Shoot Me. Kill Me. Lie to Me. [KimChay AU]

Chapter 1

"This is for Porchay..."

He's watching that video again. He's listening to his voice singing with desperation again. He's staring at his face again, looking like he regretted everything he did. He's again seeing how his eyes are begging for him to stay.

Porchay is once again seated on the floor at the corner of his room, hugging his knees and crying over the man who broke him in pieces

Fucking liar! His words are all lies. His actions are all lies. Everything he did is all lies!

How dare him! How dare he make Porchay question his worth? Was he not likeable? Desirable? Do Porchay not deserve to experience back the affection he's openly and freely giving to him?

Why does he have to be all good and kind to him, smile affectionately at him, and touch him softly like he mean it- like he felt the same fucking way as Chay does?

And it's been what? 3 months since Porchay last saw him; since he left Chay outside his condo- smashing his heart like it's the most fragile glass that existed.

But Porchay isn't crying now because of the pain and betrayal he experienced. All these tears that he's shedding are from pure anger, to himself for falling into Kimhan's games, and to Kim himself for taking Chay's heart and soul in his hand stabbing and wounding them one after another.

He was gripping his phone hard enough to bend it while staring on the floor with his tears running down his face.

He's pulled out of his emotional turmoil when he hears murmurs from the bodyguards stationed outside his quarters.

And the moment he heard Kim's name, he hurriedly got on his feet- walking towards the door.

Porchay leans closer, until his head lay flat on the Mahogany wood door.

"Do you know that Khun Kim just arrived?"

"He's here? The last time he went here was when Khun Korn faked his death."

"Yea, he's not even here when the Minor family attacked us."

Kim is in the mansion. The great Kimhan Theerapanyakul is back in the mansion.

The thought of seeing Kim again after months causes him to seethe in anger.

His mind went blank and is getting clouded with overwhelming rage. For the first time since joining the so called mafia family, Chay is craving to see red... blood.

Porchay didn't know when he started walking towards the cabinet where he kept the gun that Kinn and Porsche gave him after the attack; supposedly for his "protection".

The gun is there; staring at him, urging him to hold it, making him thirsty on pulling the trigger though he hasn't tried it yet.

And with pure anger mixed with his deep desire to get even to Kimhan; he grabs the gun and runs his thumb on its body, letting his finger feel the trigger as it is already making him taste the satisfaction of aiming it straight to Kim.

He put one single bullet inside and hid the gun on his pants' waistband before storming out of his room. His guards were surprised with the sudden force causing the door to blast open.