The other girl's story

overthinking

We went on to rent a basement for a month. This should be enough. "We need seven people, including me. Lisa will be the person who will eventually free him. From his cell. We need another person who can hack into the security system and take care of the CVs for a certain amount of time. We will hire a professional hacker for that. There should be plenty of options on the dark net. If you can, make sure you have something to pressure them. We will need two people who distract the patrols with an incident or something alike. This is so that our backup person can sneak in. The last person is a driver who takes them away quickly. I'll supervise this and give orders if the plan changes. Any questions?" Tony and Gloria look at each other for a second and eventually shake their heads. "Very well... so the both of you should be the distractions. Use whatever you like. I would love to see the show. One of the people I have indebted in Leipzig will be the backup person. He will take Felix place for the time until they notice... the driver is another one of our members from Leipzig." Tony thinks for a second. "That will cost us some money, you know." I nod. I'm too proud to ask Elias after I told him to fuck off. "Let me pay for that. I'm not short on cash these days. I'd say my family is rather privileged." Gloria replies. Perfect. Problem solved. I go for a run in the woods that evening to clear my head. It feels like I've strangely adapted to this life. This role is so easy for me... perhaps because I like it. Perhaps because I like Rose. But now that I think of it. Why do I even care about fulfilling a wish I thought Rose had? I've gotten what I wanted. I could simply accept Elias's offer and live comfortably off of his money. It would not be a boring life. But maybe he would leave me... once he got bored of me. I don't trust him. He is a killer, a sadist, a rapist and a gambler. A walking red flag. If I depend on him, I will be chained. Not free. I'm beginning to think that this is not Rose's desire but my own. I couldn't achieve my goal in my past life. Until the end, I had nothing to call my own. Not even my existence. Was fate so generous to give me another chance? I go home and take a shower. Maybe this life I am living right now is not so bad. I wake up the next day to a call from Tia. "I signed my job offer today! And your sister treated me to some expensive food. I swear I could live every day like today. Forever." Silence. "Hello? Leader?" I clear my throat. "Does that mean you don't want to come back to Berlin?" Silence again. "What do you mean?" She asks eventually. "It is alright, Tia. If you want to live a comfortable life in Dubai, with money and the career of your dreams. Away from drama and all the other stressful things in Berlin. I understand. It doesn't matter who you were in your past life. If you live this life without regrets." She sighs. "Well. Unfortunately, there is one thing I would regret if I lived like this." What is it? I ask the question out loud. "I wouldn't be part of your journey. I wouldn't see how you achieved your goal. Roxanne... Correct me if I'm wrong, but you started doubting if the whole world is really what you want, right? You started doubting your own decisions and desires. You're confused, and you don't know who you truly are. You are suffering." Wow. "I think you just put in words what has been killing my mind lately." She laughs shortly. "I know you too well." I smile. "So what should I do? I'm not asking as a leader but as your friend... do you have some advice for me?" I know I sound pretty desperate right now. "Roxanne. I have a suggestion for you. If you are willing to listen." I listen to what she has to say. My eyes widen the more she talks. And suddenly, I feel a warm tear running down my face. "... And this will be until the end. And further." She ends her monolog. "Tia, I-" She interrupts me: "Shsh. You don't need to answer or set it into stone yet. Don't pressure yourself. And once you are sure, feel free to call me for further help any time." I breathe out. "Yes. Thank you, Miya." Alright enough thinking... it is time to act. Even though I'm more confused now than ever. It's okay. As long as I do something. Doesn't matter, what. I take my journal and write down my detailed plan of Felix's escape. Plan A, B, and C. After that, I write down a plan of my necessary routines and habits in order to strengthen myself for the big fight against Black Royal. I execute it right away: I wake up in the whee hours to go for a run. I have an mma session in the afternoon. And I have to watch my diet. In order to have a maxed out performance. I wonder how Elias spends his days. Maybe he underestimates us and doesn't even bother training. But I hardly doubt he would be able to maintain his insane strength if he didn't train regularly. I push myself harder with every day and train more intensely every day, and yet... whenever I think about our past interactions, I feel how he overpowers me even like this. It's no use. I hate to admit it, but the only one who stands a chance against the snake is Felix. We need to free him as soon as possible. Soon, one month finally passed. Hell's Blossom was ready to go to Italy and retrieve their vice leader.