Her Savior

☆Chapter 16☆

After I talked with Matteo, I fell asleep from the pain medication I got for my abdomen.

When I woke up, everyone was in my room. Matteo's friends and sister and Anaya.

"Hey Aaliyah," They all said one after the other.
"Hi," I replied.

I wonder if there are still bruises on my face.

Gosh, I wish I had my masks right now.

"Are you okay?" Lorenzo asked.
"I'm good. You guys don't have to come here every day, I'm ok."

"If you were okay, you wouldn't be in the hospital right now," Anaya said and walked out of the room.

I felt an instant tear drop out of my eye because I hurt the one person who genuinely loved and cared for me.

Angelo walked out of the room and went after Anaya.

"If you guys don't mind, I wanna take a nap, I'm sorry. You know what it's ok, you can stay I'm not tired anymore" I told them hoping they didn't see the tear since they were looking at Anaya leaving but then instantly regretted it because I was scared they were going to shout at me for being inconsiderate of their time.

"No, no it's ok. We'll leave,"

Isabella and Lorenzo walked out and Matteo walked towards me.
I slowly backed away not knowing what he wanted. Maybe he was gonna hit me for being rude to everyone. I mean they did come to see me.

I started breathing heavily not knowing what was going to happen.
"Hey hey, it's ok. I promise I'm never gonna hurt you. I just wanted to hug you," He tells me.

I'm so dramatic.

"It's OK if you're uncomfortable, I'll leave," he said and he walked out.
I feel so bad, gosh I always mess everything up.

I started breathing heavily and it wasn't stopping.

I need my blade.

I felt around in my pockets and I felt something.

My blade.

I pulled up my sleeve and one slit turned into multiple and tears were running down my face.

I wish these pills worked I thought while I cried.

After a few minutes, my breathing was back to normal and I stopped cutting myself.

I put the blade in my pocket and I got under the hospital blanket and fell asleep after a while.

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Even though this wasn't the most comfortable sleep I've ever had, it was probably the best because I wasn't scared my dad was gonna come in and hit me and I think the pain relief medication I took is still making me tired so I don't even wake up in between even if it's like a 2-hour nap.

I need to go to the bathroom now but I can still feel terrible pain in my abdomen. I need to go badly so I'm just gonna push through.

I took the blanket off and I tried to get off the bed. I put my feet on the floor and I managed to get to the bathroom but it was so painful.

Once I was done I headed back to my room and I got under the blankets.

Since I had nothing to do, I started thinking about anything and everything and that was a big mistake.

People would be so much happier if I wasn't alive.

Anaya wouldn't have such a burden as a friend.

Jason would have definitely been happier.

And now I'm a burden on someone I don't even know and his friends and sister.

They've done so much for me that I don't deserve at all.

Matteo's brought me to the hospital twice now and just one hospital visit is expensive and he's brought me here twice.

He's probably spent so much money and I don't know how I'm going to repay him.

I can't let him take me to Italy. He's already done so much for me. I can't go.

I can't
I can't
I can't

I'm such a burden on everyone.

I wish those pills worked.

Maybe if I do it again, they'll work this time.

I looked at the table next to me and I saw a bunch of pills.

I don't even know what they do.

I got myself off the bed and I managed to reach the table.

I don't know the rest but I do see more pain relief tablets.

I went back to my bed and I realized I didn't have water near me so I pressed the button to alert the nurses that u needed something and when she came in I asked her if she could get me water.

When she brought me water, I thanked her and she left.

I put an amount of pills in my hand, I don't even know how many and I was about to take them when I heard the door open.

It was Matteo.

I quickly dropped the pills and started drinking the water.

"Hey," he said.
"Hi," I answered.
"Are you feeling okay?" He asked.
"Yes, yes I'm okay," I told him

"Listen, I don't think I'm gonna go to Italy with you, I can't,"
"Why...can't you come to Italy with me?" He asked with a disappointed look on his face.

"I just can't, you've already done so much for me and you can't do this as well and if I were to even go to Italy, I wouldn't have a place to stay, a job. I just can't, I'm sorry," I explained to him.

"Come on, Aaliyah, I'll take care of you. I already thought about all of that. And Anaya said she was going because she didn't want you to go back there and she knows you won't go without her." He says.

"Exactly. That's my point. You don't know me and you've done so much for me. And Aaliyah's mad at me. You guys go, don't worry about me, I'm gonna be fine." I reason with him.

"No, you're going to Italy Aaliyah," Anaya says.

"What?..." I ask confused.
"You're going to Italy, no buts, ifs or ands.
We're gonna go and we're gonna get through everything from here on together. Okay?" She asks as she hugs me.

"Okay," I say hugging her back.
" I love you, Aaliyah, okay? And I'll always be there for you even if you're not ready to talk." She assures me.

"I love you too and I'm sorry," I tell her with tears in my eyes.
"Don't be sorry, it's okay" she tells me.

I love my best friend.