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7

Play the song: bored by Billie eilish while reading this one :(

Later that day I decided to deep clean my room when I saw an old shoe box that was under my bed, I don't remember putting that there.

I pulled it out and opened it up. There was a bunch of old pictures of my dad and mom on there honey moon. They looked so happy, I kept looking through them when I came across one with my dad in the hospital from 3 years ago.

There I was sitting next to him on the bed as he read me a book. I couldn't hold it in anymore and all my tears came pouring out as memories came flooding back in of that night he passed away. I sat there holding his hand as my mom tried pulling me away telling me he was gone. I heard my phone start ringing so I wiped my tears answering.

"Hello?" I said
" hey sorry, it's walker I left my sweatshirt there and I was wondering if I could come get it?" He asked me
" oh yeah when do you want to come get it?" I asked
" I'll be there in like 10 minutes if that's ok?" He asked
" yeah just come to my room, I'll leave the door unlocked." I said as we hung up

I grabbed those pictures and some tape and put my air pods in hanging them up on my wall. I looked at the pictures of me as a baby and the ones of dad. I cried but let it happen. I let everything out. I turned around to pick up another picture when I saw walker standing in the door way.

I wiped my tears as I saw walker open his arms wide. I ran into his arms as he hugged me tight.
" what's wrong Palmer?" He asked me taking my AirPods out
" let's go up on the roof." I said as we went up on the roof watching the sun slowly going down
" tell me everything." He said
" my dad died from lung cancer a week after you left." I said holding in tears
" why didn't you call me, I would have listened." He said

" no that's the thing, you just left me all alone, you where the one person that made me so happy and with my dad in the hospital I could go to you and you would detract me. But you didn't even tell me you were leaving you just did. And all for a stupid movie. I tried to be happy for you but you threw out Friendship away for fame, now your back but only for a short time, just for this other stupid show your in, and I lost you once and I'm scared I'll lose you again." I said braking out in tears

" Palmer I'm so sorry that I did this to you, listen I did miss you l, I missed you so much i needed you when I moved I was scared I was helpless. I didn't know what to do, i need you like I need air and I'm so sorry I left you." He said
I didn't say anything but hugged him. That's all I needed at that moment was a walker hug.

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I'm so sorry everyone. I actually cried while I wrote this chapter something with my family issues just really hit hard in this chapter. I really hope you guys feel the emotions in this one :( love you guys