FELICITY

XII

  Song – Andrew Belle- In my Veins.

TIMOTHY

I lay on my bed pondering about what just happened, I cannot think of any reason for Felicity to have gone off on me the way she did. She passed a knife through my heart the second she told me to leave. I have passed through a lot of pain in my life, I have had my heart broken many times, bloody hell, I have even had some bones broken. None of those can compare to the pain Felicity just put me through with her sharp words and matching stare. Her harsh words still ring in my ears and I cannot get the incessant reminder to stop. Was I being too forward with her? She asked me not to call her Cinderella. She's never said it, but I know that she loves that name and anytime I call her love, her cheeks come alive.

I don't care what she told me, I can't just let the love I have for her die without a fight. It might seem crazy how easily I fell in love with her, love at first sight perhaps. I remember the first time I saw her, almost a month now. When I saw her, I saw someone who looked to me like perfection, despite her physical imperfections. I cannot truly explain why I was so drawn to her, the moment our eyes met I knew she was special. Those eyes. The worst part about her telling me to leave was the way she pierced her beautiful blue eyes into mine. That shred me to pieces. Those eyes that I love so much; those eyes that once held so much love for me.

I wish she would open up to me, I wish she would trust me, I wish she would make me understand her. I know she's holding back a lot of things from me, I've tried not to push her to tell me. The way she acted yesterday, that's not my Felicity, that's the dark side of her she won't let me see. I need to find out the demons that haunt her, I need to set her free; to make her happy. I meant it when I said I'd kill for her, I'll do anything for her. I feel like it's my duty to make her happy, to make her smile. Oh that smile of hers, it drives me insane. I'll fight for her, I'll make her open up to me, she could chase me away a thousand times, break my heart till I have none, but I'll still fight for her. I feel like my life is not worth living without her, without her I'm an incomplete puzzle. A lackadaisical fool. I sound like a mad man, I most certainly do.

I'll give her today. Tomorrow, I'm not taking no for an answer, I'm not leaving without a proper explanation.