And then you say
I want you for worse or for better
I would wait for ever and ever
In which a redheaded firefighter struggles to cope with loosing her best friend and takes the jump to move to Seattle once again.
Or
In which Jennifer Halstead leav...
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Jennifer woke up extra early the morning of Wednesday. Today was the day she spent it with her nieces and nephew, well they were not technically her nieces and nephew but they were as good as. She had packed the necklace for Zola, Bailey and Ellis and the stuffed animals onto her bag and planned the day out. She was taking them to Alki beach, the one place Abby loved more than anything so that's why Jennifer had chose the beach to take the three kids, somewhere which she knew Abby would approve off.
"Your up early" Amelia spoke which made Jennifer practically jump out of her skin as she didn't expect the neurosurgeon to be awake just yet.
"You scared me" Jennifer said taking a deep breath as she turned around.
"Sorry" Amelia apologised
"It's fine, I wasn't expecting anyone else to be awake just yet. I thought I might get started making a picnic for the kids, I'm taking them to Alki Beach. Abby loved it their" Jennifer smiled leaning back against the counter.
"You haven't stopped since you got here. Wasn't that the whole point of you coming out to Seattle?" Amelia asked making herself a coffee, Jennifer knew she was right but at least if she busy she doesn't have time to think bad thoughts.
"I wasn't technically meant to keep busy. I'm meant to reset myself, but I've got a lot to think about and honestly I don't know if I can think it" Jennifer admitted running a hand through her hair. Jennifer had a lot on her mind right now. She just couldn't shut her mind off and had no idea how to make herself feel better, she'd been tempted to drink herself silly, she knew she was capable of drinking herself half to death, it had happened before, she had to have her stomach pumped before. She was a teen at the time.
"If you want to talk it through with someone I've got time" Amelia said
"I wouldn't know where to start" Jennifer admitted.
"What's on your mind?" Amelia asked
"Everything. If I told you something. Could you keep it between us?" Jennifer asked debating if she could talk about how badly she wanted to drink and drink until she could just pass out,.
"You know it would have to depend on how serious it is." Amelia reminded the redhead who nodded, she knew that.
"I need a drink, it's stupid but when I was a teen I drunk so much, I was in deaths door and had to have my stomach pumped. I thought maybe I could end all this, I could see my mom again, my dad. I could see Abby again and all the friends I've lost. I could easily drink myself to death and I wouldn't be in this much pain any more. I don't want to think, I don't want to feel. And I know you're thinking I'm an alcoholic but I'm not, or I don't think I am. Actually I've never thought about it before but I can't do anything but think about drinking right now, since Abby." Jennifer rambled everything she was mainly thinking about.
"Has anyone ever told you that they think you might have a drinking problem?" Amelia asked curiously. Jennnifer thought for a moment. Now she thought of it her older brother Will had mentioned it a few times.
