Against the Odds

she lives

I can hear Pansy and my other roommates getting ready but I don't move. It's now Friday, marking a whole week since it all went down. A week since the people who I considered my best friends decided to ruin my life. I've barely left my room and talked to anyone at that.

"Clara, you really need to go eat," Pansy says at the door. I say nothing and continue to stare at the wall. "Clara," she repeats, "C'mon you can't miss anymore classes," she says leaning against the door. I massage the bridge of my nose, still ignoring her.

"Any luck?" I hear a masculine voice say, I assume Theo. "No, she still hasn't talked to me all week and the last time I saw her eat was Tuesday," she says. I can basically hear the eye roll. "She's gonna fail her classes if she doesn't go to class," Theo adds. I groan, causing them to end their conversation.

"If you're gonna talk about me could you please do it where I can't see or hear you," I say, rubbing my eyes. They aren't entirely wrong. If I continue to miss classes then I'll have to speak with the headmaster and possibly get sent home. No doubt the Malfoys have heard of me missing class. I'm surprised I haven't received an angry howler.

I slowly swing my legs over the edge of the bed and sit up straight. I rub my eyes and stare at the room. I get up and walk over to the mirror, I examine my face and look at my puffy eyes. I've been crying off and on all week. I let out a deep shaky breath and picked up my green striped Slytherin sweater off the floor.

I pull on my skirt from the floor and finish getting ready by brushing out my hair, not bothering to style it in any way. I slowly walk down the stairs and everyone immediately turns their heads towards me.

"She lives!" Enzo shouts, he jumps off the couch and runs over to me. He wraps his arms around my neck and pulls me closer to him. He holds me for so long that I'm forced to hug him back. "Girl you look like you've been crying for days," he says, breaking the hug. I say nothing but glare and he awkwardly laughs.

"I'm going to breakfast," I say walking away. He waves goodbye and returns to the rest of the boys. They all watch me watch out without saying a word.

I weave through people in the halls, each person turning towards me as I pass. I guess news does get around. I look down at the ground doing my best to ignore everyone but it all goes to shit when the first thing I see in the Great Hall is Fred and Hermione all smiley together.

I quickly walk down to the end of the Slytherin table, grab a blueberry muffin and a pear, turn around and get out of that room as fast as I can. I can feel tears begin to fill my eyes but I blink them away.

I quickly make my way down the stairs to Professors Snape's room. I quickly look over at him and he looks shocked to see me. I take what used to be my seat in the second row as Snape slowly makes his way towards me.

"Miss Lestrange, happy to see you back," he says, placing his hands on the table. "I just thought if I wanted to pass I'd show up" I say slowly peeling the wrapper off the muffin. "Mmm I see," he says, "Well your seat has been moved, you are now in the back left corner right next to the wall," I stand up and begin walking when he adds, "I've made Mattheo your desk partner." I stop and turn around, "Hm?" I ask. I can feel my heart begin to beat faster as he repeats what he said. "Mattheo will be your desk partner till after we get back from Christmas break."

I turn back around and walk to my seat. I sit down and place the muffin and pear on the desk. I lay my head in my folded arms as I wait for the bell to ring. I came to class early so it was about a 20 minute wait.

As the hour mark gets closer people begin to file into class. Who used to be my friends I know won't be here for a while because they were never ever on time to class. As people walk in I can hear them muttering things to each other. About me or not I don't care. After how awful this last week has been I don't think it can get any worse.