Just as good as it comes, bad it goes. What's going on with me? What's wrong with me? Why can't I just be fine?
Guess that's my superpower, fuck everything up. I have what I want, what I need, then why am I feeling like this? Why do I have these thoughts?
I don't understand and I'm sorry. I know my words are worthless, I know I say this too many times, but what am I supposed to do?
I can't control it, I don't have the strength to change it. Do I really want to end it all? Am I back to that stage? Haven't I learned anything from my past?
Sometimes I catch myself looking at the sky, hoping to receive some answers, or to be taken there. But honestly, who am I kidding?
I'm the only one that can fix myself, nobody ever healed me. At least not in the way I needed to so. But was it because of them or me? Can I ask anyone to do my job? Is it even fair?
Things will get better, I'll feel better. It's just these moments, alone with me. Then, am I the problem?
Will I be your problem too?
Am I that fucked up?
Who am I sorry to? You, me, everyone, anyone?
