Dear Wish (exo)

Chapter 8: Jealousy came?

Dear Diary,

This is just another day of another moment...,

I was in the cottage with Sehun, Luhan and Kai. Kai was hugging me and he's comforting me, Luhan and Sehun were at the water playing. Kai and I suddenly fell asleep while he's hugging me, the two playmates just kept playing and playing like little kids. Someone is just tapping me while I'm sleeping, I just didn't mind at all, but it's so annoying, that person was tapping me and now this person keeps shaking me, my eyes were close I can't see who keeps doing those stuff. When I open my eyes it's Baekhyun, he pulled me out of Kai, and he looks like he's so angry. Kai was disturb and he almost fell at the chair his sitting on, Baekhyun is acting weird, I whispered to Kai "I'm sorry, he's acting weird again" "it's fine." Kai answered me back. Baekhyun pulled me in my bedroom and he push me through the couch, "sugar, your acting weird? What is it?" I ask him and I look like I'm not scared of him. "Nothing!" He shouted, he kept walking in front of me. "Ok it's nothing then I'll go back there." I stand up and when I was about to open the door, he block my way he said "your not going anywhere" "I have visitors out there" I said. "your staying here." He said and he pulled me to the couch. "Look Baekhyun this is my house, don't act like you really live here!" I said, it's my first time shouting at Baekhyun. "Are flirting with Kai?" He ask me and he look at me. "WHAT?!?" I ask, I was so shock, why did he ask me such question. "I said..." Baekhyun continued, but he haven't finish his sentence. "I heard what you said, is that what you've been thinking all this time, he just comforted me that time but we accidentally fall asleep!" I shouted, I was so angry with him. "We're just friends like us!" I continued. "Friends? Us? So you think we're just friends?" He ask me with he's pointing himself. "Yes, we are just friends, you have a girlfr..." I answered him, I almost said the word girlfriend. "What, continue your sentence, WHAT?!?" He shouted, he put his voice high at me. I started to cry, and I ran out to my room, Kai was suppose to go to my room he was walking upstairs, but I ran downstairs, I pulled Kai with me. We went downstairs, and the cooker were done cooking they were about to put there dishes in the table but I didn't look at it, I just keep crying and Kai was with me. I ran outside and Baekhyun tried to catch me but I ran as fast as I can with Kai. I was at one building, an abandon building with Kai, "what wrong?" Kai ask me and he sat beside me, he puts his arms around me. "Is it Baekhyun?" He ask me one more. I just nodded while I cover my face. I forgot to bring an handkerchief with me. Kai remove my hand in my face and he wipe my tears with his handkerchief, he holds my face and he said "its ok, it's ok, you'll be fine." I felt a bit happy when he said that. We sat there for 3 minutes, "did you and your sugar fight?" He ask me. I just nodded and I look down at the floor. "What did you fought for?" He ask me again. "Nothing..." I just answered.

We've been there for 10 minutes, "are you bored?" I ask him. "I'm sorry, I don't know why your here, I just pulled you because your the only one who understand me." I continued. "No, it's fine, actually I'm so glad that I'm helping you." He ask me and he smiled like nothing is wrong. "Actually do you want to call us something, I mean like Milk and Sugar for me and Baekhyun, what do you think for us?" I ask him and I started to smile. "Hmm... What if I call you happy and you call me smiley, so when we call each other that, we would feel better, is it ok?" He answered me, he really make me smile. "Ok sure smiley, it's really cute!" I answered, I really felt better, we had so much fun and I suddenly forgot about the fight between me and Baekhyun, Kai really makes me so happy. Suddenly someone called Kai, he pick up his phone and it was Suho calling "yeoboseyo!" Kai answered his phone. "Kai? Kai! Where are you? What happen are you ok? Is Rira with you?" Suho ask, he kept asking and asking he really does care for his members. "Suho hyung, I'm fine, were fine, we just went out for a walk and for the fresh air." He answered and he just kept being happy. "Please come home Kai, Baekhyun is really worried about Rira, he won't stop walking around, he kept going out, he thinks that you and Rira had already went home!" Suho said like it's an emergency, "ok, ok! We'll be there!" Kai answered and he turned off the phone, he laugh after that. "What's wrong, why are you laughing?" I ask him and I also started to laugh. "Nothing!" He answered. When we got home I was holding Kai's hand and we kept swinging it around like we're little kids. When we pass home, Baekhyun was waiting outside "MILK!" He shouted he ran through me and he hug me so tightly "I thought something happen to you" he said, he hug me so long and we went inside. "Ohh Kai your home!" D.O said. "Yeah, Did you already ate?" Kai ask, "yeah we already ate, we left some for you and Rira, and Baekhyun...." Chen said and he puts his arms around. "Baekhyun is still not eating?!?" Kai ask, he was so shock. "Yeah, he's waiting for Rira so he can eat with her." Chanyeol answered and he in the couch playing a song in his guitar. Kai and I started to eat, but Baekhyun just kept putting foods in my plate. "Baekhyun! That's enough." I said. I called Baekhyun by his name and he just look at me, "o..ok sure, sorry." Baekhyun answered and he just started to eat. After we eat, they should go home, then the others are waiting outside for Kai and Baekhyun, Kai is in the toilet and Baekhyun was with me. "Are you ok milk?" Baekhyun ask me again. "I'm fine, I'm fine!" I answered him like I'm being annoyed. "I'm sorry I shouted at you before, I was just not in myself that time....." He apologizes and he look at the floor. "It's ok, I know your not in your self, and plus how can I stay mad at my very best friend in the whole world!" I answered, I gave him a big smile and I hug him. He started to smile and I'm glad. Kai went out the toilet, I said goodbye and he did too. When they are outside, Kai shouted "Happy! Till next time!" "Ok bye smiley!" I shouted back. Baekhyun stops and he's been standing facing back for 10 seconds and just continue to walk away. I wanted to catch him to ask him why did he stop but he need to go, so just dint mind it...

I clean up the kitchen, dining table, dishes, the living room, the backyard, and my room. When I clean my room, I found Baekhyun's diary notebook, "he left it here!" I told myself, I went out and I tried to catch him but they're already gone. I wanted to read it so I know what's happening with his life, is he still finding his girlfriend? Is he wondering where is she? Did he already found her? I look at his diary for 10 minutes, I wanted to know what's inside, I just kept looking at the cover. I open it a little, just a little, and then I saw the first page, something is written in it. It says...

Dear Diary,
Another day of confusion,

I kept finding this girl, a girl who is going to be my future wife, but it's been 2 years and I can't find her, Where is she? I really miss her. I wanted to say "I love you" but I'm a coward, Why can't I say that thing in front of her. Ugh! A man shouldn't be a coward. I wanted to tell her my feelings before, but I'm so afraid maybe she'll tease me, I'm so dumb, I'm a fool! Is she alone? I wanted to comfort her, but is she really here, did she go to other places. I wanted to know! I know someday I'll see her... Someday... This is so unfair. Did she have another half, is she living with someone now, maybe she already did. I've been with her so long, and I given her a lot of flowers, chocolate, teddy bears and stuff. Did these things is still kept in her? I wanted to hear her beautiful voice, I wanted to see her beautiful eyes, I wanted to see her laugh, I wanted to see her smile, I wanted to see her cry, I wanted to see her everyday in my life, I wanted to give her something, I wanted to make her happy, I wanted to live with her, I really wanted to do, to see, to hear, to feel, a lot of stuff with my future girl. But where is she? I really want to... But I don't really want to see her... Get hurt....

I'm so hurt, he is still finding these girl, of course it's not me, I mean flowers, chocolate, teddy bears, well he haven't gave me these stuff before so maybe I'm not important in his life. So this day I'm so mad, I trash the house, I cried in a corner. I don't know what to do, Baekhyun just hurt my feelings, before I also wanted to say "i love you" but he's always with these girl. After trashing the house, I accidentally slept in the couch, I look like a fool. What happened to me? When I woke up this morning, Someone called me, it's Kai "yeoboseyo" I answered. "Wow happy, you sound like something happen to you..." He said. I didn't answer him I just kept crying and crying. "Hold on, I'll go there!" He continued and he immediately turn off the phone. I knew he would come, and I just lay down at the couch, my feeling is really, my heart is like being hit with a hammer then it's broken down and nobody is trying to fix it, it remains broken. After 10 minutes, someone knock the door, I knew it was Kai so I just shouted "it's open!" He went in and he saw me crying in the couch. "Omo! What happen to you?!?" He said, Kai freaked out. "Someone, just hurt me..." I answered. He sat beside me, and comforted me. He felt really bad like its his fault, "I knew you were hurt that's why I called you." He continued. Good thing someone understands my feelings. "How did you know?" I ask him and I look at him. "Of course I'll know, how can I remove from my mind the person that I'm with, in an abandon building." He answered. He makes me laugh, "hahahaha! That night!" I said, I kept laughing. Kai is like one of the person that makes me happy, understand me, care for me, and most of all known me. "Wow, your place is all trash out." He said and he look around. "Yeah, sorry about it. I freaked out a lot." I answered him. "Don't worry I'll clean it up for you." He said. The way he clean it's like how Baekhyun cleaned my place, he really makes the place spotless, when I look at Kai all I can imagine is Baekhyun, but I can't have this situation. I kept removing Baekhyun from my mind, this day. When I look at my place, it's really spotless, Kai really clean my place well. "Thank you smiley!" I immediately thank him. "No problem happy" he answered back. He kept saying jokes, it's like Baekhyun, no, no more Baekhyun, remove! "Anyways, I need to go, I just came here to comfort you, remember what I told you last night, if you need me I'll be there, just call my name and I'll be there." He said, "really? Ok" I answered, he is like a hero. He went out my room and I kept jumping with joy, my mood came back again...