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XV

hyunjin-

"When she got back I was still moving things out of the house. I called Minho after I had got everything out and into my car. He told me I could stay with him while looking for somewhere new. My parents were in Australia when this all happened." Bangchan took a break to wipe his tears and stay calm. It hurt Hyunjin to see his lover like this. "My mom always said she had 'Channie-Senses' and called me 2 days after. She told me her and my father would be moving here and I could live with them until I wanted to move out. Minho helped me move to where my parents had moved to."

Hyunjin hugged Bangchan tightly, he didnt ever want to let go of him ever again.

"I dont cut anymore." Bangchans voice shook as he spoke. Hyunjin held him tighter feeling Chan hug him back slowly.

Hyunjin was silent. He didnt know what to tell Chan, or if he should say anything at all. He started to pull away when Chan pulled him tighter.

Hyunjin was confused but stayed with his arms wrapped around Bangchan. Bangchans tears soaked through Hyunjins shirt, his heart hurting even more.

It took about long time before Chan finally pulled away from Hyunjin. His eyes red and puffy, he had a sad smile on his face. "Im not completely clean. I relapse sometimes. I try not to.."

"As long as youre trying not to, I say youre doing good." Hyunjin whispered, he took Bangchans hands in his and carressed them comfortingly.

"Thank you Hyun.." Bangchan whispered, his eyes tearing up from everything.

"You tired baby?" Hyunjin gently rubbed Chans cheeks noticing a tired look in his lovers eyes.

"Mhm, can we cuddle, like spoon?" Chan yawned the tiredness taking over his soft facial features.

"Little or big spoon?" Hyunjin gently helped Bangchan stand up so they could cuddle correctly.

"Is it okay if im the little spoon?" He looked up with his doe eyes. Hyunjin nodded and hopped into bed. Bangchan crawled in with him. He felt Hyun wrap his arms around his waist. They slowly fell asleep, both of them using the others breathing as a lullaby.

hours later

"CHANNIE! MINHO AND JISUNG ARE HERE!" Hannah yelled, waking Hyunjin up. He took a breath before kissing the top of Bangchans head.

He left and met Hannah at the stairs.

"Oh! Hyungnin or whatever your name is, Minho came. He said something about Channie-senses going off. Jisung came because he could." Hannah smiled, Minho and his boyfriend appearing from around the corner.

"We arent interupting anything right?" Jisung asked, Minho had a worried look plastered onto his face.

"Channie is sleeping. I can tell you two in the room." He smiled and led Minsung to Chans room. Bangchan was sitting up, tears pricking the corners of his eyes.

"Whats wrong baby?" Hyunjin rushed over holding Chans face.

"I thought you left me alone." Bangchan nuzzled into the touch. A smile replacing the small frown he had before. "Minho? Jisung?"

Jisung smiled and said hello, Minhos worried look still owning his face. "My Channie-senses went of. Are you okay?" Minhos motherly instinct washed over them all at once.

Bangchan laughed softly at Minhos worry.

"Im okay now, I was telling Hyunjin about you know who." The smile slowly faded off of his face. Hyunjin felt anger slowly bubble in the pit of stomach as he remembered everything Chan had told himz

"Fuck. I hate her so fucking much." Minho seethed, he knew Jennie and hated her more than anyone else.

"Calm down Min. Shes gone now remember?" Jisung froze, Minho too. "Fuck."

"What do you mean?" Bangchan asked more confused than Hyunjin.

"So uhm... I have a confession to make." Jisung laughed nervously, something devious was up.

"Spit it out." Bangchan held Hyunjins hand, his palms sweaty and his hand was a little shaky.

"I didnt kill her or harm her! She came to Korea a few years ago to become a k-pop idol. I fucked with that after she debuted. She was kicked out of her group for bullying. I had message proof of her bullying us about being friends with you." Jisung said it quickly taking a dramatic deep breath at the end. Bangchan sat dumbfounded while Hyunjin held back his laughter.

"You fucked woth her future?" Bangchan sounded a little angry, it worried Hyunjin.

Does he want her more than me? Probably. I dont even want myself so theres no reason he shouldnt react like that. Even though she did horrible things to him that doesnt matter. I dont matter enough. She was way better than me anyways.

"Well I mean she fucked up your first relationship!" Ji was confused now. Hyunjin sat still, his poker face kept everything he was thinking/feeling hidden.

"That was years ago Jisung!" Bangchan stood up letting Hyunjins hand go. He was pissed off now and it made Hyunjin feel worse.

"She ruined your highschool experience Chan!" Jisung scoffed, he seemed to notice Hyunjin even more than before now.

"She still deserves a future Ji! You shouldnt have done that to someone I still care about!" Bangchans voice raised slightly but he wasnt yelling. Hyunjin froze, his poker face faltering for a split second.

"Chan! Listen to yourself! After all she did to you!?" Jisung was confused, his attention only on Bangchan. Hyunjin sat listening scared of what was next.

"I still fucking like her! She was my first!" Bangchan argued back, ignoring Jisungs surprised face. "People can change Jisung."

Hyunjin gasped gaining everyones attention. "Im going to Seungmins." He stood up making eye contact with Bangchan. He gave Minho a look before leaving the room.

"Hyun! Wait! I didnt mean it like that!" Bangchan went to follow Hyunjin but Minho stopped him. "Hyun!"

"Chan! Listen to yourself! You just said you wanted to give your toxic rapist ex a second chance in front of your boyfriend!" Minho snapped, the argument continued but Hyunjin couldnt hear anymore.

"Hi Hungmin!" Hannah paused. "You okay?" Her little voice caused Hyunjin to tear up. "You need to talk?"

"Im okay, thank you Hannah. Im leaving." Hyunjin hugged her noticing tears prick the corners of her eyes.

"Youre coming back right? Dont leave forever please!" Hannah hugged him tightly, Hyunjins smile wavered with her actions.

"Im coming back. I just need to give Bangchan a small break so we dont get to used to having eachother around all the time." He patted her head wiping her tears.

"Okay, love you Hyunpin."

"Love you too Hannah."

At Seungmins

"Hyun? You alright?" Seungmin caught Hyunjin. The tears spilling instantly. "Come here, need to talk?"

"Yes please." He sobbed into Seungmins shoulder, he let it all out. Every bottled up feeling rushed out.

"Shhh let it out. Im here Jinnie." Seungmin comforted his best friend. Hyunjin held him tightly not wanting to lose the comfort or warmth.

"Bangchan wants his ex back. He said it all. In front of me!" He sobbed even louder.

A/N: oops.... uhhh bye

hope you enjoyed somehow

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