Hate me

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"yes, you're the problem, you're annoying me, you've been following me around like a dog, don't you have your own life besides following me?" I texted him. A sense of regret filling me up the moment the text was sent

Adam: Want to tell me what is going on perhaps?
Adam:  I mean I'm free y'know
Adam: I'm always here, as your best friend
Adam: I don't want to force you or anything
Adam: I can wait for as long as you need
Adam: If you're ready to tell me anything
Adam: I'm always here, remember that
Val: You're annoying
Val: That's what it is
Val: I've been finding you more and more annoying lately
Adam: Ahh i see, well then I'm very sorry
Adam: It must be because I'm too clingy or attached

The words he said struck something in me, I wanna take back my words, but I am mean, I am the red flag, he deserves better, I start every fight and he apologized for it. I hate him without a reason. He'll say he's used to it, but I don't want him to get used to it. I want to be the best person he'll ever befriend, but the more I befriend him, the worse I get. My true colours shows up and then I'll start pushing him away and hating him. And he'll forgive me anyway. Why? Why?! Why?!?

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