Dear Wish (exo)

Chapter 4: Getting Seperated

Dear Diary,

Today can be the best or worst day, but I can't explain, I'm confuse....

Riyeon keeps asking me questions about Baekhyun. She won't stop. I'm still not answering her question, she's going to ask me another one. "Riyeon CALM DOWN!!!! We just talk, nothing happen, we're best friend." I shouted. "What best friend?!? I saw your diary and I read it and I saw Baekhyun ask you before if you meet again you'll be more than just fri..." She said so fast and she close her mouth with her both hands. I was so shock "YOU READ MY DIARY?!?!?!?" I shouted at her. Why the heck she reads my diary. Diary are for personal people! I don't like people reading my diary. It hurts me, they will knew about my life, my life is such a mess and crazy stuff happen. "Riyeon, why did you read my diary?!?" I said it with anger at her. "Sorry eonnie..." She immediately apologize. "I just wanted to know why do you keep asking about them, and about the long lasting friend, and I just realize it was you, I'm just happy for you..." She said while looking down and the floor so sadly. "Go home... Your parents must be waiting for you." I said it and walked away. She tried to catch me and she said "but eonnie, you said I'm here for 5 days and my parents agreed too, it's still 3 days." "Just go home, Listen to me..." I just answered her. "But eonnie..." She is forcing me that I let her stay here, she still not finish saying her sentence I just yelled "GO HOME LISTEN TO WHAT I SAY!" I was not in the mood but I just feel guilty, hurt and confused.

I was at home... I was trying to forget about the scene happening few minutes ago. I felt so lost, it's like I'm in the jungle, looking for someone to help me get out in this dark jungle, but no one is showing up. I just watch, do some baking and forgetting everything. I know Riyeon is a very good girl, even though I'm mad at her she still goes to me and she apologizes the thing she done, even though it's not her fault. It's been 5 days past she's still not here. I'm so lonely, I don't have someone here in my side, all I can't think about is Riyeon. What is she doing? Did she already forgive me? Who is she with today? Is she all alone like me? Should I go and apologize to her? I kept asking my self question but I didn't answer any of them, just this last question, "should I go and comfort her and tell her why did I act like that?" I made rice cake and buy a flower and a teddy for her as a sign for asking forgiveness. This afternoon, I went to her house. I knock house door. When I did, someone open the door, it's not her. I ask the one who open the door "excuse but may I ask who are you?" "I'm the maid here, why do you need something?" She answered me. She looks very new but i need to talk to Riyeon. "Yeah, uhmm... Is Riyeon there? I need to talk to her." I ask. "Sorry, but no one is here just me, I was hired here last 2 days now." She answered. "Huh?!? Where are they?" I ask her again, I was so shock where did they go? "They were in a vacation, out of town." She answered me. "When will they comeback?" I ask her again. "I don't know miss, but maybe next 8 months." She answered me. "8 months?!?" I said, I'm so shock, she will not be here after eight months, is she really that mad at me. "Anyways, thank you..." I said.

What am I gonna do now. Riyeon is the only one who make me happy. She made my life into a new world. When I'm with her, I have no problem. WHY DID I SHOUTED AT HER?!? I'm so angry at my self, so guilty. I cried in a corner, and remember everything that happen. I'm blaming myself for everything, every single thing. I didn't get out of my home for almost 2 weeks. I just can't live without my little friend and my sister, she is the clown that makes me smile, she is the doctor that takes care of me, she is my sister and lives with me... I was just sitting on a couch then suddenly, someone just knock my door. I'm so afraid who could it be, I didn't open the door, but that person is still knocking it. I open the door slowly, and when I peek a little, I saw Baekhyun. I was wondering why is he here? "Oh... Hi... Baekhyun." I said. "Hi friend..." He said. "May I come in?" He continued. "Yeah, sure of course...." I answered and let him in. My house was a total mess, I'm so shy maybe he'll tease me because of this. "I'm so sorry, I'm so messy.. PLS.. Make your self comfortable." I said and I quickly clean my place. But it's too impossible to clean it, now that there is a visitor, a very special visitor. He just looked around. "Hahaha!" He laugh. "What are you laughing about?" I ask him, I'm getting embarrass because of this. "Nothing, it's just, you haven't still change." He said. "Huh?!? What do you mean I still haven't change?" I ask him with embarrassment. "You forgot a lot didn't you friend, you see, when we're at seventh grade, you were messy, too messy, then I'm the one who cleaned your mess, I always did." He said. I'm so shock, why did a universal star clean my mess, good thing he is still not an artist that time, or else I'll get bullied by mean girls. I am kneeling down and picking up my mess and he just kneel down in front of me. He held my face and he put my face up, he was forcing me to look at him, but I still clean up. I'm still looking down at the floor. He suddenly said, "look up, look at me..." I did it, and I told my self I was just only gonna look at him, but not totally at him, like at the back so it will be look like I'm looking at him. "Look at my eyes." He said. I look at his eyes and he stared at me. He said "let me clean that up for you, just sit down and take a rest, you look tired." I was so happy, and I think I want to scream, but we're just best friend. I feel like my heart beats so fast, but I don't understand why. When I saw Baekhyun picking up my trash, there is like a flashback that I see. I see Baekhyun picking up my trash for me. "Hey friend!" He shouted. "Yes?" I answered. "You still don't know how to clean properly didn't you?" He ask me. "That's why I always clean your trash." He continued. I just put an awkward laugh to him.

When I look back, my place was all clean, it was spotless. "Thank you Baekhyun, thank you." I just thank him, and being so embarrass from letting him clean my mess. "No problem friend." He answered me with a relieving smile. We just sit there and look awkward to each other. "hey Rira." He said. "Yes Baekhyun?" I answered. "Do you still remember, what we call each other before?" He ask me. "No, I already forgot it." I answered him, I tried to remember it so I can say something to him. "oh yeah, I remember, you call me milk and I call you sugar, hahaha good times." I continued my answer. "I forgot why..." I continued. "Hahaha! Good thing I remember, you call me sugar because you said I was so sweet and I call you milk because..." He said. He looked at me and he continued to say "every time I saw you I feel so relax and happy, even just your beautiful and... lovely voice I feel like all my problems had already wash away." My face turns a bit red on what he said.

"I just miss you so much!" He said and he gave me a big hug. I was shock and I don't know what to do, should I hug him too. He hugged me so tightly. His hugged is so warm, I feel so relax. We talk all day. We are so weird but I tried to act normally but I'm feel so uncomfortable every time I'm with him. He makes jokes and it's quite good though. He haven't change yet, he's still the sugar I've been through with my whole life. "Hey milk!" He shouted. "I need to go, the members are looking for me." He continued. "Ahh yeah.. Ok sure.. Thanks for stopping by." I answered him while I open the door. He walks out and I was about to close the door but he stop me. He put his foot in the side of the door so the door won't close. "Ohh, uhmm.. Milk." He said. "Yes... Sugar?" I ask and open the door for him. "Maybe next time, I'll visit again?" He ask. "Yeah sure, anytime sugar." I agreed. He bow down and walk away. I close the door, and I kept jumping and giggling about what happen. I can't believe I found him.

Honestly, when we were on our sixth grade. I was so lonely. When I saw Baekhyun, I think I have a crush on him that time, but he is popular and he hangouts on popular kids in our school, so I just didn't matter at all. I didn't even know he would be my best friend and call him sugar. Actually when we are in our high school life, he had a girl friend, this girl is very beautiful and smart. I was so jealous... But I don't want Baekhyun to know that, I just help him in his problem about her. When Baekhyun ask me to gave a flower to her or chocolates it hurts me a lot, if he just knew about it. On our last day, he talk to me and say those words, he wanted to see me again, and he gave me flowers as a sign of congratulations. I felt so glad that he still cares for me . I thought she was on this girl only, and he just think of me as his helper. When I was taking pictures for my last day. Baekhyun ask me to take pictures of him and her girlfriend, I think that is just all "ok". When after taking him and her some pictures. I heard Baekhyun told her "I love..." I felt so sad and I just ran away and cried, even though he haven't still finish the sentence. I don't want to hear the whole word, it just tear my heart apart. When I look back I saw Baekhyun holding her hand and they tried to catch me but it just added to the tear in my eye. So that day, I was mad at him, I'm his friend and he knows a lot about me and I've been with a long time, unlike his girlfriend, he just met her for like 1 week. I tried to look for him but I just forgot his face. Because I didn't saw his face or took a picture of him, just him! On our last day, but instead I have a picture but with this girl!

Actually, I'm going to confess to him. I wanted to tell him "I love you" on our last day, but I didn't expect that he would be in this girl. That girl ruined my life, I just tried to forget her, and good thing I did, I didn't even remember a single thing abut her, not even her face or voice, HAHAHAHA! I'm just so glad she's not here blocking my life. But she is also 2 years younger, like Riyeon but Riyeon has the total difference to her. Riyeon is the only girl I know who is very kind, loving, caring, smart and cute...