that. Tonight, I'm gonna be the one to drink and Rachel is driving us to her house afterwards.

"I'd actually just like a mock-mudslide and Kurt wants a margarita. You really shouldn't make assumptions about people." Rachel said, in response to the question she received. Sebastian walked away from the table with that little meerkat smirk on his face. While he's at the bar, I'm taking this opportunity to give the ring back.

"Uhm Blaine," I began, reaching into my pocket. "I wanted to give this back to you. We need to put the past behind us, and if the first step is talking to each other, then the second step is giving this back to you." I handed him the ring while he listened intently. A sort of upset smile draped across his face as he took the ring from me. "Maybe you can give it to Sebastian one day."

"Thank you, Kurt. I doubt it would fit Sebastian though, his hands are too big. Not in a mean way just- he wouldn't like it anyway, he would want a much fatter diamond." It made me smile to hear that Sebastian has fat fingers, but upset again that he would want Blaine to spend that much money on him. "I was so happy when you said yes, you know? I know I probably shouldn't be talking about this but I was so scared you would say no, and that the proposal was way too over the top and that you would hate me. I spent so long picking out the ring."

"I know." I assured, with a smile on my face. That proposal was something that nobody could ever top. Our eyes kept contact until we heard footsteps reaching the table, which caused Blaine to look down and quickly pocket the ring.

"Here we are, two beers, mudslide, margarita. I got us some bar snacks as well." Sebastian announced, setting the drinks down and taking a seat. I grabbed a handful of the trail mix and noticed it had cashews. Blaine reached to grab a few and I instinctively slapped his hand away.

"Cashews. Sebastian, Blaine's allergic to cashews. Why would you get these? We shouldn't have them at the table, he could make contact with them and his throat could swell up, he can break out in hives. Why would you get these? I'm sure you've been here a million times, you should know what's in the food." A burst out. Probably harsh, probably rude, but he should know. He could've killed him.

"God, calm down Lady. How was I supposed to know what he's allergic to?" He retorts. I grab the bowl and Rachel slides out so I can go get rid of these. As I walk away, I can still hear the conversation. "You never told me you were allergic to anything. Don't look so mad. Why would you reach for them?"

"I have told you, I'm sorry. I just assumed you wouldn't buy anything if you knew."

"Don't give me that shit, don't lie to me."

I sat back at the table and Rachel tried to break up the situation that was unfolding. "Uh- heres to a new season of our lives. For better or for worse." She raised her glass (even if she's only sometimes wrong in all the right ways) and we all clinked our drinks together. I started to take a sip but given how this night has unfolded, and the way Blaine is being treated, the entire thing ended up down the hatch after only a minute.

"God Hummel, slow down." I heard from across the table. I promptly ignored him and sat the glass back on its coaster. "You shouldn't drown your problems with alcohol, especially if you've got a history of illness in your family."

That was the last straw. This night was a fucking mistake and I'm such a fucking pathetic idiot for thinking this was at all a good idea. I climbed over Rachel and stormed out of the bar. Rachel has the keys so I just started walking. Who the fuck says something like that? My mom had cancer and died, and I've almost lost my father twice and now I have some fuckhead telling me that I'm gonna end up the same way cause I have a couple of drinks. Dad and Carole are a twenty minute walk from here, and I'm going. I don't care how cold it is. I hate him so much, what does Blaine see in him? Why does Blaine want to be with him? Why doesn't he know anything about Blaine? Why does he talk to him like that? I hate him. He's not nice to Blaine, and Blaine doesn't hurt people. Sebastian hurts people. I thought he was on the up and up after the whole thing with Karofskay but I guess not. He's being manipulative, I can tell. I hate this. I hate him.

I need to do something.