𝑴𝒚 𝑩𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅'𝒔 𝑫𝒂𝒅

10

We almost got caught. To be honest that was fucking terrifying, but oddly enticing. I never thought about the consequences of sleeping with my best friend's dad until last night. I know we have to keep this a secret due to me being old enough to be another daughter to him.

Doesn't matter, he's not a bad person. And I don't know jack shit about him. Maybe it would have been weird if I had actually known the guy growing up or some shit. Then sure, but all of this just happened.

As for getting caught...I could play around.

I closed the fridge door and went to the dining table. I took a seat across from Sebastian and pulled my chair in. He's eating oatmeal with cut apples. If there is one thing I caught on to it's that he doesn't make breakfast for everyone, just himself.

"Where's mine?" I ask, motioning towards his bowl. He looked down, setting the spoon down.

"I didn't know you would want any."

I took a bite of my apple and reached over. I took his bowl and set my apple down in front of him. Sebastian exhaled and I finished his breakfast for him. I'm hungry too.

"Are we going to talk about last night?"

"You always want to talk about something." I complain lowly. He's an amazing cook. I never got food like this at home. It's always the same bland servings. I was grateful enough to have food though. I can't find a job for shit somehow.

"We almost got caught, Beck."

"And?" I smirked and looked at him. "We're you scared?"

I saw his jaw clench. "I don't want my daughter finding out about us."

"Why not?"

"Because you're her friend."

I hummed. "She doesn't mind lying to you most of the time, so I guess this could be our little secret. Not that I care."

He didn't seem to like my response. "I'm being serious, Beck. I don't want her to know. I'm fifty-one," holy shit that really is old. If I'm being honest I would've thought no older than forty-five, "and you're twenty-three. It doesn't sound right to the ears." He explains.

"Feels perfectly fine though."

Silence. I was avoiding him as much as I could, but when he kissed me I didn't want it to end. I told myself, maybe I don't like girls. I surely didn't feel anything when I saw Neah again. I've been ignoring her too. After the park I couldn't bare the sight of her. Maybe I'm still angry.

"That's why it's dangerous." That made me look at him. "I like you, Beck. And that's what's scaring me."

Like me? I leaned back in chair and spread. "Like me? You barely know me, same goes for me to you."

"I don't know you personally, I know, but the fact that looking at you excites me says a lot."

I snort. "You're old, you haven't gotten action in a while probably. That's just lust."

"I'm being serious. It's not just lust."

"So you like me. Cool." I don't even know what to say to that. I wasn't expecting that statement at all. I've never heard anyone ever say that before either. Like. I like you.

"Maybe I shouldn't have said anything."

He shouldn't have. I feel conflicted even more now. Sebastian got out of his seat and I watched him. He walked around me and I grabbed his wrist. He just had to make me feel hurt.

"Listen, old man, I'm still figuring myself out. Sure I melt into your touch like cotton candy does on tongue but at the back of my mind I still think about all the things I ever did. I liked both."

Sebastian's hand cupped under my chin and forced my head back gently. "Maybe you were lying to yourself." 

The front door open and closed and he quickly pulled away, as did I. I leaned forward, eating another spoonful of oats. Sebastian just disappeared upstairs. Giggling filled the room and I exhaled a heavy sigh.

"Thank you so much."

Neah's footsteps got closer and she stopped. She had classes for seven. It's currently around eleven or something, I don't know. I'm never up early. I could feel her standing right behind me. Suddenly her arms wrapped around my neck, hugging me.

"Im sorry, please don't be mad at me forever." She whispers. "Please Beck, I didn't mean it." Sighing, I set the spoon down and gazed up at her. Neah smiled faintly and let me go.

"I miss hanging out with you and getting high. We could get high tonight at the beach and I promise you there won't be any Nick. I promise. Just us like old times. Please?"

I studied her for a while and finally agreed. "Fine. Just like old times." But only because I want to get high.

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Neah passed me the blunt and I took it. She blew smoke and I pressed the narcotic between my lips. There's no Nick this time. Thank heavens. We just sat in silence and drank beer as we stared at the water.

"Sorry about Nick, Beck, really."

She's just like Sebastian, always mentioning this and mentioning that. Always mentioning things that's in the past.

"It's fine."

"No, it's not. I left you on the park without thinking about your safety for a second. Anything could have happened."

I blew the smoke from my nose and just listened. "Not only that, I miss hanging out with my best friend. I've known you longer than I did Nick. Nothing can tear us apart."

I looked at her and she smiled. "Right?"

"Yeah...right."

Neah cupped my face and brought her lips to mine. This again. Get high, get drunk and then kiss. It's always been this way. Even after Nick got added into the picture. We would just play it off as us being too high.

But why do I feel like she's using me in some way? Why does she always want to kiss me if she's so straight? Neah got onto my lap, kissing me deeper. Her fingers went to my hair and I held her waist. As always, this feels wrong.

She's still with Nick. As much as I don't like him it's not right for her to do this whilst she's in a relationship. I shouldn't indulge.

But I'm high. And I'm horny. This is reminding me of when her dad touched me. Thinking about it made my clit throb. Being fucked like that in that ran down red truck of his was absolutely amazing. I came twice.

I want that feeling again, the feeling of him inside of me, grunting and breathing in my ear. I never thought I would be saying something like that, but I am. And I meant every word. Now I want to know, if girls like Neah, who's got boyfriends, are stupid.

Sex with men is amazing.

I want Sebastian. Neah can't do anything for me right now. I pulled my lips away and I coughed. I need Sebastian. Neah kissed my neck and tugged at my hand.

"Beck please finger me. I want to know what it feels like. Touch me." She placed my hand inside of her pants and shuddered. I slipped my fingers inside of her, gazing at the water. Maybe if I just give her what she wants the quicker we'll be out of here.

"Fuck. My goodness your fingers are...so long."

I closed my eyes, resting my head onto her chest as I continued. What time is it? Fuck I need to hurry.

"Beck, s-slow down. I...wait."

"I can't."

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