The sense i've been betrayed

Chapter Five. "Right?"

Blaine

"I'm sorry Rachel. I'll see you soon okay? Just make sure Kurt's safe for me." I tried to tell the girl getting into her car as I was getting dragged away. She nodded nervously and drove off in a seemingly random direction. "Let go of me."

"Get in the car. You need to be quiet and stop embarrassing me." I climbed into the passenger seat. "First of all, you need to stop worrying about Kurt. He's not your boyfriend, I am. Second off, you have never told me you were allergic to anything. I've seen you buy and eat nuts before. You're just lying to make Kurt look like the good guy. You have to stop living in this fantasy land. The two of you cannot be friends. I don't want you to talk to him." Maybe he's right. I thought I told him but maybe I didn't. But I can't just stop talking to Kurt. I like Kurt. He's my friend.

"I'm sorry. It won't happen again. I won't see Kurt, I won't embarrass you in public, and I'll stop lying. I promise." I'm lying through my teeth here but if I make him mad- well... I need to keep him happy. He finally turned on the car and started to drive in silence. We seemed to be going a lot faster than we should've been and I was right. We were doing 70 in a 60 zone. It was late, so there weren't any police in this area and there aren't any speed cameras around here, given that its a regional area but I'd still rather be following the law. "Seb, can you please slow down? Just a little bit in case you get caught speeding."

"What is with you lately? Fine." He brought it down to about 63, within a legal range. "I'm so sorry that I want to go home and have sex with my boyfriend. Stop being selfish." I don't want to tonight, but I owe him. "You know I don't like to talk and drive, it distracts me. Just sit there and shut up, please baby."

I sat and stared out the window. When Kurt and I drove around town, we listened to music and we sang together, or we talked about our days, or the soap operas he was watching. We loved driving at night, it made us feel close and safe, because there wasn't anyone else around. Whenever he spent the night at my house, we would wait until midnight and just drive around doing nothing. I can't help but think I made a mistake leaving him, but I didn't. I'm with Sebastian and I'm happy. Right?

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"God- fuck." Sebastian spits, rolling over. Both of us were breathing heavily, although for different reasons. Him, from satisfaction, me from a lack of breath. My body sort of hurts. Not sort of, it just hurts. I wish he were more gentle but at least he's happy. I think this is his way of venting his frustrations. Physically. Its better than him being violent. We all have rage, this is just one of his ways of dealing with it. "I'm heading to the shower, care to join me?" I nod, and stumble my way to the bathroom, not exactly being able to walk.

I step into the shower and let the cool water shower down on me. I installed a rain shower before Sebastian and I got together, and it feels quite nice, only problem is that it takes longer to warm up. Sebastian starts to sponge himself off and after a minute or two of me standing there, he steps out and goes back to our room. I close the shower door and let the now-warm water envelope me.

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Sebastian fell asleep but I can't fall asleep, I'm too worried...about Kurt. I know I shouldn't be, and usually I can just sleep all this off but not tonight. I don't know why tonight is any different but Sebastian is starting to scare me. He used to just yell but he's starting to change.

Bmmmmp bmmmmmp my phone started to ring. I picked it up and the caller id made me worry. It was Rachel and it was late. Too late for it to be anything good. I picked it up and brought the phone to my ear. "Rachel? What's wrong? Is everything okay? Is Kurt okay?"

"Yes, yes, stop worrying. Everything's alright, Kurt walked to his dads house. I was just calling to let you know, because you said to make sure he was all good."

"Oh, thank God. Thank you. I'm really sorry Sebastian said that. It was so out of line, even though I know he can be a bit snarky, that was just rude. He knows how much Kurt loved his mom and Finn, and he knows about everything with his dad, I think he was just really worked up. How are you? I know it probably felt really awkward to be there."

"No please, I was in glee club. I don't think can even be in an awkward situation anymore after all that in-fighting. But I'm good, everyone is coming back to Ohio in a few days to help us get new members and we have the homecoming which I hope I'll be seeing you at. Just stay away from Sue, she's been a little extra manic lately and she isn't exactly happy with what Kurt and I are doing at her beloved school."

"Gosh, well I promise we'll be there for it, I wouldn't miss it for the world. Tell me if you have any updates from Kurt, I don't think he really wants to talk to me because of Sebastian. I hope he gets over it though, because him and I still make a good duo, even if we aren't y'know together together."

"I'll be sure to call you if I hear from him but I should probably let you go, It's late and I'm sure you need all your energy for those Warblers. Good night."

"Nighty night Rachel."

And with that, she hung up. I put my phone on the dining table and headed to my- our bedroom.

I tried my best not to wake Sebastian.