Enchanted To Meet You-- A Taylor Swift and Travis Kelce Story

-Part 12-

⚠️ TW: self harm ⚠️
Taylor's POV:
he got off the counter and came a couple steps towards me. he held out his pinky for me to interlock mine with, but i didn't. i stared at him for a second as i saw him lose hope. i hopped down from my counter and went upstairs. i slammed the door a little harder than i intended to and walked straight into the bathroom. before i could have any more thoughts i grabbed my razor and went for it. each cut stung my skin but i couldn't help it. i went over my arms and thighs for a while until i could barely breathe as i choked up on my sobs. i laid there for a couple of minutes staring at what i've done. i've been on the verge of doing this for a couple days now but this was my breaking point. but not because of tra- oh my god. travis is still here. i got up as slow as i could and went to my closet. i sat down for a couple of minutes over there too because i couldn't keep myself standing. i picked out new pajamas that could cover all of my fresh cuts and put them on. i felt my skin sting again as the cloth touched it but there was nothing i could do now. i walked quietly towards my door because i heard noise. when i reached it i slid down the wall next to the door and sat on the ground as i listened.

Travis POV:
when taylor went upstairs i thought she needed to be alone but she slammed the door and i knew that couldn't be good. i messed up, i shouldn't have asked so many questions but i was so worried about her. i knew from the beginning that she was lying about eating today but i let it go. when i asked her now about the salad there was no moving past it i needed to know what was happening. i left her upstairs for a minute before i decided to make my way up there. when i got to her door i knocked softly.
"can i come in" i asked but i got no response
"taylor i'm sorry." i said after knocking again
she still didn't say anything but i could hear noises coming from a far place so i assumed she was in her bathroom or closet and couldn't hear me. i waited a couple more minutes before i slid down next to the door and sat on the floor. i was silent for a minute before i started talking because i heard her walk towards the door. i had a feeling she was sitting on the other side but she also might've walked away by now. i took a deep breathe before i started
"taylor i like you. i like you a lot and im not great with my words like how you are but i try my best. i SHOW you that i want this but i think everyone needs to hear it once in a while. i knew from the day u first texted me that i couldn't screw this up. everyone around me said this was so great but they didn't know the extent. nobody knew how u kept me up at night thinking about what we could be. nobody knew about how everytime we would facetime and you'd fall asleep i would admire you before going to bed myself. nobody knew how on my days off i set an alarm for an early time so i could send you a good morning message before you woke up. i'm just worried about you and i didn't mean to mess anything up. i wanted to make sure you were eating but im not gonna act like i know how it is to be you because i dont. but i do know being in the public eye can do something to you. i've seen your documentary and i saw how low it got for you. i would never want you to go through that again. i'm always here for you and i'm not going anywhere. whenever you're ready to come outside ill be sitting right here."
by the end of it there were a couple of tears welled up in my eyes but i wiped them away quickly. i thought she was listening but she didn't make a sound nor did she come outside so i guess not. i sighed and leaned my head back against the wall. when i closed my eyes for a second i heard the door creak open.

Taylor's POV:
i heard the whole thing. all of it. i was sitting quietly listening to him express his feelings for me and i started to silently cry a little. nobody's cared for me the way travis does and i feel guilty making him feel this way. when he was done i heard him take a deep breathe and i let my thoughts sink in along with his words. i finally got the courage to stand up and open the door. i walked out and he instantly looked up at me. i slouched and sat down next to him. we sat there in silence for a moment before i put my head on his shoulder. he put his on top of mine and we stayed like that for a couple of minutes before he spoke up.
"i'm sorry, baby" was all he had to stay for me to breakdown on his shoulder.
he pulled me in for a hug and rubbed my back.
"i'm right here" he said every couple minutes along with a kiss on my head
i sobbed for a while until it started to slow down.
it was silent for a moment before i pulled away and moved my head back to his shoulder. this time he put his arm around me and his hand on my head. he started to slowly massage it which helped the headache that was starting. it was my turn to take a deep breathe before speaking
"trav it's not your fault u shouldn't be sorry. i was already on edge today so i just lashed out and i didnt mean to. i know you were just trying to help and i should've let you but i guess im just not used to that. my initial reaction was to just do what i used to a couple years back. i ran to my room and did things i regret in there but now all i can do is try moving forward. i wish i could let that stuff go and it could just be easy but thats not how i am. and i never had someone who cared, when it happened it was something i did by myself. im not used to having people notice it so i chose to walk away from you even though i should've told you the truth. i really like you too and you didnt do anything wrong i pinky promise." i said as i held up my pinky with a smile
he locked his with mine and he smiled back.
"and i know you're supposed to wait months or even wait to start dating before saying this, but i love you trav. i love how you care about me and text me all the time. you never leave room for me to overthink what's happening and i love that. i love how you beat the stereotype about football players by truly caring about me. i love it all. you don't have to say it back just because i did but i wanted you to know that." i said
i got nervous and looked forward again. i put my hands around his arm to try acting calm but he could tell. he kissed my head before he grabbed my chin and tilted my head to face him.
"i love you too baby." he smiled
"i'm not saying it because you said it, i've been thinking it all along. i've known from the very start that id love you because you have that effect on me. you walk in the room and all i think is damn she's the most beautiful woman i've ever seen. i love everything you do, and wear, and say, and i always will." he said with a smile
"thank you. thank you for caring even though i pushed it off for so long." i said as i kissed his cheek
"of course. how does a late night dinner sound? a REAL dinner" he said
"sounds great" i said as i began to stand up
thank god we held hands as we went to the kitchen otherwise i would've probably fallen over. when we entered he turned to me and asked if i wanted my salad from earlier.
"no i think ill look for something else in the fridge" i said as i walked over to it
i stared inside for about thirty seconds before i heard travis walk over. he passed me to get out some bowls but he brushed past my arm. i had it on my hip so when he hit it i definitely felt the burn. i made a sound which caused him to turn to me quickly.
"oh sorry i didn't notice i hit you so hard" he said apologetically
he touched my arm to try helping but i whimpered again.
"tay?" he said confused
before i could respond he lifted up my sleeve and saw the marks all over my arm.
"these look new" he said as he inspected them
"are there more" he asked
"i- um-" he gently picked up my other arm and rolled down my sleeve
he saw them and looked back up at me
"so if you're wearing a long sleeve to cover your arms, are you wearing sweatpants to cover your legs?" he asked cautiously
i stayed silent and stared at the ground
"baby can i take off your pants to see?" he asked as he cupped my face
i hummed in response as a yes.
he got down on both knees and started to pull down my pants. when they fell to the ground he sat with his feet tucked under him. he stared at them for a minute not saying anything. he leaned forward and put his hand on the back of one of my thighs. he kissed my cuts and then repeated on the other thigh. then he looked up at me
"please don't do this again?" he asked as he went in for a pinky promise.
i accepted and then he stood up.
"do you have bandaids?" he asked
i pointed to a cupboard because i couldn't speak up right now. he walked over and took a box out.
"can you sit on the counter for me" he asked
i walked over and got on it as he walked to me. he stood between my legs and picked up one arm. he turned to the side to get better access and he started to bandage me up. then he finished and kissed my arm before grabbing the other one. he repeated the same thing on that arm along with both thighs. then he kissed my cheek
"how bout i run you a bath, i don't think you're in the state to stand up for a shower right now." he said while holding both of my hands.
i nodded my head and smiled before wrapping my arms around his neck.
"can i carry you upstairs or do you want to walk up yourself" he asked as he hugged me back
"you" was all i managed to get out
he wasted no time and he wrapped my legs around his back but was careful with my thighs. then he lifted me effortlessly off the table and walked towards the stairs. my feet were dangling and i was holding on tight to him. he used my butt to hold me up but i didn't mind at all. when he got to my room he looked around for the bathroom before walking towards it. he turned on the lights and then went to the bath tub. he sat me down on the side and gave my head a quick peck. then he turned on the water.
"can you put ur hand under the water while i change the temperature and let me know when it's good" he asked
i leaned over and put my fingers under the water as he switched around.
"that's good" i whispered
i pulled my hand back as he filled up the tub and added soap to it. i admired as he did everything so carefully before looking over at me.
"it's ready for you love" he said as he stroked my hair
i smiled and stood up.
"are you okay if i sit here while you're in the bath? i just wanna stay and make sure you're okay nothing else. if you want me to wait in ur room i can do that too." he said slow and calmly
"stay" i said
i couldn't form full sentences right now but i think he caught on. he said okay and smiled.
"i'm gonna go in your closet to pick out some fresh clothes. how about you take off your clothes and get in until i get back hm?" he said while caressing my cheek.
"okay" i said as i got lost in his eyes
he leaned down and kissed me softly. then he walked out and left the door a little open. i took off my clothes slowly and got in the tub. i sat for a minute lavished in the water until travis came back.
"i grabbed a towel for you too" he said as he set it all down on the hook.
then he got on the floor and i was confused until i saw the wet paper towel in his hand. he was cleaning up the blood stains on the ground from my earlier activity. then he threw it away and sat by me next to the tub. he started talking about a brand new subject to loosen the tension i had going on. he asked about my upcoming dates for tour.
"i'm uh- um in south- south america f- for a while" i said slowly
he grabbed my face and moved it to look at him
"take your time. i wanna hear all about your tour but im not in the music industry so maybe explain everything as you go. and you don't have to talk now if you don't want to but i just want to help you right now. i love you baby" he said before he leaned down to kiss me. i kissed him back and we stayed like that for a minute. nothing extreme but he was showing he cared and i loved that. i started talking about south america and how ive always wanted to play in brazil so thats exciting. i also talked about how my day after a concert is and how i just stay in bed all day while rotting. he listened intently to everything i said and added his own comments along the way. when i was done it was time for me to get out of the tub and he could tell too. the bubbles were all gone and it was just clear water now.
"ready?" he asked
"yeah" i said
he held out his hands for me to grab on to as i got up and i took them. the water dripped down from me as i stepped out. he wrapped a towel around me and then pulled me in for a hug. he held me close for a minute and rocked us back and forth too. after a couple more minutes he pulled away and his entire shirt was soaked in water.
"oh my god i'm sorry" i started saying
"hey hey you know what, i don't even sleep with my shirt on so it's not a big deal" he said as he kissed my cheek. i leaned forward and placed my head on his shoulder and stood there for a second before i pulled back to put my clothes on.
"i got it" he took the clothes from my hand and helped me put them all on.
"sit here" he said after i was done
i sat down on the edge of the tub as he walked to the area with the sinks. he reached over the counter and grabbed my hairbrush. he walked back over and started to brush my hair for me. it was tangled from the bath but he was patient and started at the bottom while making his way up. when he was done he kissed my head and put the brush back. then he picked up my clothes i took off earlier and put them in the laundry bin. he grabbed my hand and bent down so he was at my level.
"you're so gorgeous taylor and you have no idea. it kills me everyday that you don't see yourself how i see you" he said as he looked straight at me
"i love you" i said
he kissed my knuckles like always
"is there anything else i can do for you" he asked
"no i'm okay for now" i said with a smile
he nodded his head and stood back up. he helped me get up and held my hand as we walked out. we got to my bed and he pulled my blanket down so i could get in.
"i'm gonna go grab you some food from downstairs because i'm sure your hungry right now." he said
"okay" i said with a smile
he walked out and came back a couple minutes later with some food i had sitting in the fridge. he handed it to me and i said thank you before he sat down next to me.
"u wanna watch something as you eat? i know that can help" he said
i picked up the remote and turned it on. i chose my favorite episode from greys anatomy and started eating. he moved his eyes between the tv and me constantly but it wasn't overbearing at all. when i was done he took the bowl from me.
"i'm so proud of you tay." he said as he kissed my temple.
he told me to lay back down and once i was comfortable he raised my blanket and put it over me. he leaned down and kissed my forehead.
"i'll see you tomorrow okay?" he asked
"sounds good" i smiled back
he turned off the tv and rubbed my hand for a second before walking away. he shut the lights and closed the door behind him. this is crazy. i've never had someone pamper me so much in my life. he did everything so gently and with care that i'm in awe. i moved around in bed a little for a long time before i sighed. all that and i can't even sleep alone after. i got the courage to get out of bed and leave my room. i walked down the hall and knocked on his door. the lights were off so i assumed he was asleep but i knocked anyways. there was no response so i was about to do the walk of shame back to my room but then i heard him.
"taylor?" he asked from inside, probably still in bed
i opened the door and peeked my head in.
"can i- can i sleep with you" i asked shamefully
"yeahhh of course cmere" he said as he raised his blanket to let me come under it. i settled down next to him and then he lowered the blanket back down. i put my head on his chest and he rested his arm on my back. he started drawing circles on my back and it helped me relax. he wasn't wearing a shirt but i was too exhausted to even think about that right now.
"goodnight i love you" he said as he kissed my head.
"i love you too, goodnight baby" i said as i turned and leaned up to kiss his jaw.