Ashtray -Angel Dust Angst

Chapter 18

Angels Pov:

I backed away from him slowly. I don't even know what I did wrong. Why did he yell at me? I always fuck up good things. I must've pissed him off somehow. He looked more mad than I had ever seen him and I was worried he would hit me. I've never been afraid of him until now. So I ran back into the hotel.

I ran to my room and locked the door. I slid up against it trying not to burst into tears. Maybe he'll come back. But do I even want him to? What if he hurts me. I can't go through that again. I fucking can't.

By now I was fully sobbing. Nuggets scampered over to me and put his head in my lap. I held him crying my heart out. I felt like I was back to square one.

Well fuck it. If I'm back to square one, I'm gonna be back to square one. I collected myself as best as I could and called Cherri.

Angel: Hey Cher what's up?

Cherri: the sky, but nothing else. What's up with you

Angel: wanna go party?

Cherri: hell yeah!! But aren't you supposed to be getting clean?

Angel: fuck that for tonight. I need something right now

Cherri: Are you sure? Like positive?

Angel: Yeah, positive

Cherri: okay then, I'll meet you at that club we used to go to.

I felt a twinge of regret. Only for a second, because then I was more excited than I had been in months. I couldn't wait to feel joy again. I missed it so much.

I did my makeup all pretty like I used to. I felt the old parts of me returning. I felt whole again. Before I went downstairs I checked my phone to see if he texted. But no, of course he didn't. I blocked him and took a deep breath before continuing.

I crept downstairs careful not to alert anyone that I was leaving. The last thing I need is Charlie pestering me for half an hour. I felt like I was being watched. I could hear weird noises behind me. Then, out of fucking nowhere, Alastor appeared in front of me.

"FUCK AL you're gonna give someone a heart attack some day!" I grumbled. He grinned at me. "Yes my dear I'm counting on it. Where do you think you are you going?"

I did a sidestep move I had learned to avoid dealing with my dad and got behind him. I just wanted to leave. Today is just not the day to deal with that asshole.

He teleported in front of me again. "Just leave me alone. I'm not in the mood." "I'll leave you alone when you tell me where you're headed," he replied with a shit eating grin. I knew there was no use lying to a guy like him, I just hoped he would let me go. "To a club?" I answered. He grinned wider than I thought was possible. "A club with alcoholic beverages? How laughable" he grinned clutching his staff.

"I'm serious, let me go." I said slightly raising my voice at him. The corners of his mouth tilted upwards. "Why would you want to do that? Aren't you working towards rehabilitation?" I scowled. "Not today. Can I please just leave? I don't want to deal with this right now. We can have this conversation when I come back." I try not to get too angry at alastor. He has done me a lot of favors over the years, and I try to stay on his good side so he doesn't obliterate me.

I tried walking away but he had one of his shadows stop me. "Why? What happened?" He asked. I really didn't feel like spilling my guts at the moment. Especially not to him. "Is it about Husker? Why did he run out of the hotel?" Fuck alastor. The last thing I want to think about right now is him. "Well do you know when he plans on returning?"

The past events weighed on me. I was so frustrated, overwhelmed, and upset that I just lost it. "I DON'T KNOW. HE'S GONE, AND ITS MY FAULT SO I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE IF HE'S EVER EVEN COMING BACK!" He didn't obliterate me immediately for yelling at him, which is odd. He just looked at me weirdly. "Are you...crying?" He asked taking a step back.