older || hyunchan ||

XVIII

A/N: trying more writing styles :)
bangchan (1st person)-

Did I regret this? Yea, definitely. Was I also lucky? Very lucky.

Minho sat on one side of me, Hyunjin on the other. The other boys sat in front of us. Jisung stood in the back, he already knew most of what happened with Jennie.

"Remember, if you cant finish it you dont have to. Take your time, me and Hyunjin are here to help you." Minho gently pat my leg with a gentle smile on his face, I smiled back.

"I know I cant say the entire thing I told you and Hyun but I can do a shorter version." I looked at the others who nodded in understanding.

I took a deep breath, Hyunjin slipped his hand into mine and gave it a reassuring squeeze.

"When I was with Jennie, before I met most of you, and she would go to parties with me. Usually she would get drunk and I would stay sober to drive us home. It was a healthy relationship until she told me I could let loose and she would stay sober." I swallowed past the lump in my throat, this was the part that was hard. Tears welled up in my eyes, blurring my vision momentarily.

They sat there, all seven of them waiting patiently for me to finish. Hurry up. Finish the story, they shouldnt have to wait. Why are you taking so long. Chan say something. Try, dont stutter get it out. Tell them. Dont tell them. They wont agree. Men cant get raped. You cant get taken advantage of. Theyll call you weird and weak and stupid. Dont tell them. Dont tell them. Don-

"Channie, hey. Look at me." Hyunjin held my face in his hands. A worried look plastered on his face. "Deep breaths, in and out."

I breathed a long with him. In and out, slow, deep breaths. He smiled once I calmed down, the others sitting where they were. Minho was holding my hands, god my hands hurt. Why did they hurt?

Oh.

I know why they hurt. I looked at them closely, they were bleeding. I had pulled my skin off again. I was forced to looked up by Hyunjin.

"Do you want me, Minho, or Jisung to finish?" The understanding in his voice made me want to bawl. It took everything in me not to cry. Maybe I should have.

"Wheres Jisung?" I couldnt see him. I need him too. He was the first person I had. Jisung was my first friend.

"Im here Chan." He walked into the room with some gauze. "Can I?"

I nodded, he came over and gently held one hand while Minho held the other. They wrapped my hands, while Hyunjin finished the story.

"Im going to fucking murder Jennie." Jeongin spat, he stood up and hugged me tightly. I was surprised, Jeongin didnt swear often and was too sweet to say anything about killing someone.

"And shes back, trying to take Hyunjin from Chan. Shes fucking disgusting." Jisung said matter of factly, everyone looked disgusted or mad.

Unless you were Changbin, he was crying. He met me after Jisung did. He was there when I was with Jennie, he felt bad. He didnt notice how bad she was treating me. He sobbed into Felixs shoulder before he stood up and hugged me.

"Chan, im sorry. I should have known. I didnt even care to ask if you were okay. Im sorry Channie." He held me closer than even before. His tears soaked my shirt, this broke my heart. Bin was so strong, he never cried or yelled at anyone out of anger.

Here he was. Crying, no, bawling his eyes out because of me. He let me go. I didnt want him to.

"Its okay. She cant do anything anymore." I tried to reassure him. I hated seeing him cry. He needed it more than I needed to.

changbin (3rd person)-

"I wont let her near you ever again." Changbin stated firmly. His tears slowly stopped as he returned to sitting with his boyfriend. All the disappointment he felt at himself was gone. He was angry.

Angry at himself and angry at Jennie.

He would do anything in his power to protect Bangchan and Hyunjin. He wont let Jennie do anything to them. And if she tried, he would fuck her life up.

"Binnie. Whats wrong?" Chan noticed his silence which was unusual. Even during moments like this Changbin was never silent.

He didnt respond. He didnt know if he could keep the ever growing hate for Jennie at a low. He hated this feeling, he didnt like hating people.

She was unforgivable. Raping, abusing, and cheating on the person with the sweetest heart ever was unforgivable.

"Take Binnie to your house Lix." Chans gentle voice caught Changbins attention. He didnt argue, he didnt try to stay. He just hugged Chan and let Felix take him home.

"Binnie..? Whats wrong love?" Felixs soft yet deep voice gave Bin comfort. He sat on the passenger side of the car, letting Felix drive.

"How could I call myself a good friend if I didnt even know he was with such a toxic person? I didnt notice the changes in how he acted, I didnt know anything about what he was going through." Changbin broke down again, he held his face in his hands.

"Binnie, love, he didnt tell you about it back then. He might have thought that you wouldnt of understood or believed him. We both know he trusts you with almost everything. But back then he was most definitely worried and scared that he would lose you as a friend." Felix gently pulled Changbins hands off of his face and whiped his lovers tears.

"How do you know so much...?" Changbin sniffled as a small smile appeared on his face. Felix just smiled in return. "Thank you Lixie."

"Of course. Lets get you home to take a nap."

Changbin nodded holding Felixs hand as the younger drove them out of Chans neighborhood.

A/N: wrote this in like 3 days.... may or may not have bawled my eyes out several times while writing this but yay :D shorter than usual but hopefully still good

hope you enjoyed

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