Liability [Simon Ghost Riley]

you and I

She paced back and forth, waiting for him to return. Her mind was in shambles. Never had she actually expected someone as wonderful as him to want her. She was in awe of their kiss. Unlike anything she'd ever felt before. The passion, the longing. She'd do anything to kiss him again, to never let him go. She wanted to show him how much she fucking loved him. She sits on her cot, braiding her freshly washed hair mindlessly to pass the time. Her body ached, begging for sleep, but her mind refused to let her close her eyes. She knew that Simon had responsibilities, but right now he was the only one who could comfort her. She needed him to tell her it was gonna be okay.

It wasn't for nearly another hour when Simon finally walked into the room. She instantly stands and moves over to him, wrapping her arms around his middle, burying her face in his best. He holds her and rubs her back. He takes his mask off and throws it to the side. "You doing okay?"

"Yeah" she nods

"So whats the word? What do we do now?"

"You're going home"

"You're coming with me right?"

"No"

"Hassan?" she asks

"we've gotten intel on Hassan, we learned he's planning to take things nuclear. got a set up in Chicago, we're flying out in the morning"

"Okay" she nods

He looks down, refusing to meet her gaze "I've debriefed with Laswell and we're transporting you back to base in the UK immediately. From there you'll take the first flight back to the states where you'll be personally escorted home. Pack up we've got 20 minutes till your transportation arrives"

"And what about you?" she asks

"I'll be joining the rest of the team for Chicago in the morning. just need to tie up a few... loose ends here"

"When will you be back?"

"it's up in the air at the moment, we'll try and get him fast but we can't be sure. could be a day, could be a week... or longer"

"I should come with you then -"

Simon's jaw tenses as he steps closer to her "its not safe for you, I'm trying to keep you out of harms way"

"I don't wanna leave you, what if you get hurt -"

"This is for the best" he says coldly, she stares up at him and takes a step back, recognizing the cold tone. "This isn't going to work out... between us"

"Why?" she asks as her heart stops, tears instantly fill her eyes "why would you say that to me?"

"I just... can't put you in danger like this anymore. I need to put the team first, we just got too invested and its a mess now. I'm sorry. I need to break things off before it gets too deep"

"If you're saying this because of what happened, it was nothing! I'm fine! Don't push me away again" she asks

"I knew this would happen and I was too fucking stubborn to stop it! I tried so hard to keep you away, I destroyed us both for nothing. this is my life the people who get close to me die! I never should've let you in" he shakes his head, turning his back as he runs his hands through his messy hair. This was hurting him just as much as her, but he knew it was better this way.

"Simon don't say that, I'm here, we're here! I'm gonna go back to base and you're gonna deal with Hassan and I'll still be here when you come back!"

"not this time love... this is it. I'm not letting you risk your safety again after what happened back there. this time. you're better off without me."

"no I'm not! every second we're apart I feel like I can't breathe! I understand why you think we're a bad idea, but it's not a crime to let yourself be happy! what happened here with Graves was not your fault, you saved my life, you brought me home! you're a fucking hero Simon!" she pauses and take his hands

"don't push me away again, you're the only thing that makes sense to me" she admits

"You have no idea how hard this is. You're everything I've ever wanted. How can I possibly face you again after this? how can I let you near me? the darkness in me will take us both"

"I won't let that happen"

"you've seen my face! you know my name! now that we're associated you'll be used against me!"

"if that's the price I have to pay for you then so be it! I don't care!"

"But I do! I can't fucking let you get hurt again don't you understand?"

"If association is what you're worried about then I quit, I won't work on base anymore! Just tell me what you want from me and I'll do it!"

"I don't know! I don't know anymore! everything's such a god damn mess and I'm sick of losing the people I love, okay?!" tears well up in his eyes as he finally breaks.

"I know, but you're not gonna lose me Si" she says gently as she walks over to him on the bed and pulls him into her. He leans his head on her chest as she wraps her arms around his shoulder. He holds her tightly as she runs a hand through his hair.

"I'm sorry, I just can't let you go through this any-"

"I don't care! I want it all, give me the pain if you're my reward"

"Why can't you ever make things easy for me?"

"Not in my nature"

He kisses the top of her head and caresses her cheek with one hand. his lips are soft and teasing as he pulls her in closer for a deep and intense kiss. he holds her tightly, not breaking the kiss until they're both short of breath.

"You win" he says "anything you want, I'll do it love"

"All I want is you"